Chapter 1: Lost Words
N's gone.
He left Unova.
He left me.
He said he needed time to think, but may eventually return.
Maybe. One day.
I just can't wait that long. I'm so alone without him. Even though I have mom, Touya, Bianca and Cheren, plus all of my Pokémon, there's a gaping hole where he should be. N. Somewhere along my journey, when I had become determined to make N come to his senses…I had fallen in love with the green haired odd-ball. Whenever I saw him, I felt my heart skip a beat, and my stomach do flips.
I also couldn't help but go red, which had always led to N inquiring to whether or not I was ill.
That was all she could write. It had been seven long, painful, hollow months, and she was finally able to express some form of her emotions onto paper.
She had not said a word since he'd left.
Cheren, Touya and Bianca had carried her all the way from the Pokémon League, to her house. She couldn't even say thanks. Perhaps they'd seen it in her eyes…but it was difficult to tell, her eyes were empty…lifeless. When her mom saw the look in her eyes, she tried to coax Touko into telling her what had happened, but the empty girl just stared at her hands, as tears rolled down her cheeks. Cheren had ended up explaining how Touko had become very close to the King of Team Plasma, N, and had fought him in the Pokémon league, but then his father, one of the Seven Sages named Ghetsis had intervened and fought Touko as well, telling her – in front of his son – that he had been using N for his own ideals, and that he was a worthless moron to him. Cheren then said that after Ghetsis had been arrested, Touko and N had gone to talk in private, and the three of them found her crying, and that they could see N on the back of Zekrom, flying in the night sky. Bianca and Touya had been too upset to tell her Mom what had happened. Touko's mom had tried everything to get the girl to talk, to say one little thing…and finally she had come up with a pen and paper. It was something so simple…yet she had thought more about trying to get her to speak, or smile, or laugh, than to think that maybe expressing her emotions would help her recover.
Sometimes Touko would half smile at Touya's jokes, or Bianca's ditzy personality, or Cheren's holier-than-thou attitute.
When her mom would read the note written by Touko, she felt her heart break for her little girl. Her sad, alone, broken little girl. Reading this letter, even her mom wished N would come back, just to see her beautiful little Touko smile again. When Touko saw her mom read the letter, tears rolling down her mom's face, she sighed.
"Oh sweetheart!" her mom whispered, pulling her daughter into a hug. Touko slowly returned the hug. Something she hadn't done in months.
"I'm so sorry sweetie…I'm sorry you've had to go through so much" her mother sobbed. Her mother felt a familiar wetness on her shoulder. Touko was crying.
Another thing she hadn't seen her do for months.
When Touya, Bianca and Cheren appeared to visit Touko, they found the mother and daughter crying in a hug, and decided to join them. When they pulled away from each other, seemingly hours later, they all had tears rolling down their cheeks. And Touko; she was smiling. Not a half-smile, a PROPER smile. She still couldn't find the means to talk, but she wanted to say thank you to her friends, and in what better way to do that than to smile?
Nineteen year old Touko laughed; Bianca and her were on a double date with two handsome men from Castelia City. They were having dinner at a fancy restaurant. Touko was 100% herself again, and months earlier, had made her comeback as the Pokémon Champion of Unova; the news of which had spread around the Region like wildfire. It had also been announced in Kanto, Jonto and Sinnoh, that Pokemon Champion pf Unova, Touko White, had made her excellent comeback at the Pokémon league. During all of the excitement of returning, meeting with former friends, gym leaders and the elite four, Touko had almost forgotten N.
Almost.
He would be there when she least expected it, the ghost of his last words to her ringing like a siren in her ears.
I will see you again someday, Touko.
But she wouldn't break down again. She couldn't do that to her friends and family, and the entire Unova region again. Three years, they had had to go on without a Pokémon trainer.
She had to stay strong for the sake of everyone.
"Touko-chan? What're you having?" Bianca asked her again, waking her from her daydream.
"Oh! Erm…Magikarp and chips please!" Touko grinned at the waitress. Bianca sweatdropped. Months of dating training, and she STILL went for the Magikarp and chips?!
"Sure thing, ma'am, anything else?" the Waitress asked the four. They declined politely.
Touko's date was a tall, handsome man with black hair and black eyes. Most of the dates Bianca stewed up for the Pokémon Champion seemed to be similar; Cheren told her it was because Bianca didn't want them to look like N, and make her like she was all those years ago. Something Touko had guessed for herself.
"So, Touko…the famous Pokémon Champion of Unova…I feel honoured to be in your presence" her date, Mark smiled.
"Thank you" she smiled back.
Mark wasn't her type. Her heart still yearned for N.
"Just out of curiosity…where were you those three years after becoming the Pokémon Champion? If I may ask?" Mark asked.
"Erm…I don't think-" Bianca begun.
"No, it's fine Bianca. I was ill, very ill" Touko told him. It was technically true. She had had a mental breakdown…which counted as a mental sort of illness, right?
"Oh, sad to hear that…glad you got better, was it life threatening?"
"It depends on how you look at it…" Touko thought aloud, sucking the straw of her glass of coke.
Yes, clearly this restaurant was top class.
"Ah…well, I think you look dazzling!" Mark smiled, his hand touching hers. Touko smiled, not really wanting him to touch her hand, but not wanting to be rude.
When Touko got back to her home, her mom asked her how it went, as usual.
"It was ok" Touko replied, as usual. Her mom sighed, knowing her love for N was still as strong as ever. Touko yawned loudly.
"Well ma, I'm beat, and goin' to bed, I shall see you tomorrow, night" Touko kissed her mother's cheek goodnight.
"Goodnight sweetie" her mom chuckled, as Touko trudged up the stairs. Touko unzipped her green dress, and let it fall to the floor. The only colour she would ever wear was green. It reminded her of him. Touko stared at herself in the mirror. Since she had last seen N, Touko's body had changed a lot; her breasts had filled out, her curves had become more pronounced, and her face had become more…feminine. She wore her hair down now, hanging in curls around her waist, and often wore white jumpers with green jeans.
A bit like N.
Currently, she was in nothing but her underwear, which was green. Yawning again, Touko decided to head to bed. She turned around, going to climb into her bed...but instead, froze. Someone stood in the corner. Someone with grey trousers, and a white, long-sleeved t-shirt. Someone with bushy, long, green hair. Someone who was no longer a boy, but a man.
Someone who was N.
((Whoop! First Pokémon fanfic I ever wrote! I will update…it's just, this fanfic surprised me. I didn't expect I'd be writing it! Anyway, I hope you enjoyed! Please review?))