Chapter 1
If Edward hadn't picked me up early today, I would be swerving my truck all over the road. Edward drove but his eyes never even looked at the road, they watched me. I've known him long enough, to not tell him to look at the road, for if I did, he would just laugh and smile that wonderful, half croaked smile that I loved.
I stared out the windshield; at the mysterious rain that started right before we left the meadow. I loved our meadow. It was beautiful and so amazingingly breath taking. I loved it so much more because every time I went to that meadow, it always reminded me of Edward. But, of course I wouldn't tell him that.
I twisted the ring on my finger absentmindly. I thought, if I didn't look at it, I wouldn't really be going to tell Charlie I was about to marry Edward. Actually, I was very horrified at myself for accepting the proposal. Yes, Edward actually proposed a few months ago; right after Charlise said he would change me into a Cullen because Edward knew that I wanted to be a vampire and I wanted him to do that. He used that. He said he would change me himself if I married him.
At that moment, Edward took my hand. Even thought I was the only thoughts Edward couldn't hear, I sometimes think he did. For instance, he knew me marrying him would put a delay in my becoming a "monster" as Edward called it.
In a second I blinked and I saw a soft porch light on. Of course we were already at Charlie's. Edward drove way too fast but it didn't stop him when I complained, so I learned not to.
I started to shake uncontrollably and Edwards's arms wrapped around me. I noticed he was very cold tonight. Cold, like he just came from outer space giving me even more panic because this little change told me he was as nervous as I.
He lifted my chin with his long fingers and kissed me. If I had any say in the matter, I would spend most of my time kissing Edward. His kiss was something you can't explain. The connection we have and the taste of his breath in my mouth. However, I always had an interesting response to his kisses. Like always, my arms twisted into his hair and pulled him closer to me. He smiled and sighed and pulled away to quickly.
"You know," he mused "At least one good thing will come out of you being a monster like me Bella. When I kiss you, I won't have to try so hard to not hurt you"
I made a face at him fighting the erg to stick out my tongue like a toddler. "And I'll be able to keep you kissing me longing then five seconds." I muttered.
He laughed. I loved his laugh almost as much as his crocked smile. It was like golden honey. I couldn't help but laugh too. I didn't want to but Edward had that affect on me.
A light flooded across the front yard. Then just as quickly as it came, it went.
"Ugg" I groaned. "Now I can't make my get away at the last minute cause Charlie knows we're here."
Edward's smile disappeared. "You were… well trying… to make an escape route? Do you really want to marry me if we don't want to tell Charlie?"
I knew I said the wrong thing. Edward's golden eyes faded slightly. The light gone. But he still smiled.
I knew this wedding meant a lot to him. A lot more to him then to me, so I shifted my mode into "happy" mode and smiled at him.
"Of course I want to marry you. I always thought you were smarter then me but sometimes…" I winked at him and his eyes grew bright. Even thought he didn't say anything else I knew he was glad that I still wanted to marry him.
I don't think he believed that I actually took the ring a few moments ago. I think it feels like a dream to him.
I reached for my door but Edward was already there helping me out.
Even thought Edward didn't remember his human life, he still had human instincts with love. He knew how to kiss a girl right and how to do subtle things like open her door or make her a CD of her lullaby.
"Ready?" he asked.
"Not at all. Let's go"
He took my hand and we walked to the front porch.