Lost - Liz

Liz was back in her hotel room. She was sitting on her bed with her knees up to her chest. She felt so stupid. She was thinking about what Red said to her. Does she really still love Tom? After all he did and said to her. Why was it so hard to kill him? Why didn't she just do it? She didn't really love him. She hated him. She hated him for taking two years out of her life. Two years gone. And they were never coming back. Just like Tom was never coming back. Liz shook her head. She didn't want to think like that. Of course he's not coming back and she didn't want him to.

A light knock on the door pulled Liz out of her thoughts. She quickly put on her robe and got her gun. She walked to the window and tried to see who's in front of her door.

"It's alright Dembe, just go wait in the car."

Liz closed her eyes and sighed. She really didn't feel like talking to Red. She just wanted to be alone. She opened the door.

"What do you want Red?"

"Hello Lizzie" he replied.

She saw his eyes running down her robe. They then looked back up and he smiled at her.

"May I come in?"

Liz rolled her eyes but opened the door a little further so Red could come in. Before she closed the door she looked at Dembe. He was leaning against the car. He was carefully looking around. Then Dembe caught her looking at him. Liz quickly stepped back and closed the door. When she turned around she saw Red staring at the gun she was still holding in her hand.

"You don't have to be scared Tom will show up, because he won't." he said with his eyes still looking at the gun. He then looked at Liz. She was frowning. How would he know Tom will never come to see her again? She walked over to the nightstand. She put down the gun and sat down on her bed when she saw Red was already sitting comfortably in her chair. He looked tired.

"What makes you so sure Tom won't pay a visit?" she asked him."

He didn't say anything for a few seconds. He just sat there and looked at her.
"Because he won't, Lizzie. You don't have to worry about that."
"How can I not, I held him hostage for four months!" she replied yelling.
"Lizzie, I know this is frustrating but please just believe me when I say he will not come to see you ever again."
God she hated it when he didn't tell her the whole truth.
"Why don't you just tell me?! I'm not a child Red. I'm sure I can handle whatever it is that you're not telling me."
Tears were burning behind her eyes but she didn't want Red to see so she tried real hard to hold them back. Red stared at her. It made her feel uncomfortable. After a few seconds Red gave in.

"I sold him a new life Liz. He will never come back. He knows that if he does, you will be the last one he will ever visit.

Chills went down her spine. Red talked to Tom. How did he know where to find Red? Why did he buy a new life? Where would he be all the time? What if he did come back and Red wasn't around. She fought so hard to hold back the tears but she couldn't anymore. The tears floated down her cheeks. Red looked surprised, opend his mouth to say something but then closed it. He stood up and slowly walked towards her. He sat down at the side of her bed. He grabbed her hands.

"I don't like to see you cry, that's why I don't want to tell you everything when it's not necessary."

Liz looked up at him.

"I just want to know things about my own life Red. From day one you know things about my life that I don't even know. With all that happened... I just can't take it anymore."

Red let go of her hands and wanted to stand up. But he was stopped by Liz who grabbed his wrist.

"Please don't leave now." She said with tears falling down her cheeks.

Red looked a little surprised but he didn't move. He just sat there and smiled at her. The tears were now running down her face. Red stood up, took off his shoes and walked over to the other side of the bed. Liz followed his every move. He sat down and pulled her into his arms. Now Liz really couldn't hold back the tears anymore. She put her head down on his shoulder and he gently stroked her hair. Sometimes he gave a light kiss on her head.

"Everything is going to be okay" he said while still stroking her hair. "Everything is going to be okay."

Liz thought about the night she found out about Tom. She went to Red and when she started crying he also held her like this. Telling her the same reassuring words. With that on her mind she fell asleep in his arms. Red waited until he was sure Liz was in a deep sleep. He then stood up and pulled the blankets carefully over her body. He left a note saying:

"Lizzie, everything is going to be alright. Just believe me when I say it's better for you not to know. You have other things to focus on. I hope you slept well. Red"