So I have this obsession with desparate sounding break-up songs – you know the type with music that fucks with your head and suddenly you feel like you're in a dark musical? Yeah, that type. The song in particular is Aiden Grimshaw's Is this love? And so, it has inspired me to write this:
She's staring at a reflection, and she swears in isn't hers. Since when did she, Lily Luna Potter, have bags under her eyes and wide, scared eyes and big hair that looks like a bees nest?
So, obviously the girl in the mirror isn't her.
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He's dancing around an empty room to music only he can hear. The half of his heart that is left has stopped beating blood around his body, and he is cold and he is broken and he is –
He doesn't know anymore.
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The smoky muggle bar, hidden in the underground of London, conceals her from the world and her reality. She sips from a glass of muggle vodka, and a song with a heavy bassline is pounding in her ears, drilling the question into her head.
Is this love?
Maybe it is. Maybe love is hiding because you're scared of falling too deep in a pit of bleakness and crying. Maybe love is hiding because you want him to find you. Maybe love is exposing yourself in ways you never have before – and if it is then Lily Luna Potter isn't in love.
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The empty room, hidden under enchantments, exposes him to his thoughts. They lay sprawling out before his eyes and he can only see fear and maybes and what ifs and and and.
The silence is bright white light, shining in his eyes, screaming out the question he doesn't have the words to answer.
Is this love?
Is it? Is wanting to be alone while the girl of your dreams is out there, somewhere, hiding from you because you asked her too quickly, because you loved her?
Maybe he doesn't even love her. Maybe it's too hard for Teddy Lupin to love.
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She's hanging over the edge of a bridge.
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he's hanging over the edge of a bridge.
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they meet, and their hands clasp, tightly, and their question is answered as they fall into cold water.
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Long live
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The reckless
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Because that's them
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Is this love?
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yes
I don't know either.