Heeyy all you castle readers i hope you all like my story im soo sorry for any punctuation or spelling errors.

Beckett stood there for what felt like hours. She just stood there in shock at what just happened. She did the best she could to hold back the tears but the more she tried the more came out she tried to move but her body wouldn't let her she just stood there feeling the eyes of Ryan Esposito Lanie and the captain watch her as she slowly started falling apart. No one knew what to do it wasn't often that Beckett fell apart. Lanie walked out of the office and over to Beckett she leaned in toward her and gave her a hug she held her close and made sure she knew she was there for her but Beckett just kept thinking why didn't i tell him why did i leave it till now she just kept thinking of how she did this how she made him run off with his blood sucking ex wife by being with Demming she had the chance to go with him but she just turned him down cold and now she wished she hadn't. Ryan and Esposito just stood there watching Lanie try to comfort her but they were just so helpless they had never seen Beckett upset before. Beckett suddenly realized her surrounding and pulled away from the hug wiped up her tears and told Lanie she was going home. She drove home had a glass of wine and went to bed she sat in her bed telling herself he'll be back don't worry but there was apart of her that was afraid she pushed him away for good and she didn't think he was ever coming back.

It was 6:30 the next morning and her alarm clock started going off she got out of bed and took a long hot shower she hadn't thought of him all morning. As she arrived at work she could feel all the people staring and watching her as she walked to her desk Ryan and Esposito exchanged looks and walked over to her

"are you ok" Ryan said with deep concern in his voice.

"I'm fine I can handle myself" she said in an annoyed way

"ok but if you need us just say the word and will be there"

"i know but theres nothing to talk about, if castle wanted to go on vacation with his blood sucking ex wife he can, I mean he asked me and I turned him down so he can do whatever he wants I really don't care!"

"fine keep telling yourself that but when you want to stop lying to yourself will be here"they walked away quickly before she would start yelling

She just sat there looking at her computer screen knowing how much she really was missing him. Every time the phone rag she got butterflies in her stomach and prayed it was him but it never was.

Weeks went by and no calls no emails no texts no nothing she was going to email him but couldn't mussel up the courage to, She finally told herself he wasn't going to make contact and that he probably wasn't ever going to. she let herself believe that was it, that it was over, her phone rang and this time she didn't get butterflies at all she just picked up

"Kate Beckett here"she heard a mans voice and she almost burst into tears Ryan and Esposito just sat there watching as she just listened to the voice on the other side

"hey Beckett long time no talk iv been bored out of my mind up here in the Hampton with out you and the boys"

"CASTLE!" she exclaimed into the phone knowing she sounded a little to happy to here his voice so she toned it down a little.

"hey I just wanted to call and see how things were going down there and well I missed you I mean you guys" he said trying to correct himself but knowing he couldn't take back what he had already said.

"i missed you to I mean we all missed you" she said trying to lighten the moment.

"so how have things been going down there, have any new cases"

"actually no, things have been pretty dead around here for the past couple weeks its been kinda boring without you here and all your insane stories" she was laughing just thinking about them.

"so hows umm you and umm demming working out"

Beckett froze and suddenly realized she had never told him that they broke up "umm we weren't working out so I broke it off"she tried to change the subject away from her " and hows you and umm you ex wife working out"

"ohh well I kicked her out, she went out and got drunk one day and expected me to let her and this guy shack up in my bed so I finally just told her it would be best to leave."

Beckett tried not to grin "ohh thats to bad" she said but knowing it came across a little to happy.

"ya not really but now there hasn't been a lot to do up here"

"that sucks"

"ya hey do you maybe wanna come up for the weekend it will be fun" he said blurting out not realizing she probably had a million things to do and that she would probably say no anyways.

"you know what I do need a break so what the heck sure I will" she tried to hide her excitement of him asking so she said it as calmly as possible.

"really thats great I cant wait to see you" he said smiling from ear to ear happy he was finally going to see her

"ok well I better go but ill see you tomorrow"

"sounds great!"

Kate hung up the phone and saw Ryan and Esposito watching her smiling like too little boys.

"so who was on the phone"Ryan said in a smirking voice

"umm that was rick he invited me to the Hampton for the weekend Im sorry I probably should have asked you guys to make sure your gonna be ok here at work."

"are you kidding will be fine and since when have you ever called castle rick" they said laughing

"i don't know I guess its time"

"ok well have fun"

"i will"

"and if he try's anything funny just call me and ill kill him" Esposito said laughing his head off.

"ohh ya sure ill call you" Beckett said sarcastically

Beckett said her goodbyes and headed to the elevator to see Lanie before she left.

I am only 14 so i hope you don't think its too bad if you like it please comment if you don't i would love to read anything that can make it better thank you sooo much for reading and i hope to hear what you think of it thank you!