Ok guys so I know it's been like forever since I've updated Kiss Away the Pain and It's Always Been You, but with school and everything lately I've been really busy. I'm planning on continuing both of them though, and I'll get to it sooner or later. This is a story that I've actually had for a while. I wrote around the time I started on It's Always Been You. I figured I'd give you guys something new to read until I get my updates in order and posted. I also have a one-shot coming your way soon. I'm not sure how many chapters I have of this…maybe around 9 or 10…so I'll try not to post it all at once. Well here it is. This takes place in season 5 so season 6 isn't even in the mix yet. Let me know what you think.

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Ghost of You and Me…

Emma Nelson sighed as the last bell of the day rang at Degrassi Community School. She grabbed her books and her purse and slowly walked towards Ms. Kwan's desk. The class was getting their English assignment back. Emma knew she didn't do too well on it. The assignment was to write an essay on how Romeo and Juliet's love affect your lives today. What a great topic for Emma whose love life consisted of nothing but heartbreak. Emma's love life consisted of nothing but Sean. He was her first love after all. And after their brutal break up 9th grade year, she couldn't forget about him. When she was dating Chris, Sean got in the way…well her still strong feelings for Sean got in the way. No one knew the real reason why she and Chris had broken up. Chris broke up with her because she still wasn't over Sean. She had him convinced that she was until he saw a picture of she and Sean kissing at her parent's wedding when he was looking through old albums with her and Spike. He saw how she looked at the picture and lightly touched it with her fingers before softly touching her lips and smiling. When Emma finally snapped out of her flashback down memory lane Chris had asked to talk to her outside. Then he broke up with her after accusing her of being in love with Sean. And of course Emma's love life had been over after that. That was until none other than her first love Sean Cameron jumped in front of a bullet for her. And a few days later, he apologized about the way he had treated her. As if Emma wasn't confused enough as to why he jumped in front of a bullet for her. When Sean announced he was staying in Wasaga Beach, Emma just couldn't bring herself to say goodbye…she didn't want to say goodbye. Because saying goodbye meant saying goodbye to their relationship all together. And Emma knew she couldn't do that because deep down in her heart she knew she still loved Sean. After Sean decided to stay in Wasaga Beach, Emma's life started going downhill. Her grades slipped and she wouldn't really talk to anyone. She'd heard everyone's theories about why she was different. They all thought it was because of Rick…because of the shooting. But no one suspected that it was because of Sean. And Emma liked it that way…she liked knowing that she could keep a secret as big as that…she liked knowing that no one mentioned Sean. Well no one did until Jay gave her a ride home after rehearsal one day. He instantly started talking about Sean with her. Jay was the only one who treated Emma like what happened to her didn't matter when she was around him. Emma was numb on the inside. She didn't feel anything…not even when she gave Jay a blowjob. But of course for every action, there is a consequence. Emma contracted gonorrhea from her first love's best friend. Not too long after that, Emma started crushing on this cute guy she met at the community swimming pool. Peter was the first guy she'd liked since "Hurricane Sean blew through her emotional trailer park." Emma had said it herself. She was trying to get over Sean by moving on. She'd tried it before and it didn't work but she didn't see any harm in trying again. But then Peter had to go be a typical perverted guy by taking advantage of a drunk and upset Manny. He taped her flashing him and then e-mailed it to the whole school. Manny said he "ruined her life and her reputation." As if her life and reputation weren't already ruined when she got pregnant with Craig's baby in 9th grade. When Emma and Peter started secretly dating, Emma just had to keep telling herself that so her guilt didn't swallow her whole. Emma had tried to get over Sean with Peter, but whenever she and Peter kissed she saw Sean in her mind. She tried to push that out of her brain and concentrate on Peter. But she still saw Sean…in her dreams, in the hallway where the shooting occurred, when she was with Peter, at the dot, while eating double cheese pizza, at school dances, playing dodge ball in gym, whenever she saw a dog that looked like Charlie, whenever she sees Jay, whenever she signs a petition, whenever she walks through the alley behind DCS to get home, whenever she's on the train to go see Shane, and whenever Emma cleaned the ravine…she thought of Sean. It was like her memories were a ghost of her and Sean's relationship….

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Emma stared at the big red F on her English paper as she walked towards her house. She decided not to show this one to her parents. She knew it wouldn't make a good spot on the fridge. Emma folded up the paper and put it in her purse. She heard a car honk and pull up beside her. She looked over and saw Peter in his car. She plastered on a fake smile and hopped in the front seat. Peter normally did this after school. Emma would tell Manny she had a SITE meeting but she never did. Emma wasn't even in SITE anymore. She had completely lost herself after the shooting.

"Hey babe." Peter said before leaning over and kissing her.

Emma suddenly had a flashback.

Sean was sitting on his couch when Emma knocked. He yelled come in. Emma walked into the apartment, put her stuff down on a chair, and sat down on the couch beside Sean.

"Hey babe!" Sean said before leaning over and kissing her.

Emma's flashback ended along with Peter's kiss.

"Hi." Emma said with her fake smile.

"So where do you want to go today? We could go to my dad's house. He's never home." Peter said smiling.

"Oh but whatever would we do there?" Emma said flirting with him.

"Well…there's you, me, a couch…."

Emma had another flashback.

She and Sean were sitting in MI.

"Come on! A movie, a couch, double cheese, me."

Emma smiled and grabbed his hand.

"How can I resist?"

Emma flashback ended when Peter waved his hand in front of her face.

"Em, are you ok?"

"Yeah, sorry I was just thinking about…dinner!"

"Dinner?" Peter asked her confused.

"Yeah, dinner. See my mom asked me this morning to be home right after school so I could help with dinner." Emma said trying to make an excuse to just get home right away. She was thinking too much of Sean today to be with Peter. She needed to go through her "Sean Box" and then take a nap with hopes of dreaming about Sean. Emma loves having dreams about Sean. They always cheer her up when she wakes up. Her dreams are really the only thing she has left of Sean that's close enough to Sean himself.

"Oh uh, ok. Well I can take you home if you want."

"Can you drop me off a block away so no one sees?" Emma asked trying not to feel guilty about stringing Peter along when she still has feelings for Sean.

Peter smiled.

"Sure."

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Emma sighed as she watched Manny sneak out to go see Craig past curfew. Well at least she could stretch out in her bed again. Emma liked having Manny around but not all the time. She liked being alone sometimes. But now that Manny was dating Craig again, she wasn't around as much as before and Emma felt like she could breathe again. Emma reached over to her bedside table and pulled a picture out of a drawer. It was of her and Sean. They were outside of Sean and Tracker's old house. Tracker and Sean were fixing a motorcycle when Emma showed up. Sean hugged her but was covered in grease and he started chasing Emma around with his greasy fingers. Before they knew it they were both covered in grease and they were lying on the ground. Emma's head was on Sean's chest. Tracker's girlfriend of the week thought it was cute and decided to take a picture. Sean gave Emma a copy of it to put next to her bed. Sean used to have the same one beside his bed so he thought it'd be cute if Emma had the same one beside her bed. A tear fell down Emma's cheek. Emma looked at the empty spot next to her on the bed. She saw Sean appear beside her.

"Em, what's wrong?"

"I'm being haunted Sean." Emma said softly.

"By what?"

"By a ghost of you and me." Emma said with a sad smile and she watched Sean disappear again.

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So what do you think? R&R!