Chapter 1

It has been three weeks since the incident with Alois and Claude. Three weeks since I became a demon and I fucking hate it. I had accepted from the moment I made the contract with Sebastian that I was going to die. I hate the fact that the choice was taken from me but what I hate the most is how much more hostile Sebastian has become towards me. The tension between us is so heavy that if I could I would vomit. I know that he completely lost his chance to devour my soul and if I could I would willing give it to him. Now we have to accept the fact that it will never happen and that Sebastian will never be free from the contract that binds us together.

Oh how life really likes to brutally fuck us over.

I sigh and stare towards the direction Sebastian is in. Watching him load our things into the carriage for when we depart for good from the Phantomhive mansion. Away from the home where everything fell apart. From where Sebastian and I have been living for the last three years. Away from Tanaka, Bard, Mey-rin and Finney. Away from Elizabeth. I don't feel bad for a second leaving them behind. It's too dangerous for us to stay anywhere near them with us being demons. It's also dangerous for the fact that after awhile people will notice that I won't age anymore.

I was so deep in thought that even though I have been staring at Sebastian I didn't realize that he walked up to me until just now. I look up at him trying to read him but I can't. His face is completely blank so I can't tell what he is thinking. After a minute I look away unable to look at him anymore. I know he hates me and usually I would be fine with that because I thought I hated him too but I don't. Every time he looks at me with hatred and disgust does something to me. It hurts knowing how he feels about me and I don't know why. I never had any care in the world for him so why am I suddenly feeling something now? Why do I care?

"Young Master."

I look back up at him with an eyebrow raised. "What?"

Again he shows no emotion. "The carriage is ready. I suggest we start heading out before it gets too dark."

Why does he care about it getting too dark? I nod at him and start making my way towards the carriage. Thankfully I sent the servants to run some errands so we could leave without the hassle of saying goodbye and them trying to convince us to stay.

Sebastian holds out his hand to help me into the carriage but I refuse to take it and get in settling on one of the seats. He glares at me and closes the door kind of hard almost breaking it. I just sigh and look out the window watching as we begin to move away from the manor. Watching as it gets smaller and smaller until it completely disappears from sight. I close my eyes and begin to remember all that has happened these last few years. The one thing that was painful to remember was when Madam Red was killed. I will never admit it out loud but I still cared for her deeply. She was my aunt and I did care about her a great deal even after everything that has happened. After my parents died and even after she tried to kill me even though she couldn't do it with me being her beloved sister's child.

After awhile the carriage came to a halt. Knowing what was happening without even asking I took out my knife and cut open my hand letting the blood drip down onto the seat I was sitting on. I continue to let it spill as I made my way out of the carriage and into the snow. Sebastian cut open the leg of one of our horses to show it got injured on our 'trip' thus resulting in our stop and us being attacked by wild animals. I must say faking our deaths is a complete pain in the ass.

I look towards Sebastian to see that he is finished with his part and is walking over to retrieve some of our belongings. I grab a couple of the bags that he was holding and grabs a couple of the suitcases. He begins to reach towards the bags I was holding intending on carrying them and I immediately step out of his reach shaking my head.

"It's fine. I've got these."

He looks at me raising his eyebrow. Usually I wouldn't bother helping and let him do it all but that wasn't the case this time. I just shrug my shoulders and begin walking away from the scene with him trailing behind me. We walk in silence for what seems like hours until we come up to another one of my estates. This is the only one I never told anyone about in case I wanted to be alone completely undisturbed. It was completely isolated and extremely far away from every thing. No one would ever find us here. It was literally in the middle of the forest hundreds of miles away from the town and the main estate.

We walk up the steps and through the doors. We look around and realize how much the place needed to be cleaned. The whole place was completely covered in dust and there were cobwebs everywhere. The floors needed to be swept, mopped and polished. The railings also needed to be polished and I can't even imagine what all the bedding and curtains look like in the bedrooms. I hear Sebastian sigh as he walks up beside me.

"I'll clean everything up and then when I'm done I'll start preparing for dinner." He looks in my direction that blank look taking over his features once again.

"Don't bother with dinner. I'm too tired and not even that hungry. I'm going to head upstairs and start taking down the curtains and removing the bedding from all the rooms," I say as I look back up at him. Seeing the surprised look on his face was actually pretty amusing. I smile and begin making my way up the stairs towards the rooms. What makes this moment even more enjoyable is the fact that I know his eyes widen even more that they might just pop out of their sockets. I know he is wondering why I am suddenly helping with everything knowing that he has always been the one taking care of me. Doing the laundry, cleaning, preparing the food, changing my clothes, washing me when I take my baths and all the other things. The answer is simple.

I feel guilty.

Guilty for the fact that he is bound to me for all eternity. Guilty for the fact that he will never be able to consume my soul. Guilty for how I have treated him all these years. Nothing but plain old fashion guilt. For the longest time I always thought demons didn't feel emotions. That they were completely heartless and had no since of guilt or remorse. But now that I am one I am willing to admit that I was completely wrong. So I want to start making it up to him. Starting by helping him clean this godforsaken place.

I'm hoping the tension between us will start to die down and we can live without me relying on him all the time. Because whether I like it or not I'm a demon now. I will never age. I will never die unless it's by a weapon specifically made to kill demons. And I refuse to rely on him anymore.