Title: No Easy Answer

Summary: Opened my mouth on the Voltron Forums and got stuck with an idea in my head, it shifted into this... This is a triangle where, Allura wants both Lance and Keith. Lance wants both Keith and Allura. Keith wants both Allura and Lance. Who will end up with whom? I don't know and the emotions are going to be complex. Lance and Keith are already having casual sex. Oh and at the start, Keith has a thing for Sven too... Starts set a bit before Sven's return in DoTU and the team knows he's missing (since I've always wondered did they know he was missing from Ebb? My answer, yes!)

Allura

I want to lick them.

I shouldn't admit it.

But as this is private and I am writing it in Ancient Arusian, I will.

I was watching Keith and Lance spar today. It was unseasonably warm today, summer is coming early to Delys region of Arus this season. They both took off their shirts, they were wearing shorts already. They both were sweating, gleaming in the sunlight.. they are built so differently but both are so muscular.

So very muscular. Nanny, would never approve of this use of Ancient Arusian... but I must, I don't want people, I feel so strange around them both lately. It's getting worse and worse. They both make me stutter, they both make me blush. Usually, it's in totally differently ways, thought, today though it was all about their bodies. I feel a bit superficial, I mean Keith and Lance are two very brave and good men, I shouldn't be thinking about how amazing it is to watch their back muscles move as they take turns throwing the other to the ground. I shouldn't be wanting to write about how amazing it is to watch Lance's calf muscles constrict and contract as he pops his long lean form off the ground attack Keith before Keith's ready for him because Keith threw him down too hard to make a point.

I shouldn't want to say that Keith's stomach looks like a piece of artwork, or that I think the scar that crosses his chest is sexy - I want to lick it - when it's a wound he nearly died from - it feels reckless and crazy. But I can't seem to stop myself because here I am doing just that...

He has tattoos - no Ancient Arusian word for that, I or I wasn't taught it. I think I'm going start to delve deeper into my Ancient Arusian studies, tattoos have existed on Arus as long as they have on Earth. Keith, has tattoos, Lance has one.

They are are distracting. Almost more so than the muscles and the sweat and the scar...

Lance's especially, I think it's because his skin is so pale. He says it's his Irish and French blood, as they day got longer, he turned pinker as Keith got darker. Nanny came out and tried to attack him with sunscreen. He grabbed the tube from her, came to me with it and gave me that look of his that always makes this flash of heat rush through me that lands between my legs... which is why my face turns as pink as his sunburned skin. He ignored the blush though, he always does... He ignored my blush, ignored the fact I couldn't my voice to work and handed me the tube, turned around and sat down in front of me and told me to rub it in good on his shoulders...

His voice all low and I do wonder if he does that on purpose. This is where his damn distracting tattoo is, black as midnight sharp lines straight down his spine is a spear head; he says it's a medieval spear head of a weapon called a lance. Keith and the rest of them just say he's a narcissist. I don't know why I find it so distracting but I do. It's a weapon, the head is up by his neck, it's thicker, the deep black shades into gray to show the dimension, then it tapers down his spine. It stops before his lower back. It distracts me though, sometimes watching him move when he has his shirt off, I get this weird urge to lick up it and I find myself blushing as I sit alone in the grass. Sometimes Pidge is sitting with me or a few of my maids and they all give me a weird look.

I rubbed the lotion into his shoulders as quickly as I could, because, because I think I was afraid I might lick him. Keith was watching us both, a strange look in his dark eyes from where they'd been sparring waiting for Lance come back. His tattoos are smaller. One on his neck, Japanese symbol for honor, two of his wrists also Japanese symbols but he won't tell me what they mean... he says I'm too young to understand.

I hate it when he does that.

I thought about it when I was rubbing the sunscreen into Lance, trying to not lick his tattoo and behave extremely shamefully in public. I was also trying not to smell him, not because he stunk, which you would think he would - I always thought a woman was supposed to think sweaty men smelled awful why was it both Keith and Lance always just smelled more good. Lance always smelled like leather, it was as if his leather jacket had become a part of his pores. There was also sandalwood, and something that I think is just Lance, dark and musky and reminds me of fire. Keith smells cleaner, a bit of sandalwood too but not as much and of something he told me is pine. A tree on Earth, I'm not sure why he smells of it but I like it. He also has this smell that I think is just his, it's like sand and water, I think it's part of why he smells clean. When they sweat they both just smell more of it and it's never bad or wrong. At least not me, Pidge, Hunk and Nanny always complain...

Pidge and Hunk can sure stink.

Anyway I asked Lance, I asked Lance what the two tattoos meant on Keith's wrists and he leaned back so his head was on my shoulder, we probably looked like a two headed monster from some angles. My stomach did a weird flippy thing, it did it a lot around him, he's always so informal around me, touching me and treating me like he would any other woman. Never puts the decorum that Nanny and Coran keep yelling at him he should between us. Well, they used too, I think they've given up after he rolled his eyes and said "Allura's my friend, decorum is for strangers," at them.

Anyway, he leaned back, put his head on my shoulder, pushed his lips against my ear, which was oh Arusian God's shivers... and said, "Are you old enough to know yet, Allura?"

I sighed. He laughed.

Keith shouted out. "Lance, you coming."

Which made Lance laugh really loud and weirdly in my opinion.

"Depends, Keith, what are you asking?" he shouted, which I didn't understand as he jumped up, spun around looked down at me.

I looked up at him, held his gaze but it was hard. His dark eyes were all hooded as he looked down at me, he had that look he gets sometimes when he looks at me that makes my heart beat a bit too fast and makes me want to run away from him while at the same time I want to stay right where I am. I forced myself not to look away, I felt like he was giving me some sort of test and I wanted to pass it.

I really wanted to pass it.

"Lance," Keith shouted.

Lance licked his lips, it was slow and I knew it was on purpose and I let out this gasp, I couldn't stop at the sight of his tongue, and he grinned at me and winked. "Almost, maybe," he said and turned back to keep sparring with Keith.

When he got back to Keith, Keith leaned into him, hands on his shoulders and they were talking. To low for me to hear, I saw Keith shoot a look over at me, but he shook his head and then leaned in even more to Lance, whispering into his ear. Lance's hand came up and grabbed Keith's left wrist, he turned it so he was looking at the tattoo and then he did something that, that, well... I...

It made me mad, jealous and did that wave of heat that lands between my legs thing. And I wasn't sure if I was jealous of Lance's mouth or Keith's wrist? I mean was I jealous of Lance touching Keith, or Keith being touched by Lance?

I can't... I don't know.

I can't have a crush on both of them forever, can I?

I'm avoiding writing what Lance did, thank goodness, Nanny had gone inside when Lance promised to put on the sunscreen. She might have fainted, or possibly died. I think I almost had a heart attack. I'd never seen anything like it my life. I mean I know about it... men being together. It's been a part of Arusian Culture since... well since it's Creation Myths.

But seeing Lance take Keith's wrist and bring it to his mouth and blatantly lick the tattoo there, then kiss it with his open mouth. Keith squawked, he wasn't expecting it, whatever he said to Lance he hadn't been expecting it. After I gasped and covered my mouth because my own gasped sounded much louder than the one I'd whispered at him earlier, I realized Lance was looking right at me, he'd been looking at me the whole damn time.

Keith jerked his arm out of Lance's grasp, glaring at him, then he looked at me an expression of worry and concern on his face...for me and I couldn't handle it. I ran away.

I mean he looked at me like I was a little girl. I'm so tired of Keith thinking I'm a little girl. I'm not, at least Lance knows that. I just don't understand what the show was really all about it, at all. What was Lance doing? Besides having some fun at my expense... I mean he does that, it's Lance. He does it with every one of us, I almost think it's part of how he shows us he cares... he makes fun us, teases us in the best way he knows how. I still feel like he was testing me somehow? I feel like he somehow knew I wanted to lick them... How did he know? What was the test?

I probably failed. And oh dear, Arusian Gods, if Lance does know I wanted to lick him, or lick Keith...how can I ever look him in the eye again, it's so embarrassing. It's so shameful, it's not becoming a Crown Princess at all, I must get control of these embarrassing, thoughts.

~.~

Keith

Fuck.

I could kill Lance sometimes, yet every time I think about ready to do so I somehow end up naked in bed with him. I don't know what started it today, I don't know if it was me, him, the heat or whatever game he was playing with Allura.

His crush on Allura gets out of hand, I understand why he has it. I think we all have one on her. She's beautiful, she graceful, she has a passion and determination for her people that is impossible not be in awe of in someone so young. She's risen to the challenge of being a member of our team, all of us trained for years to be where we are and she's trained with us for only a year now; a choppy year of training by fire. Under fire, with insane Prince who wants to possess her. Yet she remains innocent all the same...

Innocence I think Lance likes playing with and that's playing with fire. Part of Allura's purity and beauty is her innocence. I'm getting angry again and yet somehow I went from yelling at him to shoving my tongue down his throat. I don't know how he can turn me around like that... he's not even that into me. I don't think. He and I have an understanding, we've always had and understanding.

We're best friends first. The sex is...

Casual. Not that often and sex. Though lately than not that often has become more and more often. There aren't that many options out here. That isn't true, there are women and men, but we can't leave the Castle that often and we can't go far. And we, well the five of us can really only understand the five of us.

And he's the only one who knows how much I miss Sven, how much I blame myself for Sven, how much I fear that Sven is dead. He was supposed to be safe on Ebb, getting medical treatment so he could return to us, so maybe I could finally man up and tell him how I felt and...

Well, get let down easy. Lance won't say it to me, he keeps telling me you never know man he might feel the same way but I see it in Lance's eyes. He's won't be the one to break my heart when it's about another guy.

I've put my energy into protecting Allura. I couldn't protect Sven, Sven may dead... and Lance goes and plays with her head. He freaks her out, he's so damn outwardly sexual and his sexuality freaks her out. And he can't stop himself from flirting with her, the full court McClain press because he's Lance and he flirts like he breaths but she's never had a man come on to her before and especially not like Lance. First time he gave me those bedroom eyes of his, I almost came on the spot, and I also ran away.

Why the hell he picked up my wrist and licked it. LICKED IT. It in front of her, I don't know. The minute she ran away, his face fell - the thing his his crush on her. Not so much a crush. It's different than most of his crushes, I've never seen him like this with someone before. I was pissed off though, so crestfallen face or not I laid into him.

Allura is precious, special and I don't want her hurt, I will kill him if he hurts her. Ever. I will. Her innocence is a treasure, her hope is despite all that she has lost, her planet has lost, that we continue to go through while facing Doom. She amazes me the more I get to her and I don't want him messing with her head, even if he might care about her more than other woman or man he's lain his eyes on.

She's too important. She's more special than all of us. But of course after I yelled and screamed at him about what the hell all that was about he looked at me with those brown eyes of his and gutted me with one line.

"She fucks me up."

Uh, writing it down it doesn't sound like it could have gutted me. But you have to understand, Lance, he... he doesn't do vulnerable. He does mocking, he does funny, sarcastic, he does pissed off and determined. He shows you he loves you by saving your ass, and flying like an idiot in battle and nearly getting himself killed. But he doesn't do vulnerable. He talk nonstop, he's share stories about his life but you'll never hear the bad things -

Unless you share his bed.

And the bad stuff is harrowing, and he told me once back at the Academy when I admitted I'd tracked him down at the club I'd found him at and slammed him against a wall because of Sven - he'd dragged it out of me. He'd admitted to me he didn't think he'd ever fall in love because be he didn't want to risk it. His eyes had taken on his hallow look I'd never seen before, I still don't know the full story, but I know it's about his mother and father.

I know his mother died when he was kid. I know his father is a drunk.

I know when I talk about Sven now, I see that look a lot in his eyes and then he shakes his head and offers his services with a leer.. and somehow I always say yes. That isn't what happened today though, it was me offering to help him, somehow...

He had that look in his eyes when he said Allura fucked him up, he was shaking his head and looking up at the clear blue Arusian sky. He was laughing but not a Lance laugh, a bitter laugh I don't think I've heard before. "I gotta shake it, man, I gotta..." he looked at me and grabbed my face. "Please?" he whispered and he kissed me.

And we went to my room.

He's still asleep, snoring and in writing this I've gotten mad and talked myself right back out of it again. He is right though he needs to figure out a way to push aside whatever it is he feels for Allura, I can't have either one of them getting hurt by him because of it...

Fuck.