for it is better to have love and lost, to have never loved at all
ever since her first day with the unit, a certain blonde-haired blue eyed agent by the name of jennifer jareau caught emily prentiss' eye. she told herself not to get attached to any of the team, for everyone she has ever loved always seemed to walk out of her life just as fast as they entered it. but she couldn't help but get close with jennifer, she was different. a simple touch of the hand was enough to send sparks flying throughout emily's entire body.
she swore she wouldn't get attached, but how could she not.
emily always fell for the wrong girls, the girls that were straight or already taken, or simply just the girls who never loved her back.
but for awhile, emily thought jennifer was the right girl. she analyzed any and all of their conversations over and over, keeping her up until 2am wondering who the hell jennifer loved. was it her?
and then jennifer answered that question by running into the arms of a certain, southern detective. emily had fallen for the wrong girl, yet again.
when this happened before, emily usually managed to get over it rather quick. but jennifer was different, she wasn't like the rest. no matter how hard she tried emily just couldn't let her go. but she forced her laughter and faked her smiles because jennifer was happy and to emily, that's all that really mattered.
when jennifer took the job at the pentagon, emily couldn't helped but feel somewhat relieved. out of sight, out of mind, or so she thought. but even jennifer's empty desk couldn't stop emily from thinking about her every second of every day. she still loved jennifer, more than she could ever admit to anyone.
and she never did tell anyone, even when she knew her time to leave this world was quickly approaching. she felt so cold but no pain as she laid on the concrete with derek clutching her hand and screaming for her to wake up, her last words were "let me go". and with that, she let go. this wasn't the way she thought she would die, but her life had always been so unpredictable.
she watches her funeral from a distance, she sees her whole team placing roses, her favorite flower, on the casket. as one last gesture, she made her way over to jennifer and placed a hand on her shoulder. "even if you never felt the same, i was enchanted to meet you jennifer. until we meet again."
and with that emily faded into a brilliant white light, finally letting jennifer go.