I didn't intent to start a new fic before the end of Season 5 or even maybe 6 but the start of season 5 made me feel so furious and betrayed that I wanted to fix this in my head really quickly. I don't know yet if it's going to be multichaptered. I mean if Brittany comes back and Brittana is on again, I 'm willing to burn this!

Enjoy reading.

Brittany was in her dorm in MIT. It was 7 pm and she was sitting on her bed with Lord Tubbingthon in her lap.

Brittany: You know, Lord T? This change it may be good for our relationship. You'll stop your bad habits here. It's a very serious place. They don't want goofies like me and villains like you. Right, Lord T? (Suddenly her phone rang. She checked the screen and smiled when she saw Tina's name on it. She quickly picked it up.) Hey, Tina!

Tina: Hi, Britt!

Brittany: So what's new? I know you've been dying to tell me whatever new gossip you found out.

Tina: True! So are you sitting?

Brittany: (Her eyes widened and she giggled.)Oh is that big?

Tina: One word. (She paused and then screamed.)Dantana!

Brittany: (She didn't understand the hint.) Huh? (After a few seconds she realized it and smiled.) Ooohh you mean Santana found a new girl? Oh tell me, tell me! (She was sounded excited.) How is she? I bet I can bit her!

Tina: (She was confused and heisted to go on.) Ummm… So you are ok with this?

Brittany: Sure… come on… Brittana is endgame. Let my girl play a little around, so not to think that she's losing things being exclusive with me from her 19.

Tina: (She hesitated again.) Ummm ok. But there's more…

Brittany: (She encouraged her smiling.) Go on.

Tina: She said to that girl referring to you, "I love her but it's over".

Brittany: (She laughed loudly.) Oooohhh Santana Lopez is back in town! Don't worry she just showing off to the new girl. I have to admit though; she's more pro flirting with the guys than with the girls.

Tina: And the new girl said to her that Santana needs a "100% Sapphic goddess".

Brittany: (She laughed again.) Ooohh she has no game! Did that work with Santana? I don't think so!

Tina: (She sounded more serious now.) Well… there's more…

Brittany: I'm waiting.

Tina: (She was very nervous for what she was about to say.) Umm she said to Kurt and Rachel… ummm… Santana said…

Brittany: What?

Tina: She said…"I finally have a girlfriend who I don't have to worry about straying for penis". Her exact words. (There was a long pause.) Brittany? Are you still there?

Brittany was sitting frozen in her bed. Her face had turned pale. She didn't even blink from the shock she was feeling.

Brittany: (She tried to actually formed words.) Mmm…. Yeah… ummm

Tina: (she was concerned.) Are you ok?

Brittany blinked for the first time and immediately she felt something watery dripping on her hand. She couldn't understand where it was coming from and she turned her glare to the ceiling. She didn't see a hole and then she touched her face. She realized that it was here tears. She suddenly felt really angry with herself crying and wiped them furiously.

Brittany: (Her voice was cracked.) She said that?

Tina: Sadly yes…

Brittany: (She took a deep breath and spoke with a steadier, cold voice.) Tina, I'm gonna go now.

Tina: Britt, you seem upset. Do you want to talk about it?

Brittany: No, thanks.

Tina: Britt.

Brittany: Tina, thank you for calling. I can't wait to hear from you again but please, don't call me again for any Santana news. I don't want to hear from her or anything about her ok?

Tina: Ok…

Brittany: (She forced herself to smile as if Tina could see it.) Bye. Give my love to everyone.

Tina: Ok. Bye Britt.

Brittany hung up the phone and placed it on her night stand. She then took Lord Tubbinghton and put him on the floor. Her movements were extremely slow. As if she didn't know how to move. She then sat again on her bed and stared the wall. She stood like that for two hours. She couldn't do anything else except blinking and breathing very heavily. Her mind was completely blank. Even she couldn't think that her mind could be actually so empty in reality. That phrase that she had heard was so big that she couldn't find a way to actually fit it in her mind. She was sensing that it was something bad. She could feel it that it was something really bad. Maybe the worst thing she'd ever heard… or feel… she didn't know. But she couldn't understand yet why or what it truly meant. She just stood there staring the wall. After hours suddenly the realization of what she had heard hit her so hard that her breath caught, she began to turn read unable to breathe. She tried to open the window and to let some air to come in. She then fell on her bed crying, sobbing hardly. After three hours her tears had stop falling. Her glare was empty. She felt like falling constantly in a deep hole. She then took her phone and searched her contacts. She stopped at letter Q. There was only one name there. She pressed it and waiting. After a few seconds she heard a happy voice answering.

Quinn: Hi, Brittany! (Her voice made Brittany cry again. She couldn't speak. The sniffs alerted Quinn.) Brittany, what's wrong? (Long pause again.) Please talk to me. You are scaring me. (Long pause again.) Brittany, are you safe?

Brittany: Yes…

Quinn: Oh thank god… Talk to me.

Brittany: She said that she finally have a girlfriend who she doesn't have to worry about straying for a penis.

Quinn didn't answer as she was trying to understand what Brittany was saying. Brittany's sobs brought the realization to her.

Quinn: Santana, right? (Brittany cried harder) Please don't cry… Please. (Brittany tried to calm.) I don't know what to say, Britt. It is really bad. But honestly… it doesn't sound like something Santana would say for you. I mean for anyone else?… Yeah easily… but for you?

Brittany: Well I guess it was about time to experience what you all have already experienced. The wrath of Santana Lopez. Who said that I would be always the exception? Change of heart. Literally.

Quinn: I don't know really what to say…

Brittany: Don't say anything. Just hear me okay. Somehow I have this need to explain myself I guess? I don't know why… I don't know what I've done wrong. But you are the only one who I cared to talk to. Is that okay?

Quinn: More than okay. You know that I love you.

Brittany: I've never cheated on Santana, Quinn.

Quinn: I know that…

Brittany: Listen to me, please. I've never even blinked to another person when I was with her. And I know it sounds weird but I wouldn't stray or change her for any penis on this world. Ever. I mean I like men. I love them. But when it comes to her, no one can compare with her. It's not the woman thing. It's her. I chose her in my life. I've slept with everyone but I fell in love with her. But yeah I've cheated and yeah I strayed in my life. I've been cheating on Artie with her literally every single week. And she would say to me that it wasn't cheating because the plumping is different. She was messing with my head to have me on her bed. And then she would dump me again to stray for every penis in this damn school. And then she finally realized that she is a lesbian. You know when she actually used that word I wanted to laugh. Santana Lopez, a lesbian! Wow. She has fucked three classes of Titans and a few Cheerios. She admitted that she was attracted to both sexes in Ms. Holiday when we asked for her help. I really don't fucking care for all that. I really didn't care. The only thing I've ever wanted was her. And I knew more than anything that the only think that she ever wanted was me. Because behind closed doors the masks drop. Behind closed doors only I could see through her beautiful eyes the sincerity of her soul when she used to confess her undying love for me. Behind closed doors only I could hear her thoughts, her fears, her secrets, her dreams. Behind closed doors she used to hide in my embrace and not me to hers. Behind closed doors there was never a gentler and loving touch on my skin. And behind closed doors she never feared that I would leave her for a man and I never feared that she would ever leave me for anyone. Even when she broke up with me I knew deeply inside me that it wasn't because she didn't loved me. She was just confused; she thought she was missing things with me in school. She broke up with me, Quinn, but I set her free. I was always afraid that we maybe not able to find our way back together again. But I've never thought that she would think of me like that. I mean… who is she? I don't know her anymore.

Quinn: Britt… I can't really tell but sure it sounds weird even to me.

Brittany: She always likes showing off… but like this…? It's disgusting.

Quinn: Don't you want to talk to her? Maybe she can explain.

Brittany: No, certainly no. She was never mean to me and she was never ashamed of me. She supported me. That girl isn't my Santana. If she isn't my Santana, I don't have to say anything to her. This pain is mine and mine alone. I'll go through this alone. If she's messed up, she has to find her way alone too. I just wanted to talk to you. Do you believe me?

Quinn: I do.

Brittany: Thank you.

Quinn: Britt, do you wanna come this weekend here in Yale? We can spend some time together and talk.

Brittany: I'll think about it and I'll let you know. Thank you very much, Quinn. Goodnight.

Quinn: Goodnight.

Brittany put her phone on her nightstand and got under her covers. She was feeling alone, scared. And that falling into a black hole couldn't stop.

"So that's how a real break up feels like…", she thought and closed her eyes.