Is it Okay?
"Shizuo.." the pale looking Red king reached over to the fake blonde locks, giving it a weak ruffle as his expression softened. His brows slanted with unease as he huffed, breathing heavily as if being choked by something. The bodyguard shook, bitter tears blurring his vision as the king's limp hand lay on his head; His body froze in place, looking at the king helplessly, trying to stifle the sobs that came as he took the other's normal-temperature hands into his.
"Ah, I've made you cry again" the red chuckled feebly, trailing a finger down the tiger's cheeks to brush away his tears with a thumb. "I'm always doing that aren't I?" he continued, looking at the mocha orbs with his cloudy amber ones "..You don't have to cry.. Because… This might be the last time … I'm ever going to make you cry again…" the king had said with a soft, mellow tone as he pulled the bodyguard in close, letting him listen to his pounding heart beat that was getting slower every moment.
At those words the blonde shook vehemently, letting the tears flow as he clutched the king's frail form, he was fine and yet… Why… "You.."
"I wonder how many times.. I've made you cry.." the King cut the blonde's words short, allowing his hot tears to drench his shirt without a care. "..A million times..? More?" he chuckled, recollecting his hazy memories with the blonde in a tight embrace. Ah, at least he won't have to anymore huh… Then someone could make the blonde happy, who knows, maybe he'll get married someday and have children with that person. Yeah… he'll definitely be happy with someone other than me.. The red chuckled lightly, gripping the tiger's shoulder tightly at the thought. "Hey.." he had muttered after a long silence, "Would you please ..forget about me?.. Even my... name..?" the lion requested, resting his forehead on a shaky shoulder as he uttered the heart-wrenching words out. His sweat beaded forehead left a damp mark on the blonde's vest as the king swayed, losing his balance and slumped backwards onto the couch.
"..N-never.." the blonde sniffled, holding him up shakily, propping him up with some pillows as he held onto his hand. "Y-you came into my life …like a storm.. a-and expect to l-leave it just like that? How the hell can I even f-forget about you?!" he sobbed bitterly, grinding his head into the king's chest, causing him to give a few groans as he ran a hand through his blonde locks, chuckling softly.
"You can.."
"N-no… never.. Do you even know.." the bodyguard stifled a few sobs, "..how empty my life was until you barged in?"
"Mm.." the red nodded solemnly, letting him sob, feeling too weak to even reach out to comfort him. His amber hues closed tiredly as his breathing slowed, making the blonde curse a thousand words at himself.
"..Nn..Shizuo.." the king had said, gathering his strength to ruffle his hair again, lifting his face up before pulling him into a kiss.
The puffy-eyed blonde flinched slightly, "Is it okay?" he had asked uncertainly.
"Heh.." the king gave a half smile as the tiger's voice broke, locking their lips and tasting the faint cigarette and honey on the blonde's tongue for the last time as his heavy lids shut for the last time, imbedding the memory of the bittersweet kiss into his brain.
"I love you.."