(This is what would happen if Alice never had her version of "Bella killing herself." What if Edward never went to Italy to die? What if Bella thought that Edward didn't love her still? What would happen with Jacob? She was so close to letting him kiss her the day Alice returned. Would she let him now? Would silly little Edward ever come back to check on Bella? Well, this is my version of what would happen. Poor Jacob, Bella, and Edward.)

(On the faithful day when Alice returned, she didn't return. Jacob too Bella home after her Clift jumping and he tried to kiss her. She shied away – not ready yet. She got out of the car and went inside her house. She still spent every day with Jacob but nothing happened – till a week later.)

(By the way: I'm sorry for all the spelling mistakes! I CAN'T spell!)

We (Jacob and I,) had been hanging out at La Push all day. Just hanging out randomly. He was taking me home now, and here we sat – parked out in front of my house talking. I had been more nervous around Jacob lately (ever since I jumped off a Clift, to hear Edwards voice,) because I'd been contemplating whether or not to just let him kiss me. I didn't think I loved him but I knew he loved me. I knew I loved Jacob like a friend, but if I loved him as anything more then the love I felt for him was nothing like the love I still felt for – Edward Cullen. I cringed away from the name. Jacob noticed.

"Hey Bells, are you ok?"

"Yea Jake. I'm just thinking you know?" He smiled my smile.

"Yea, I know. I am too." He was still smiling and it made me smile.

"What you thinking about Jake?"

"Well, a lot of things." He was squirming, but he also shifted to where he was facing me our faces only two inches away.

"Yea? Tell me one?" I said while trying to get away from him without hurting his feelings. I just didn't know if I wanted our relationship to go this far. He didn't notice I was trying to get away.

"Well, you, and this." He leaned in to kiss me but I turned my head, and he got mad.

"Bella," He said while shaking his head. "You really should just give in and kiss me. He would want you to go on with your life."

"You think?"

"Yes, so I'm going to try this one more time. Ok?" He knew he won. I wondered what it would feel like. I was already near tears, I wondered if it would put me over board.

"Ok." He smiled my smile again.

"Good," and he leaned in for the kiss. Our lips met and we kissed for a short while. I realized then that I did love Jacob Black, but not as much. It would do though, make me a little happier. It would really make Jacob happy, it would also make Charlie happy. This is what I would do then, I would date Jacob. It wouldn't be like it was with Edward (I mentally cringed at the name,) it could never be like that. Edward was my soul mate, I was ready to give everything away for him. Even my soul. This is how the kiss passed, me noting how good of a kiss it was, but noting how it was nothing like mine and Edwards. This was just a normal kiss, Jacob wasn't fighting the urge to kill me, and it was just a boy and girl kissing. Although I did feel the desperation in the kiss, he wanted me to realize I loved him, and I did. I also spent the kiss thinking of Ed – I better not say the name – would he really approve of this. Yes, I was sure of that. He wanted me to move on, and to anyone not inside my mind it appeared that I was (moving on that is.) Then the kiss was over. Jacob was grinning, well at least he completely enjoyed his self. I on the other hand was near tears. I wouldn't – no, couldn't let him see me cry. I wasn't crying because of him! I was crying because the kiss so different from his, was still so similar.

"Jake, I gotta go!" I went to get out of the car, and he grabbed my hand.

"Bella I'm sorry if this isn't what you wanted. But it's what I've been dreaming of. For a while now." He was sincere, and I was hurting him by wanting to leave. I was also sure he saw the tears escaping my eyes.

"Jake, no. I want this to. I just – it just reminds…" He cut me off.

"I know sweetie, you don't have to say it. Actually I might have a sudden urge to kill him if you do, so for your own good, don't." This made me laugh and he started in.

"Jacob, good bye." I leaned over and kissed him quickly on the lips.

"See ya tomorrow Bells!" He sounded giddy, and I jumped out of the car. I ran through the pouring rain into my house, and up into my bedroom. I threw myself onto my bed and cried myself to sleep early.

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(Edwards Point of View)

I had been away for a while, and every day it was killing me more and more. I had to see her – just to check up on her of course. I would just watch silently. I would make sure she was in no trouble – I knew how easily she could get into it. She was a magnet for trouble after all. My beautiful angel attracted trouble like no other (including me.) I wondered if it was smart. What if she was going out with Newton or some guy like him? Would I be able to hold back or would I end up killing them and then be on my knee's begging for forgiveness from Bella? I probably would, but I had to see her! I couldn't help it, my life was nothing without her. So I went to the rainy town that will always be my home just because what is located in it – Bella. I ran to her house, and saw a car parked out side with two people in it. I looked at my cell phone, it was 5:39 Saturday afternoon. Who could she be with, was I right and she was dating someone? I wouldn't be surprised, anyone would be lucky to get Bella. And it was a guy in the car with Bella, a guy who drove her home. I wondered who it was, it was raining too hard and I had to stay far away from the car, for fear of exposure. Then I heard them talking. When I heard her voice I nearly tumbled backwards it sounded so good.

"Hey Bells, are you ok?"

"Yea Jake. I'm just thinking you know?" He grinned at her, it was obvious he was thinking about her. Jake? Now why did that name sound famillure? I must know him, or know of him.

"Yea, I know. I am too." He was still smiling and it made her smile obviously she liked this guy, but I didn't think they were dating – yet.

"What you thinking about Jake?" The curiosity washed over me again. Who was this guy. I took a couple steps forward and smelt this horrible smell but I couldn't tell where it was coming from – because of the rain.

"Well, a lot of things." He was squirming, but he also shifted to where he was facing her and their faces were only a couple inches away. Then it dawned on me. He was going to try and kiss her. This guy liked Bella, they may not be dating, but he wants to be. This guy didn't like Bella he loved Bella, but then again could I blame him? Yes, I could and I would. Bella was mine. But then again she wasn't, I gave her up. She probably hated me also, hated me for the foolish, vindictive, liar I was. HA! I just noticed something. She was trying to get away from him. She knew what was coming, and didn't want it to come. I was on cloud nine!

"Yea? Tell me one?" She said while trying to get away from him without hurting his feelings. This was making me happier than I'd been in a long time, but it shouldn't. I should be able to be happy for her, she deserved a normal life. He didn't notice she was trying to get away.

"Well, you, and this." He leaned in to kiss her but she turned her head, and he got mad. I wanted to run up to that car, rip him out of it, and throw him into a tree, probably killing him but oh well. Then would come to groveling at Bella's feet.

"Bella," He said while shaking his head. "You really should just give in and kiss me. He would want you to go on with your life." He? Then I got it, they were talking about me. He thought the reason Bella wouldn't kiss him was me. He had to be wrong though. Surely she hated me, she had to. She probably even moved on by now. He was wrong, he had to be.

"You think?" So he was right. I did want her to move on, but I didn't. I wanted to be with her more than anything right now, but I couldn't be. She deserves a normal life, she deserves a normal life. I kept chanting that to my self, but I was also chanting – Bella don't, Bella please, I love you. Over and over again – in my head.

"Yes, so I'm going to try this one more time. Ok?" He knew he won, Bella was going to try and move on. I wondered what it would feel like to see her kiss another guy – this mystery guy. I noticed she was about to cry but obviously this guy didn't notice. I found myself hoping Charlie would get home soon and stop this. Please come on Charlie!

"Ok." She said breaking my heart. Now this made things complicated. I knew that deep down I was going to end up groveling for forgiveness, but now…I couldn't. She was moving on, and I think she loved this guy.

"Good," and he leaned in for the kiss. Their lips met and they kissed for a short while. I couldn't stand it. I grabbed onto a tree to keep myself in the woods, but I just pulled it up. I was going crazy, multiple growls escaped my throat. The kiss must have lasted not even a minute but I was still going crazy. In that short time I ripped up about five trees. And they were large trees. I forced my self to look at them. Edward this is what you wanted! It's what she deserves! Don't you want her to be happy! Now she can have a life. She doesn't have to worry about getting killed by the people who love her on accident! It's better for her! I told myself, and then I noticed something. Bella, my beautiful angel, was crying! Do you see what you did know! She can't even kiss someone without crying! You broke the one you loved! Good job Edward Cullen.

"Jake, I gotta go!" She went to get out of the car, and he grabbed her hand. Again I felt a horrible anger building up in me. If she wants to leave let her leave you idiot! Who was this Jake?

"Bella I'm sorry if this isn't what you wanted. But it's what I've been dreaming of. For a while now." "Stupid, unworthy, blood sucking Cullen. He broke the most perfect girl! How could he! I've never wanted to kill any vampire as much as I have now! I ought to go out and rip out his throat with my own to hands! He didn't deserve her!" Those were his thoughts and they surprised me. He knew I was a vampire! Did Bella kill him? No, she would have never done that. Not the Bella I loved. I walked to the edge of the woods – my shelter – and I smelt that horrible smell again. I was starting to piece together who this mystery man was. I saw Bella letting her tears escape, but she wasn't letting them, she was trying to stop herself!

"Jake, no. I want this to. I just – it just reminds…" He cut her off.

"Of course it does! That's why she's crying! She hasn't been this close to anyone since Cullen. Stupid Vampire." "I know sweetie, you don't have to say it. Actually I might have a sudden urge to kill him if you do, so for your own good, don't." This made both of them laugh, at hearing her laugh I grinned ear to ear. It was obvious however he knew I was a Vampire she knew how he knew. But she couldn't of told him, not my Bella.

"Jacob, good bye." She leaned over and kissed him on the lips. I shot out of the woods but stopped right behind the house. Jacob? Then it hit me like a ton of bricks. Jacob Black. The person who told her I was a Vampire. He didn't believe the legends then though, what changed? I smelled that smell before then I realized something. I've smelled this before. The protectors that my family made the treaty with. They're back, the Wolves are back. Worse than that Jacob Black was one of them. Wore that that? Bella was sitting in the car with him, kissing him. Kissing a Ware Wolf! EVEN WORSE THAN THAT? BELLA KNEW! MY BELLA KNEW SHE WAS SITTING IN A CAR WITH AND KISSING A WARE WOLF!

"See ya tomorrow Bells!" He sounded giddy, and she jumped out of the car. She ran through the pouring rain into her house. Then Jacob drove off. He was thinking so I listened. "God, I can't believe I was just kissing Bella. God I love her. I have to do patrolling tonight. Hmm. What a Joy kill, but maybe we'll ketch that Vampire who's been after Bella. Victoria I think her name was…" He got to far for me to finish reading his mind.

Victoria was here! After Bella? This changes things. I'll have to ask my parents what they think. But maybe I can get Bella back, I mean I can't leave now! Can I? I went into Bella's house to see what she was up to. Her scent hit me like a wrecking ball. I had the urge to run up and kill her, but then I remembered, she was my Bella. My Love. I did follow her scent though, I stood out side of her door and heard her crying. I waited out there for about an hour and decided to sneak (very risky,) into her room. I found her sleeping and my heart broke again. Bella cried herself to sleep, I wished I could read her mind. Then I remembered something, Bella talks in her sleep.

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