Disclaimer: I don't own Percy Jackson or Luke, because if I did Luke would've been the star of the series. But since the series is still called Percy Jackson and the Olympians and not Sexy Luke and the Olympains, sadly I still do not own the series.

24

I never really understood birthdays. Maybe because they meant a different thing to me. Each birthday meant that I survived another year as a demigod. More like "congratulations you're alive" then "Happy Birthday now your older today's an excuse to get more stuff and everyone has to be nice you". And my last birthday I celebrated was the last one where I was just proud of myself for still living. Now I don't know what to do.

I'm 24 now. Most people my age would be off parting and drinking with their friends. Nope. Not me. Because I'm dead. But let me enlighten you, in case you were wondering. 24 does not feel exactly like 23. Because when I was 23 I felt alive, ready to take on the world and all of my dreams. At 24, I feel like I failed, and being here is my last ditch effort to make up for the failure.

I shouldn't be dead.

I had the world in my fingertips with all of the opportunities there yet I wanted more. I thought the grass was greener and convinced that I would make it to the other side.

But since that plan went wrong and I found out the other side really involved everything getting destroyed and everyone killed, I made my dying heroic move to save everyone by committing suicide. Not that I wanted to die, it was just I didn't really have many options left.

So now I'm left here, in Eysullm to celebrate my birthday. But honestly I didn't get how to celebrate living another year if I was no longer living.

I shouldn't be dead.

I want nothing more then to be able to say sorry for everything I did, but I seem to be the only one who thinks sorry isn't enough. Everyone calls me a hero for my death stunt but personality I didn't do anything heroic. I want everyone to know I'm really sorry, but there's no way to do that. I made that last wish to Percy, and maybe it will mean something.

And while we're on maybes, maybe I'll get my real birthday wish. To get out of this place. Don't get me wrong, Eysullm is great and I love everything here. But I miss my family. My real family.

I shouldn't be dead.

I shouldn't of let them down like I did. I shouldn't done so many things. I shouldn't have so many regrets but I do.

I shouldn't be dead. But I am.

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xoxo Queenbee19