Thursday, January 17th, 2013, 4:09 PM
This . . . This makes me uncomfortable. Doctor Barnes did not give any proper instructions in regard to how one keeps a 'journal', and I have no idea how I am supposed to go about this. Perhaps it would be prudent to introduce myself first? The thought of someone reading this makes me feel uneasy – though I can't peg quite why – but it seems as though an introduction would be the proper place to begin. When all else fails, revert to basics, right?
Hello. My name is Casti- . . . James Collins. I live in Sioux Falls, South Dakota, have two brothers (Loki, the eldest, and Alfie, the youngest), and am twenty six years old.
Is it wrong to lie to a book? Lying at any time is 'wrong' isn't it? I can't even manage to use that name in the comfort of my own room, and I'm not even trying to say it out loud! Maybe this whole endeavor is pointless . . .
I think it would be for the best if I attempted to practice 'journaling' at a later date. Presently, I feel emotionally unstable, and I doubt that will bode well for my writing.
~ Ca- James Collins
~O~
[To: James Collins
From: Gabriel the Sexy and Fabulous
4:13 PM, 1/17/13]
Hey, little bro! I made dinner, get your mopey ass down here.
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[To: Gabriel the Sexy and Fabulous
From: James Collins
4:14 PM, 1/17/13]
You have not changed your contact information . . . Do you remember nothing Detective Henriksen told us? And don't swear at me.
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[To: James Collins
From: Gabriel the Sexy and Fabulous
4:14 PM, 1/17/13]
Fine. Get your mopey /posterior/ down here, or I'll feed your share to the adorable little kitten next door who keeps making eyes at me through the kitchen window. And for the record, Henriksen can suck a lemon.
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[To: Gabriel the Sexy and Fabulous
From: James Collins
4:15 PM, 1/17/13]
. . . I'll come down if you change your contact information. Your inability to follow the simplest instructions without argument will get us all in trouble, Loki. (And I do not understand your insistence upon using such a ridiculous new name.)
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[To: James Collins
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:17 PM, 1/17/13]
There, changed it. Now you need to change yours, because who the hell uses their full name? Make it Jimmy, or something. That stick up your ass must make it hard to take a dump. (And my new name is amazing, you're just jealous. I happen to be named after the Norse God of sexiness, trickery, and muffins.)
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[To: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
From: Jimmy Collins
4:19 PM, 1/17/13]
Are you happy now? (Clearly, you have done no research on Norse mythology.)
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[To: Jimmy Collins
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:19 PM, 1/17/13]
Bump off the surname, Jimmykinz. And no, I won't be happy until you get your angsty hide down here and eat. Alfie is getting worried about you, so suck it up. (Have you /seen/ Tom Hiddleston? If he isn't the Norse god of sexiness, I'm a baby panda.)
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[To: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
From: Jimmy
4:20 PM, 1/17/13]
I am not hungry.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:21 PM, 1/17/13]
Didn't you have an appointment with Pam today? I thought she would tell you to stop sulking like a teenager and eat. Do you even realize how much weight you've lost in the past three months, Cassie?
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[To: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
From: Jimmy
4:22 PM, 1/17/13]
Yes, I had an appointment with Doctor Barnes at two o'clock this afternoon. She recommended that I being 'journaling', and entered me into a pen-pal program in which texts are exchanged rather than letters. Apparently, Doctor Barnes believes that I need to try and 'connect with the world again'.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:25 PM, 1/17/13]
Good for Pam, I've always liked her. So, are you chatting with your new penpal now?
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[To: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
From: Jimmy
4:32 PM, 1/17/13]
I do not believe that Doctor Barnes shares that sentiment. If I recall correctly, she dislocated your jaw when you attempted to 'feel her up', did she not? And no, I have yet to initiate contact with my 'pen-pal'. Doctor Barnes gave me only a name and phone number. She said that she would inform this 'pen-pal' of our impending communication, but . . . I want to ensure that she has enough time to give my 'pen-pal' forewarning.
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To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:35 PM, 1/17/13]
That's just her way of showing that she cares, so shush it, you.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:35 PM, 1/17/13]
Cassie, stop acting all chickenshit and send your penpal a text. And stop with all the quotation marks, it's annoying.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:40 PM, 1/17/13]
You do realize that we could be having this conversation in person if you'd unlock your door and actually interact with your brothers, right?
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:47 PM, 1/17/13]
Alright, fine, princess. Alfie has band practice at five, so I'm going to drop him off at the school on my way to work. Are you going to be alright at home all by yourself?
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[To: Jimmy
From: Loki the Sexy and Fabulous
4:53 PM, 1/17/13]
Dinner is on the stove, Alfie and I are heading out. Take care of yourself, okay Cassie?
~O~
[To: 363-9777
From: Jimmy
7:35, 1/17/13]
Is this Dean Winchester's number?
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[To: Jimmy
From: Dean W
8:52, 1/17/13]
yeah . . . who the hell are you?
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[To: Dean W
From: Jimmy
9:15 PM, 1/17/13]
James Collins.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Dean W
9:17 PM, 1/17/13]
oh. pam told me about you, hi. so . . . what is it that penpals do?
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[To: Dean W
From: Jimmy
9:40 PM, 1/17/13]
I would not know. This is my first time engaging in conversation with a 'pen-pal'. Did Doctor Barnes give you any sort of instruction or perhaps some guidelines for how to communicate effectively in this manner?
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[To: Jimmy
From: Dean W
9:56 PM, 1/17/13]
small words, jimmy ive got the hangover from hell.
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[To: Dean W
From: Jimmy
10:05 PM, 1/17/13]
My apologies. A hangover at ten o'clock at night?
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[To: Jimmy
From: Dean W
10:07 PM, 1/17/13]
its been a bad week
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[To: Dean W
From: Jimmy
10:10 PM, 1/17/13]
In that case, perhaps it would be prudent to continue our interaction when you are feeling better.
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[To: Jimmy
From: Dean W
10:13 PM, 1/17/13]
sounds good to me. gnight jimmy
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[To: Dean W
From: Jimmy
10:19 PM, 1/17/13]
Good night, Dean.
~O~
Thursday, January 17th, 2013, 10:24 PM
My first interaction with Dean Winchester was . . . Peculiar. I do not understand what Doctor Barnes thinks Dean – I will call him Dean, because he called me Jimmy – and I will accomplish. My initial impression of the man was not particularly good, but . . . Well, I do understand having a 'bad day', so I will attempt to keep from making too hasty a judgment.
Perhaps, with the aid of Doctor Barnes, I could even befriend Dean Winchester. It is a strange notion, but not impossible; or so I hope.
~James Collins
~O~O~O~
A/N:
Well, that was fun. Can anyone else tell that I don't know what the fuck I'm doing? Yeah, I don't know what the fuck I'm doing. This whole fiasco was based off of a prompt from my dear, strange friend Rue (The Supernatural Pie Thief), and encourage by a charming fellow named Luke. I have a general idea of where I'd like to go with this, but the only thing I've written in the past has pretty much consisted of fairly serious anime-related fanfics, and some original work here and there. Writing in this format is completely forgien to me, and the only reason I'm honestly doing it is because Rue is heading off to school in a week and won't get the chance to see her prompt written if I didn't get my rear in gear. So, yeah. What do you guys think? Should I make some sort of attempt to continue this? Despite the fact that I don't know what I just did, it was surprisingly . . . fun. Who'da thought, eh?
(To prevent confusion: James/Jimmy Collins is actually Castiel. Loki Collins is Gabriel. Alfred/Alfie Collins is Samandriel. I actually have a good reason for the 'aliases', but that's a major part of the plot and I can't really explain it without major spoilers. So . . . yeah. Bear/Bare/IDON'TKNOW with me?)
Reviews would be very much appreciated, because I don't know what I just did or if anyone is interested in reading more of it. Also, all reviewers get eCookies, baked with love (or something like that) by my Minion and Muse.