Hey guys! New story! I may have like five stories I am working on all at once but hey? I get so many ideas I don't want to forget! Well like I said I want criticism! Review please(:

Chapter 1

As the sun started to rise over the horizon, in a small apartment in Magnolia a blonde girl woke up for the third time that night. She hadn't been able to sleep for the past four years. Not without him. She also could barely eat and had thinned to an almost sickly thin. She finally decided to get up knowing she wouldn't receive much more sleep if she tried going back to dreamland again. She trudged her way to her bathroom to take a bath. Once she was inside she turned on the bath and stripped down her clothes, folding them neatly and putting them on the side of her sink.

She slowly lowered her body into the warm water and sighed in contentment. Her thoughts soon drifted back to the man that had left her four years ago. She remembered waking up to a note that had said "I'm Leaving. I'll miss you" she remembered running out her door as soon as she read it, not caring that she was still in her pajamas, and heading straight for the guild she now called home. it was a cool morning and the breeze caused goosebumps to crawl up her arms and legs. She had run into the guild frantic screaming, "where is he? He couldn't have left!" Everyone had given her a startled look, she didn't care though, her first priority was finding her pink-haired partner. She had quickly run up to Mira and quickly asked, "did Natsu come by here?" Mira had given a concerned look before saying, "not today why?" Lucy didn't even waste her time to respond. She sprinted to his house hoping to catch him.

She burst through his door yelling, "Natsu? Natsu!" But was greeted with silence. She felt her legs go weak as she fell to the floor, her knees hitting the hardwood floor. Her head fell to her hands as tears started falling down her cheeks. She sat in the middle of his dirty house crying her eyes out. Her best friend had left her with nothing other than a short and blunt letter. She soon curled up in to a ball on his floor, not caring about the mess. She had fallen asleep in the middle of the floor and had woken up back at her house only to find that Gray had come after her and carried her home.

She told Gray to gather team Natsu before she told anyone what had happened. Once the team was all huddled around her bed she told them what she had woken up to. Once she was finished telling them Wendy was in tears being comforted by Carla, Erza was shocked and hadn't moved and Gray seemed to be pissed, "I knew that flame-head was an idiot but I didn't know he was this stupid," no one knew what to do. Lucy soon started balling again and Gray quickly enveloped her in a tight embrace. They decided they needed to tell the guild but Lucy refused to leave her house. She needed time to think it all through.

Once they left Lucy had curled up and stared at her wall with an emotionless stare. She felt numb. She couldn't move and frankly she didn't want to. As she lay there she went through all of her memories she had with dragon slayer, both good and bad. She remembered the time she jumped out of the tower during the phantom lord incident and he saved her. She remembered when she had defeated Angel during Nirvana and how she had protected Natsu when they fell off the waterfall. She remembered when she was falling from the sky during the infinity clock and he had yet again called her. As she went through their memories questions that she knew no one except him could answer started running through her mind.

Where was he going? What was he doing? What was so important he decided to not tell anyone and decided to just leave everyone who loved him? What if he never came back? No, she couldn't afford to think like that. She knew Natsu and she knew he wouldn't just up and leave without coming back. He loved the guild as much as she did, possibly more, and she knew he wouldn't leave everyone hanging like that. She had spent the rest of the night convincing herself that Natsu would come back and had fallen asleep without eating dinner.

Now, four years later she was having a hard time convincing herself that he would come back. She was most of all afraid that whatever he had gone out to do; he had died. A single tear rolled down her cheek and she decided to get out of the bathtub and start her morning routine. She dried herself off and got dressed into clothes. She brushed her teeth and made herself some eggs and bacon. She not only missed her best friend but she also missed the blue haired feline that followed Natsu wherever he went.

The day he had disappeared so had Happy and they could only assume he tagged along with Natsu; damn lucky cat. She missed the cats antics and as much as she had hated to admit it at the time she did like natsu more than just a friend. She loved him and these past years she had been dealing with the ache of heartbreak. She had a hard time accepting the fact that he had left her and still hadn't accepted it. She thought she was his best friend and partner. She thought whenever they found an adventure to go on they would take each other.

Apparently, she had been wrong and it killed her inside. As she ate her breakfast she considered going on a mission to help get her mind off of him. In just a month would mark the day he had gone missing. She didn't think she could deal with it. She didn't want to have to go down to the guild that day because that was the day the guild was always unusually quiet. She was used to it but when the guild was quiet like that it only made her mood worse and make her want to cry. it wasn't really the fact that it was quiet but why it was quiet.

After a month of him being gone, from what she heard no one really knew what to do. There was no fighting because they didn't have the dragon slayer there to start one and everyone was too upset over his disappearance. Lucy hadn't been there to see though because for five months straight Lucy went looking for him. She had come back knowing nothing more than she already knew. When she had come back the guild had already started healing and everything was starting to go back to normal. Lucy never really started healing.

Natsu's disappearance had sent her into a dark hole of sorrow and regret that she hadn't seen this coming. She couldn't seem to find her way out of it and had soon lost her smile and the light that used to burn in her eyes was gone. Mira had tried to console her when she visited the guild (which was seldom) but to no avail. Lucy would never admit this out loud but deep down she knew part of the reason why she hadn't healed yet. She was afraid. Afraid that if she healed and was back to normal when he came back he would think she hadn't really been affected by it and feel bad. Even though the logical part of her knew that was ridiculous she was still scared. She was scared that if she healed his memory would start to fade until she barely remembered him anymore. Just looking at the guild now it seemed as if he was starting to fade.

Now in reality that was nowhere close to the truth but if a random person walked in and talked to someone, they would never know someone had disappeared from this guild and was possibly dead. Lucy lost the drive to go on missions and only went when her rent was due but since it was four years later she decided it would help her get her mind off things. Lucy got up from eating and put her dishes away. She grabbed her belt with her keys and whip and headed off to the guild. Autumn was coming soon and the air was already starting to cool. She didn't bother walking on the ledge anymore and just walked normally. The sun shone down on her pale skin and her hair blew with the wind.

~Flashback~

It had been six months since Natsu had gone missing and Lucy had only been to the guild once and that was the day she had come back from searching for Natsu. She was laying in her bed unmoving even thought it was now noon and stared at the wall emotionless like she usually did. She no longer remembered what it was like to feel happiness and was in no hurry to be happy. Not with her best friend gone. Deep down she knew she was being selfish but just couldn't seem to help herself. She was too caught up in the feeling of depression she couldn't seem to think of much else.

Her thoughts were interrupted as she heard banging on her door. She inwardly groaned and rolled over to look over to her front door. Maybe if she left it alone whoever it was would go away. She decided to just wait for them to leave until she heard a familiar voice that she had been dreading, "Lucy! We know you are in there and you have to the count of ten before we break down this door," boomed Erza's voice. This time Lucy groaned out loud as she rolled out of bed and trudged her way to her front door. She knew she probably smelled since she hadn't showered in a week and she probably looked a mess and although she didn't want her nakama to see her like this, she didn't have much of a choice.

She reluctantly opened her door and watched as the two mages before her widened their eyes in shock. *yes I look like shit. Honestly I don't give a shit so get over it* she bitterly thought to herself. Along with Erza was Gray and he looked absolutely horrified at Lucy's state. Erza quickly recovered and mumbled, deep in thought, "so she's worse than I thought. I can work with this," Lucy still heard it and feared what the redhead had in mind for her, "listen I really just don't have the energy to stand so are you coming in or are you just gonna stand there and look at me like I have grown a third head," this shook both mages out of their thoughts as Lucy motioned for them to step in to her house.

They both walked in and surveyed the house of the celestial mage. There were tissues everywhere but other than that the house looked somewhat clean. Erza turned towards Lucy and said, "you are going to the guild today," Lucy snorted, "yeah? Says who?" Gray gaped at Lucy's flippant behavior. Gray slowly backed away as the redhead shot a glare towards Lucy before calming herself which shocked the ice mage even more, "says me and everyone else at the guild we miss you," Lucy scoffed at the requip mage.

"Yeah well I am not myself, and I honestly don't think anyone will favor this new me so you might as well leave,"

"Gray. Go back to the guild. We will be there soon," Gray looked at Erza confused but decided to not go against her words once she shot him a glare that said, "you better get the hell out," he quickly left. Erza turned back to Lucy and gave her a sympathetic smile, "Lucy I know how much you are hurting. We all are whether we show it outside of our homes or not. You aren't alone and maybe you would start feeling better if you came down to the guild for a visit. Maybe not today but if you keep visiting eventually the pain will dull."

~Flashback end~

She had talked to Erza for a while but had reluctantly gone and visited. Lucy looked up from her flashback and saw that she was in front of the guild already. She walked inside and greeted a few people before heading over to the request board. She usually took ones that were short but this time went for a longer one that would take at least two months. She ripped one off and thanked her lucky stars that Erza wasn't there to offer to go with her and went over to Mira to give her the request. Throughout the four years Natsu was gone she had progressed somewhat and now had all 12 of the zodiac keys.

Lucy left the guild soon after and headed home to pack. She quickly packed her suitcase and made her way to the train station. She bought a ticket and climbed onto the train. She looked over the request a little more, it was asking for her to figure out why people had been randomly disappearing. It sounded pretty easy but the fact that they warned it would take more than a month told her otherwise. She left Magnolia in hopes of getting a certain pink-haired man off her mind but little did she know someone would take a visit to Fairy Tail a little over a week after she had left.

Thanks for reading! I'm sure you all know this but for the sake of Hiro Mashima I do not own Fairy Tail although I wish with all my heart I did. Am I the only one though that can't wait for Fairy Tail to start back up again? I am so freaking excited...anyways, review and tell me how I did for the first chapter! Merry Christmas! (since it's in like what two days?)