"Don't."
I clutch onto him for dear life, because I've no strength to do anything more at this point except keep holding on. I faintly hear my voice cracking with desperation.
He smiles at me then. Amidst all the hate and evil and hopelessness of our situation, he smiles at me and it is like the smiles of angels. I see my reflection in his eyes and suddenly neither of us has any recognition of anything around us, except each other.
"Now I know my destiny."
No…hold on, hold on…
I whisper back,
"What is it?"
"KARTIK!"
The room is spinning, and my stomach churns once again, the feeling is not a welcome one, I promise. I wake up drenched in sweat as I have countless nights before, every night the same thing, and always him.
"Foolish, stupid girl." I whisper hoarsely, hugging my knees to my chest the words hang, suspended in the stillness of night. Blaming myself may seem like the childish thing to do, but I constantly regret that I let him slip away from me like that. Despite the cool wind blowing in through the one window of the apartment, the heat persists, and so does the ache in my chest.
What good is having the power to change stones to rubies, rags to riches, ugliness to beauty…what is the point of having all this power when I cannot change what I want most above all others?
Fee's voice echoes in my head, telling me to be a strong, brave, young woman, and get a hold of myself, but I can't. America was to be the beginning of a new life, yet despite the distance I've put between me and everything I used to know, my past follows vigilantly.
I am still holding onto the boy in my dreams, and no one ever told me how to let go.
a/n: okay so after listening to alot of ingrid michaelson i think im going to make a story out of this..beholdd the introductory chapter! haha
tell me what you think?