"If Tomorrow Never Comes"
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
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Ok. When we're off world, I can get away with this. I'm the only one awake, and I can sit there and take her in with out shame. I can't do that anywhere else. She would catch me and she's smart enough she'll figure it out. That I'm smitten I mean. I don't know what I would do with out her.
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And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
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Oh God. Every day that pops into my head. It sickens me every time. It kills me that I can't be honest with her. I hate this, this, whole mess. I detest it. Abhor it. Loathe, despise, spurn, deride, mock, distain. You get the picture.
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If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
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I can't look at her anymore. It hurts to much. Instead it stare at the fire. Who knows how long I sat there, but when my vision became blurry, I realized I was crying. I just don't want to loose her.
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'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
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I thought about Charlie. I was hardly home. I have often wondered if he really knew how much I cared for him. How much I loved him. Then again, I was allowed to tell him I loved him.
~~~~~~~
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
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I made that promise a long time ago. Before Daniel "died", before Teal'C was stuck in a wormhole, before replicators, before Jolinar. God, that was the worst. I thought I was gonna lose her again. She came so close, and she would have never known.
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If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
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The suns are starting to come up now. I pull myself together, I once again transform from Jack, the love struck, to Colonel O' Neill, the cold and heartless. I go over and make some coffee. The aroma must have woken her up, because I usually let her sleep as long as possible.
"Colonel what time is it? Why didn't you wake me up for my watch?"
"Oh, you looked tired yesterday, like you needed the rest more then me."
Which was true of course, but like I would tell her the real reason right here, right, now.
"Well, thank you sir, I didn't think you noticed."
"I-I do notice. I notice you."
My reward is one of those smiles that just make life worth living. I think I'll talk to General Hammond when we get back home. After all, you never know if tomorrow will come or not.
~~~~~~~
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
~~~~~~~
Ok. When we're off world, I can get away with this. I'm the only one awake, and I can sit there and take her in with out shame. I can't do that anywhere else. She would catch me and she's smart enough she'll figure it out. That I'm smitten I mean. I don't know what I would do with out her.
~~~~~~~
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
~~~~~~~
Oh God. Every day that pops into my head. It sickens me every time. It kills me that I can't be honest with her. I hate this, this, whole mess. I detest it. Abhor it. Loathe, despise, spurn, deride, mock, distain. You get the picture.
~~~~~~~
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
~~~~~~~
I can't look at her anymore. It hurts to much. Instead it stare at the fire. Who knows how long I sat there, but when my vision became blurry, I realized I was crying. I just don't want to loose her.
~~~~~~~
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
~~~~~~~
I thought about Charlie. I was hardly home. I have often wondered if he really knew how much I cared for him. How much I loved him. Then again, I was allowed to tell him I loved him.
~~~~~~~
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
~~~~~~~
I made that promise a long time ago. Before Daniel "died", before Teal'C was stuck in a wormhole, before replicators, before Jolinar. God, that was the worst. I thought I was gonna lose her again. She came so close, and she would have never known.
~~~~~~~
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
~~~~~~~
The suns are starting to come up now. I pull myself together, I once again transform from Jack, the love struck, to Colonel O' Neill, the cold and heartless. I go over and make some coffee. The aroma must have woken her up, because I usually let her sleep as long as possible.
"Colonel what time is it? Why didn't you wake me up for my watch?"
"Oh, you looked tired yesterday, like you needed the rest more then me."
Which was true of course, but like I would tell her the real reason right here, right, now.
"Well, thank you sir, I didn't think you noticed."
"I-I do notice. I notice you."
My reward is one of those smiles that just make life worth living. I think I'll talk to General Hammond when we get back home. After all, you never know if tomorrow will come or not.
~~~~~~~
So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes