Forgive and Forget

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I have come to terms with my senses and I can't take it anymore. This story is an embarrassment. It must be edited! It must be reformed, molded into a work of literary art! The grammar Nazi has awakened in me and says: NEIN!!! To this terrible story, and now without further a due I present my revised story!

(TADA) disclaimer: I don't own any of the Square Enix characters but I do own Maxas! She's mine, but the other characters are NOT!

Note: you don't have to review if you don't want to but if you do please don't flame me! Thanks.

Summary: We were always the 13th Order even before Roxas...My name was Maxas and I was number 13 at the time...and also Axel's best friend...

Prologue:

Maybe it would have been best if we had never met, never crossed paths. Never had become friends, or even shared words or eye contact. Maybe, but it's too late now, there's only one thing left to do. Forgive and Forget.

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chapter one: The beginning of the End

It was night-midnight when Roxas decided to leave, he had made up his mind, as he walked through the Alley to Between he thought to himself:

"I have to do this; I need to know why the key blade chose me, why I exist."

"Stop, Rox wait!" called a very familiar voice from the pelting rain behind him.

He didn't want to stop, he wanted to keep going and never turn back, but the voice like a constricting force, made him stop, numbed –in his tracks.

"Roxas, where are you going, I don't recall Xemnas giving you any orders to leave?"

It was Axel; they were friends and trouble makers since the day they met. They were like brothers, but that was just what most people seemed to assume or want to believe. That's definitely what Naminé wanted to, but she knew it wasn't true. They were much more than that, their relationship was far more complicated than anyone could imagine.

Concern was etched into his expression, he knew something was wrong.

"I-I'm leaving the Org…." was all Roxas could manage to say, and with that he started to walk again.

Axel whipped him around and stared into his face," Leaving? But why?"

He looked down, he couldn't look Axel directly in the eye, he wanted to forget him, and everything that held him back before, as soon as possible.

"I can't stay here Axel; if I want answers…I'm going to have to find them on my own."

"What do you mean?"

"You know exactly what I mean: why did the key blade choose me?"

"Oh…of course."

Axel's shoulders sank and his gaze slowly fell as well. For one awkward moment they stood there in the pouring rain, in silence. Both wanting to pour their hearts out and say what they wanted to but, sometimes just saying goodbye makes it harder than it already is.

"I'm sorry…" Roxas breathed in a sigh of remorse for what he was about to do.

As he turned Axel said coldly," They'll come after you."

"I know, but there's nothing for me here…no one would miss me."

And he knew Axel would remark to that, but he couldn't take it anymore, one more word from his thin lips and he would lose his will to fulfill his unknown destiny. So he ran.

"But…that's not true …I would…" Axel said under his breath, he knew that the rain would make his words indecipherable anyways. He knew that he was gone now, and any chance of him coming back was slim.

Axel stood there in the heavy rainfall, his hair dripping wet and getting into his eyes, but he didn't care. This was not the first time he let someone he cared for get way. He knew this scenario all too well, and would have thought that he was able to learn from his last mistake and could prevent it. But didn't… It was Déjà vu all over again.

"Maxas…" he thought aloud, without realizing it. He shocked himself. How could he have forgotten? His first heart break. Or was it? Nobodies don't have hearts to break so why did he hesitate at the mere mention of her name? The taboo that just passed his lips horrified him as the pain slowly started to return. He clutched the left side of his chest and doubled over in pain. He couldn't force the image of her from burning its way back into conscious thought. He could see her now, as she was before she too, left. Maxas was the original 13. She had pale white skin, she looked as if she were dead, and her eyes were a golden topaz color. They looked startling on her thin pale face. She had jet black hair that she kept short. She had piercings: a nose stud and a lip ring that hung from her black painted lips. He missed her, she was a ghost like figure before, but more now since she left. Like Roxas, they had a hidden "special" relationship, but also like him she left as well. When she left, they never looked for her, or asked where she had gone. Apparently Xemnas was going to get rid of her anyway; he claimed that she was just an extra, nothing really special in their small collection of incomplete people. To Axel, he was wrong; she was more than just something extra, she was in a way: his light. But when she left it seemed to have gone out for good. Until Roxas came.

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A short time after she left, Xemnas; ordered Axel to go and try to find more nobodies since most of Castle Oblivion's unit had vanished. As he surveyed the dark realm he found a young man sitting with his arms folded around his knees, back to him. He didn't seem to notice Axel at all even when he approached him.

"Where did you come from?" He asked, more commanding then curious.

It took awhile for the boy to acknowledge him, or his question. He slowly let his gaze fall on the thin red head before him. His eyes were ocean blue but cold. As if he had found no meaning to feel or pretend to feel anything.

"Are you talking to me?" He asked blandly.

"Well, who else is in this void of darkness other than me?" Axel remarked.

"Well, I don't…know where I came from."

He said sorrowfully, his spiked blonde head sank lower into his curled up body.

"Then come with me." Axel said, outstretching his long wiry arm.

He just looked away. Axel rolled his eyes and put on the sympathy act.

"Do you want some place to belong?" He asked.

That struck a chord; Roxas looked right into his face with disbelief, could there possibly be people like him where this tall slim character came from?

"So…are you coming or not."

Roxas looked away again thinking, he still wasn't quite sure if he should trust him.

"Well, ok then…I guess since you OBVIOUSLY aren't interested I'll be on my way…"

"WAIT! Don't leave me; I've been trapped here for God only knows how long."

And with that he got to his feet and walked awkwardly up to Axel, who tried his best to hide a smirk.

As they walked Roxas had so many annoying easy to answer questions for Axel:

"Where are we going?"

"What's your name?"

"Are there really people like you and me where we are going?"

"Have you been there long?"

"How did you find me?"

It got to the point where he just couldn't take it anymore.

"Enough! Can you be quiet for a little bit. You know silent. S-I-L-E-N-T got it memorized!?"

He didn't ask anymore he felt kind of dumb for just jump starting like that, so he went back to being shy and passive again.

When they arrived to the World that Never was Xemnas welcomed Roxas with open arms and appointed him as number 13, and also as Axel's roommate. Axel couldn't believe this; Xemnas had trapped him with Mr.20 questions. Not only that; he was forced to give him the tour.

Xemnas said to him keenly ''Axel, I since you found our newest member, would you mind showing him around?''

Axel didn't want to get on his bad side while he was in clear view and vulnerable so he said ''s-sure why not come on and I'll give you the tour."Axel was disappointed he was doomed to be stuck with some blonde kid and his seemingly endless supply of questions.

They walked through the halls the silence was almost deafening .Roxas couldn't take it anymore he had to start a conversation so he started firing off questions again "so...uh Axel right? What number are you?"

Axel didn't look at him as he said cold and absent minded, "I'm number 8. You?"

Roxas, then said cheerfully,"I'm number 13, pretty unlucky huh?"

Axel said in a faint murmmer,"yeah pretty unlucky..."

He showed Roxas all the corridors and secret passages. And last their room, which was across from Maxas' old room that had stayed untouched for a long time. "Well this is it Mr.13, our room.'' He said as he slowly and mechanically opened the door. Roxas looked around the room, then looked at Axel. He was looking in at the door opposite to theirs'.

"Oh…whose room is that?" He asked unknowingly.

"Oh…" Axel sighed. "No one, forget about it."

Roxas looked at Axel for a long moment; he could tell there was something important about that room, that he was hiding.

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Yes, it's fixed! I shall get to work on the other chapters later! Hope you enjoyed it.

-DH♥