My first try at Ouran. Written for a challenge on SHINE.
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran or the song "Can't Take That Away" by the Friday Night Boys.
[I remember conversation]
I do, I do. I remember everything.
I remember the first time you came to the host club. I remember how we thought you were a boy.
I remember how you were the first one to try and get us out of our own world. You tried, and you succeeded.
Oh, I remember. I remember when I started to fall for you. I remember everything. I can never forget it.
[Before you gave up on me]
But then, what happened?
I had tried. I had tried my hardest. All I wanted to do was win your heart.
And then...then you chose him.
I know I encouraged him, I told him to try. Competition for your heart.
I thought I would win though.
However, maybe it's a good thing I lost.
[And if it's any consolation]
For if I hadn't lost, I wouldn't have noticed. I wouldn't have noticed how much he means to me. I wouldn't have been able to see that no matter what happens to us, he shall always be there – whether it be physically true or merely metaphorical.
I had always known that him was my world. Always.
But in this past string of events, I truly began to see what he meant to me.
We dabbled on both ends of the spectrum. We never learned moderation. It was this or that, never anything else.
It was either being together or being apart for us. No in between. Black and white. Day and night.
Our world was made for two. Just two. We could either live in this world for two or live in the real world.
Be together, be the same, be the Hitachin twins.
Be apart, be different, be Hikaru and Kaoru.
We couldn't choose.
We didn't want to lose each other.
We...we wouldn't be anything without each other. And that's what we fear.
Then you came along. You flipped our world upside down. You smashed it to pieces. You broke the walls. For some reason you didn't let the thick exterior we had, the glass that kept us separated from reality, stop you. It was as if you walked right through it, like a ghost.
Every day brought you closer and closer. Every moment spent with you extracted us more and more from our world.
[I remember everything]
Oh, I remember the feeling. Like walking outside on a spring day after a long winter.
The closer we got to you, the further we ventured. Closer and closer, further and further. Every step we took led us to you.
It was only logical that we fell for you, right?
I know how I felt during those months we spent together. The emotions that spiraled out of control. The fights that drove us farther and farther apart. I remember how I felt; I know how he felt.
If only I could see how you felt.
If only I could hear your thoughts.
If only I could understand.
Why you chose him, why it wasn't me...
[And you can't take that away]
Haruhi, no matter how hard you may try, I will never forget. I will never stop wondering.
I'll always have thousands of questions I'll want you to answer. I'll always wish you had chosen differently. I'll always wish that things played out differently.
Yet, I'll always be happy we met you. If I could relive this life over and over, I'd still want to meet you every time. I'd want you to be with us every time.
[You were the one who saved me]
You tore it down; you destroyed it. Nothing was left. You forced us into the real world.
And I thank you for that.
[And you can't take that away]