Prologue
I cant believe this is happening. I can hear what he's saying, I can see him standing right there, I can even smell his favourite hairspray from here, this is REAL. But I'm trying to convince myself Kurts not leaving. He wouldn't leave me right? Besties are forever. At least that's what I thought. So sure maybe he's been pushing me away for Blaine and sometimes Rachel but he still loves me, we still have that friendship right? Because I think we do. As he talks, I can feel tears fill my eyes. But I won't cry. CANT cry. For Kurt, not for me. Because from knowing him so well I know if I loose it, Kurt will too. So I swallow my tears and pretend that I'm ok, like I have been for all the times he's pushed me away and I've forgiven him in the blink of an eye. But that doesn't matter because I should always be there for him. I WILL always be there for him. But now. Now I feel so lonely.. Like someones ripped my heart and soul from my body and are stamping on it, right here in front of me. It seems like now there is no more Kurcedes but then...maybe there never was. Maybe he just felt bad for me after I threw that rock through his windshield because I couldn't get a boyfriend. Maybe that was all our friendship was built on, feeling sympathetic and sorry towards me. But i really hope and believe its so much more. We have each others back though often he's left me unprotected. But I would never do that to him, it would hurt me to. But this is hurting me right now. I stand up and call his name which echoes around the silent choir room. Kurt looks at all of us, I'm hoping for some kind of an explanation, why is he leaving? Why is he taking my broken heart with him? So many questions remaining unanswered with "I'm sorry"