The Decision
" 'Alice promised the Volturi that I would become one of you. They're going to send someone to check, and I'm sure that's a bad thing- something to avoid. And so now this involves all of you. I'm sorry about that". I looked at each one of their beautiful faces, saving the most beautiful for last. … "But if you don't want me, then I'm not going to force myself on you, whether Alice is willing or not"… If you decide you don't want me, then…I guess I'll go back to Italy alone. I can't have them coming here. … Taking into account, then, that I won't put any of you in danger either way, I want you to vote yes or no on the issue of me becoming a vampire…"
" ' That's all I needed. Thank you. For wanting to keep me. I feel exactly the same way about all of you to'"
" ' No! No! No!' Edward roared, charging back into the room…" (New Moon)
"Edward" I said nervously "talk to me...please?" I was afraid, I had never seen his eyes this black. I could feel the waves of fury rolling off him as he pretended that he needed to keep his eye on the road. "Edward' I asked again, more meekly this time "Please".
"Bella, I have told you this vote of yours doesn't matter. They wouldn't dare to do anything without me approving it." He whispered furiously, and for some reason his whisper made me more nervous than if he a yelled. "Don't you understand Bella, no of course you don't. You have no idea what living for forever means, you have no idea what it feels like to never be able to sleep, to dream,… to anything. Bella I won't let you live in an eternal night. Please for my sake Bella don't ask for this." He turn his topaz eyes to me, they held more intensity than I had ever seen. They were full of rage, hope, hate, pain and love. He was obviously fighting an eternal battle. "Bella" he started again when I didn't immediately respond. "Please, I promise that I will stay for the rest of your life and then follow you into death, please. Don't change". I sighed.
"And what about the Volturi" I countered.
"They aren't a problem Bella, Please believe me, I already told you my plan for evading them"
"Yeah" I grimaced "that's what makes me nervous." We were back at my house now. He stopped the car a couple hundred feet up the road and got out.
"What are you doing" I asked.
"Well you don't want Charlie to know that you snuck out do you?" He has an answer for everything.
"No I guess not"
"Okay then, get up" and I jumped onto his back. In a couple of strides we were up the side of the house and back in my room. He lay me gently onto my bed and gave me a soft kiss on the forehead before whispering "I'm going to bring my car back, I'll be back in a couple of minutes." I nodded; I had a lot of thinking to do. I knew the Volturi would be here, and I also knew that as of right now Edward would never let me become a vampire. If I didn't become a vampire I could only imagine what would happen when the Volturi came. I could only see one reasonable option that kept everyone out of danger, I had to go to the Volturi and I had to go alone.