A/n: How lovely of you to drop by, please tell me what you think.

This is my first thing I ever posted here and I just wrote it last night,

around 4 in the morning.

Summary: She has a lot of problems.

Will her two favorite cousins help her solve them,

or will they become part of them?

Disclaimer: As we all know, I own nothing.

Everything belongs to J.K. Rowling because she thought of it before I did.

Will you always be there for me?

A Death wish

In a large room she sat.

A room decorated to her likings.

pale blue on the walls, the bedsheets, the stationary.

She had a room unlike her personality, but much like her dreams.

On her desk a neatly wrapped package contained this young girls school books.

Everything seemed as if it where any other day.

''But things aren't what they seem'' 'the young girl thought with a wry smile.

Cause everything was today what it not seemed, and there wouldn't be another day that would seem normal to this girl.

For she is not planning on living much longer.

With a knife in her hands,

14 year old Narcissa black was ready to end her misery.

"why should I deserve to live?

You made it clear so many times, I'm nothing but an indignity to my name.

A useless and weak person.

Not worthy of my name, not my life

So now I shall live no more.

I love you Sirius,Regulus and Andromeda.

And even you Bellatrix, even though you put me trough my worst nightmares.

Goodbye,

N.A.B."

That is what the dear girls note read, written on such pretty stationary.

She stood and placed the note on her desk, then walked back to her former place.

She once again sat on the floor, with her head against the far end of her bed.

She knows she's depressed, or at the moment, suicidal.

For the girl had seen such terrible things trough her childhood,

things children are not meant to see.

Still she saw them, like her sister murdering someone because of their legacy, their blood.

Or her aunt nearly killing one of her favorite cousins.

Flashback

Summer, three years ago.

she aimed for his heart.

But the knife her aunt held hit the boy, who was at the time 12, in his leg.

The boy screamed, then glared at his mother and wished looks could kill.

'Cause she'd certainly been dead.

End Flashback

O how she hated most adults in her family, apart from her father, he was nice.

But back to the present, the girl didn't want a quick and painless death.

The one oddity she hadn't hided from most of her family is that she didn't mind pain, nor did she waiting.

She had thought about this moment a long time, and knew exactly what to do.

"This is it then, this is the end" the young girl mumbled.

She now held the knife once more, it lingered mere inches from her leg, not sure if she really wanted to go trough with it.

As the girl thought for a minute she noticed a tear escape her left eye, just one.

She put the knife on her skin, hands trembling, and sighed.

"I will see granddad when I'm finished"

was the girls last thought before she penetrated her beautifully light skin with the knife.

She felt pain, much pain, but didn't flinch.

You could only know she was in pain by the fact she was biting her bottom lip rather hard,

but there wasn't anyone to see that small gesture of pain.

She felt warm blood dripping from her leg as she wast cutting in her left forearm.

"N.A.B."

It was the young girls name, Narcissa Amarantha Black.

'So much for the immortality my middle name means' she thought ironically.

After 3 more large cuts across her body her breathing was ragged and getting slower.

She fell and her head painfully hit the ground.

She reflected her life whilst feeling her body grow weaker.

Soon, she thought, I will not be part of this world any more.

Then a knock startled the her.

Her eyes flew wide open.

"Cissa, can I come in?"

Her eyes wide with shock, she said nothing.

"Sirius" was all she thought.

A minute later Sirius knocked again.

"Cissa, I know you're in there. I'm coming in."

And he did so, he opened the door to a most horrific sight.

His favorite and dearest cousin lying in a pool of her own blood.

He ran to her and cried, Narcissa was shocked, she had never seen him cry before.

It was always she who cried and Sirius comforting her.

"Si..Sirius, I lo...love you" she whispered.

He, before thinking she was dead, now screamed for his parents.

She heard someone running up the stairs whilst yelling "Sirius, how many times do I have to tell you no...Oh my god."

She grabbed Sirius's hand before losing all consciousness.