Disclaimer: I do not own Teen Titans, only the plot and everything that you don't recognize from the show.

Summary: Raven has always been a mystery. She has never really fit in with anyone and has a hard time making and trusting friends. Yet Raven is not all she appears. She's hiding a secret, which could eventually, if revealed, bring about her death. But her past is slowly resurfacing and a person she once thought was dead has come back. Can she face what she had run from before? Or will the past destroy her?

Author's Note: This is my first fanfic so please read and review. I don't mind flames, they help keep me warm. And if you're wondering if there are any pairings you'll just have to read and see.

A Flooding of Memories

Raven sat in her usual mediation position, legs folded neatly, eyes closed, trying to find her center as she began her meditation process. But the tower was all but quiet with everyone running around and screaming all over the place. Ignore them she told herself, just ignore them. But doing that was near impossible.

"I'm going to beat you once and for all!" Robin proclaimed as he pressed the buttons on the game controller faster.

"Oh no, you don't!" Cyborg retorted back pressing his controller even faster. After a few tense moments of blissful silence and furious button pressing the race was over.

"Boo- yah!" Cyborg exclaimed triumphantly. "New high score!"

"Oh man," Robin said dejectedly, "I was so close."

"But not close enough bird boy," Cyborg rubbed in.

"I bet you couldn't beat me twice!" Robin challenged.

"Oh yeah?"

"Yeah."

"You're on little bird."

Then it was back to the furious button pressing and the shouts of victory all over again. Neither of them would admit defeat. And so it went over and over again. Knowing them it would take hours for them to admit a winner or even a tie.

"Raven?"

"Yes, Starfire?" Raven asked monotonously opening one of her eyes to look at the orange haired Tameranium girl standing in front of her.

"Perhaps you would like to join me in the activity of singing songs from the T.V.?" Starfire asked eagerly.

"You mean karaoke," Raven corrected.

"Yes that is it!" Starfire exclaimed beaming. "Ka-ra-o-ke! Many of the Earth people seem to enjoy it. Would you care to join me?"

"Thanks but no thanks," Raven replied evenly. "I have to meditate." Or at least try to, she thought to herself.

Raven watched Starfire walk away with slumped shoulders but didn't dwell on it. Instead she turned to face the large window that gave them a view of the whole city. Now concentrate. Find your center. And-

A grumble from the room jerked her from her trance and into alertness as she turned to see the source of the noise. Beast Boy had just walked into the room. Raven frowned as she realized that the source of the noise had come from Beast Boy's stomach.

"Man I'm starving!" Beast Boy exclaimed as he went to the fridge and began rummaging through it in search for food. After a short pause, Beast Boy took his head from out of the fridge. "There's nothing to eat in here and I'm starving!"

"Beast Boy's right," Robin said dropping his remote. "How about we go for some pizza?"

"Wonderful idea, Robin!" Starfire beamed.

"I'm up for it," Cyborg added as he got up to join Robin, Beast Boy, and Starfire at the door. "I was getting a bit hungry."

"You coming, Raven?" Robin asked.

"No I'll pass."

"Suit yourself," Robin said with a shrug as they turned to leave.

But Beast Boy wouldn't be put off so easy. "Oh come on Raven. Why not?"

"I have to stay and meditate," Raven replied, not bothering to look at them as she settled once again into her meditative trance.

"Raaaaaaven," Beast Boy pleaded. "It's good to go out every once in a while. It'll be fun."

"I said no."

"But-."

"The girl doesn't want to go," Cyborg interrupted. "Just let her do what she wants."

Beast Boy opened his mouth to protest but shut it and began to leave with the others.

"We'll be back soon," Starfire called cheerfully as they left the room.

Raven sighed with relief. Finally there was peace and quiet. She closed her eyes and settled into her trance.

"Azurath metrione synthos. Azurath metrione synthos. Azurath metrio-"

Raven was cut off as a flood of memories began flashing through her mind. She gasped with surprise as the overwhelming feelings of loss and guilt washed over her. No she told herself mentally. Try to stay calm. You have control. Yet even as she said this she knew it was a lie. She could feel the tight control that held her emotions and power in check begin to loosen. Her thoughts were racing frantically as she tried to figure out why the memories were coming to her now. She had locked them in a secure place in her mind a long time ago. She hadn't even thought about them since that last time. To have them released now made no sense and she wasn't even ready for it.

"No. No." Raven said to herself as she gripped her head with her hands and tried to lock the memories away once again. But they wouldn't go. She had already lost too much control, her powers were beginning to loose themselves and feed on her emotions. Raven struggled to compress the memories but it was futile. She felt herself totally engulfed by past emotions and her powers erupted.