"What are you doing?"

"Relax Clare, I just want to have a little fun." He looked at Clare as he was approching her. Taking an item of his clothing as he came, little by little towards her.

She looked around searching for any type of escape. There was none, but the door behind him. "I want to leave, right now," she knew that he wouldn't let her so as soon as the words left her mouth she ran, ran towards the door, to safety.

Too bad he seen this coming and grabbed her by the hair and threw her on the bed.

She lost everything she cared about since that day. Her parents hated each other, and once they found out what happened to her they lost it.

"This isn't happening again. No, not again." Her mom was in denial. Helen Edwards could not believe that this had happened to both her daughters. Helen thought it best to blame Clare's father, it was his fault her daughters went through what they did.

Clare's father decided he had had enough of all this. He said he could not go through what they went through with Darcy. He did not want to see his little Clare-Bear through all her pain. He thought it best to leave Clare and her mom. And that is exactly what he did, he got divorced form Helen and left.

The process was the worst experience in Clare's life. She was deeply hurt and lost. Couldn't her parent see what was happening to her? They fought over the divorce and completly forgot about Clare and her situation. Naturally what happened next was her father left, her mother was a wreak and could not care less about Clare and simply assumed Clare got over what happened. All Helen would do to Clare was blame her for the divorce. She loved Randall and it was Clare's fault he left them. In her eyes Clare was a burden, so she completly ignored her exsistance. They didn't even speak to each other.

Clare had no one else, all her friends from school knew what happened. Only they didn't. They heard HIS version. They assumed she wanted to, and thought her a hypocrite because she always went on about how sex before marriage was a sin. She had her purity ring and was well, a saint. She was a devoted Christian, went to church and was in the Friendship Club at school. And after it all not even her friends from the club wanted to talk to her. She had no friends.

Everything changed for her, from one day to the other. She stopped going to school, church, and stopped living. She was scared of him. Scared he would do something to her if she said anything to anyone. And she didn't because she knew no one would believe her. How could she expect her friends to care when her own parents didn't. Since then she refused to have anyone in her life ever again. Clare swore off friends forever, they were all fake. No one had any real friends, they all left when you needed them most. She did not let anyone be in her life long.

So after the incident, she changed her image. She stopped wearing her school uniform, broke most school rules, went out with random boys, mind you she slept with them, did drugs and drank alcohol, alot of it. She found a way to feel numb. After all no one cared about her, they all abondoned her. She put up these walls no one could ever penetrate. She was scared that if she were to let anyone in, they would leave her and use her, like he did. So she would change her boyfriend every once in a while, after things would get too deep. She just couldn't let anyone be with her for long.

After a while Helen met a man named Glen and they were married. Glen had a son, Jake, and they both went to live with Clare and her mom. Jake went to a different school, so he knew nothing of what Clare went through the year before. Glen and Jake knew that Clare and Helen rarley spoke to each other, but did not know why. All they knew was Clare was a rebel, a really fucked up child, a lost case so they did not question it.

Jake did though, he always wanted to know what happened to Clare. He knew something had to be going on through his mysterious sister's head. He liked her very much as a sister and wanted to help her, whatever she was through. He even told her to count on him for whatever she wanted. Clare liked Jake as well he was a good brother. And she finally had someone to talk to at home. She never told him about the past or about what she did in school, he didn't need to know. She wasn't gonna let her walls down ever again.

She did eventually got herself expelled from Dollshore High, her current school at the time.

To say Helen was pissed was an underestimate. She was full on raged, so much she spoke more than three words to Clare.

"What were you thinking, Clare!" she was screaming at her 17 year old was sitting in the living room couch staring lifelessly at the wall in front of her. Anyone could see the lifeless look in her eyes. Only her mother didn't.

Clare refused to talk or even look at Helen.

"You have to stop this nonsense, this, this whoreing around shit you do!"

And it was true Clare did not even try to deny it. She was expelled from Doll because she was caught in the janitors closet with a boy doing drugs. She was going to Jake's school, Degrassi, the next day. Geln was working and Jake was still in school so they didn't know about Clare's current situation.

"If you do anything in this school to cause you to get expelled again, I swear to you, Clare Edwards, you are dead." She said the last three words with full-on hatred.

Well it's not like I can be any deader.

Was all Clare thought as she got up and left to her room. She sat in her bed and finally fell asleep.

Please tell me what you think first story I've ever written. I hope you guys like it! And tell me if I should continue.