This was supposed to be a one shot but I decided there was a little more story left so It will most likely be a two shot. It is basically a different way to write in Finola's summer vacation and fix the one line from Friday's show that was not true. lol. Enjoy.

I Still Miss You

"You look Happy Annie. I'm just sorry that I can no longer be the man who does that for you."

"Oh Robert," she sighs.

"Don't. Do not pity me. I just need you to know a few things before you move on with your life okay."

"As long as you know that it's not pity you see. I want you to be happy too."

He takes her hand in his and for a moment all the world ceases to exist. He plays with the ring that until recently he was in possession of. He wishes he had done things a lot differently. A single tear rolls down his cheek and she wipes it away with her thumb.

"I've been holding on to these for quite some time," he says. "I guess I always hoped I would get the chance to put them back on your finger. Except now, you are marrying another man and I lost my chance. I was going to get rid of them but the truth is that in my heart, I still think of you as my wife. There are so many memories attached to these rings Anna. They are still yours."

He places them into her palm and tries to look away. She covers his hand with her own.

"I remember when you put these on me Robert. I thought we would last forever. I was so happy then. Just because we did not last does not mean you are not important to me. In less than a month, it would have been our wedding anniversary."

"Except it was not legal."

Anna reaches out and takes both his cheeks into her hands. "I took vows with you Robert. Just because it turned out to be bad timing, it does not mean it did not count. You were my husband in every way that mattered. "

"Then how did we get here Luv? Even at the end of it, I did not even get to hold on to the fact that you were my wife. We waited so long to get married again but then you were kidnapped and Holly showed up and…"

"We lost each other."

Anna wraps her arms around him and pulls him closer. She knows how hard it is for him to show emotion like this.

"I am so sorry Robert. I do not know what happened to us. Why we could not seem to reach out to each other. There was never a moment when we looked at each other and realized it could not last. When we were in that boat explosion, I was so in love with you. I was so happy to be your wife."

"Oh Annie, I was never as happy as I was when I was your husband. We never really talked about this when we finally found each other again but I need you to know that when I found out Holly was alive, it might have thrown me but it never changed the way I felt about you. You were the wife that I wanted and before I left to find you, I made sure Holly knew that. I just never had the chance to tell you that before everything fell apart."

"I always kind of wondered what you would have done if we hadn't been in that accident. How could I not, after the Markham islands."

"That whole adventure was such a mess Anna…but nothing happened between us. I know it does not matter anymore but truthfully, I was just going through the motions. In all the time we were apart, there was never a day when I didn't crave you…when I didn't miss you…When I didn't love you,. Even when you were screaming at me, or kicking me in the head, I wanted you. If you only knew how much I wanted to take you in my arms and kiss you until you had no doubts anymore."

"Then why didn't you Robert? When I thought you were dead, it really messed me up. I wanted so bad to be able to see you one more time…just once…so I could tell you how much I missed you…how much I really did love you."

"Anna, you rejected me. I would have moved mountains to get you back if I thought I stood a chance at all. Except the first thing you did when you saw me was kick me in the head…and tell me that you wished I had died for real. How was I supposed to react to that? I wanted to wrap my arms around you and tell you how grateful I was that you survived. I wanted to tell you so many things but how could I when all you could talk about was how much I let you down."

"Oh Robert, I am so sorry. I hope you know, I never meant that. I was so angry and hurt and I hated myself for still wanting you…but I would never want you to disappear from this world…or from my life. You are too important to me. "

"Then what happened when you finally saw me again…was it really just because of what I did to keep you safe…Because I didn't know how to come back to you or how to ask you to forgive me when I could not even forgive myself."

"Is that really how you feel?"

He averts his eyes and tries to look at the floor but she raises his chin and forces him to look at her.

"All this time…have you been carrying this burden around all on your own? Oh Robert, I forgave you a long time ago. I thought we talked about all of this when you had cancer."

"And I lost you again."

"It wasn't our time Robert. It was a bad situation all around. But hey, you survived and I am so grateful for that. Doesn't that count for something?"

"I just wish I knew how to fight for you. I guess that was my problem. I never knew how to offer you more than what you already had. I wanted you to be happy more than anything but I guess selfishly I still hoped you would find out that I was the man who could make you happy."

"You did make me happy Scorpio. Deliriously happy. "

"And I waited too long to tell you that you are the love of my life and that you always will be. I Know. I just need you to know one thing okay. I need you to know that if there ever comes a day when things change for you…If you wake up one day and realize that whatever you thought would make you happy, no longer does. You and Me Luv…It will never be off the table."

He brushes the stray hair back from her face and looks into her eyes. He caresses her cheek with his thumb and then leans in to kiss her. His lips are warm and inviting on hers…tender and sweet. She had spent so much time kissing him in the past and so many years had gone by abstaining from it. It was as if they had never spent a day apart as the kiss grows in intensity. Anna wraps her arms around his neck and he plunges his tongue into her parted lips as he holds her tight. Robert pours all of those buried emotions and suppressed desires into that kiss…and she reacts to him as she always did. The need for air causes them to step back, their breathing irregular and their hearts racing. Robert touches his forehead to hers and she smiles at him.

"It's nice to know you still respond to me like that Luv," he whispers as he steps away.

"You just like to confuse me don't you," she quips, as she puts a finger to the lips he just kissed.

"I'm just letting you know you have other options. I guess I just got tired of being so bloody noble. I've lost you too many times by living that way."

She puts her hand on his chest. "You are still an honorable man Robert Scorpio. That kiss doesn't change anything."

"It changes everything Anna. We both know it does. It might be today. It might be years down the line. But you and I are never going to be over. You are in my blood Annie. And God knows what you do to my heart. I will be around whenever you figure out that you feel the same."

She watches him walk away and sinks down into the couch. She can still feel the tingles left from when they were kissing. What kind of love is this, she wonders? What kind of man would tell you they would wait for you…even if it takes the rest of his life?

An Honorable Man…a Good man.

Anna picks up her phone and dials Robin's number. "Hi honey its mom. Are you up for a visit? What? Nothing is wrong sweetheart, I'm just…."

She waits a beat as she ponders her words carefully. "I'm a little confused Robin. I need some advice. I would rather do it face to face. Good. I will be there tomorrow. I love you."

She hangs up the phone just as Finn walks over. "Don't look so guilty, "he says. "I just came to ask you to lunch."

"Finn, I'm sorry but I have to leave town for a while. I really feel like I need to see my daughter."

"Is everything alright," he asks.

"It will be," she assures him. "I just need to figure a few things out and being around my little girl always seems to help. "

"I wish I could go with you but…"

"This is something I need to do myself. I promise I will tell you everything when I return. I have to go."

She kisses him lightly as she walks away. The last thought in her mind before pulling out her phone to make her flight reservation was that he did not kiss like Robert…And she most certainly did not react to him like Robert.

"Oh Shit, " she mumbles. "I am in big trouble now. I am engaged to one man and I cannot stop thinking about another. What the hell is wrong with me?"

Robin will know what to do, she reminds herself. Robin always knows what to do. Not like her basket case of a mother.