Where there is love there is life.

(Mahatma Gandhi)

Tris always believed she was too selfish to be selfless, which was why during the Choosing Ceremony she chose Dauntless instead of Abnegation. Of course part of the reason for it was because she was Divergent, meaning she had personality traits for three factions, but also because she didn't want to pretend and hide who she really was for the rest of her life. So she left her home and family behind, but she was gifted with something else in return.

A woman knows the face of the man she loves as a sailor knows the open sea.

(Honore de Balzac)

During the initiation she was taught so many things that she had been unaware of her whole life. She learned how to fight and defend herself, but most importantly she learned about friendship and love. Her friends and her love for Tobias would always be as important to her as her family was, no matter the good and the bad things that had happened. She will always regret killing Will, not saving Marlene, for her father and mother sacrificing themselves for her and for hurting Christina and Tobias with her decisions and selfishness. However her biggest act of selfishness was getting shot by David in the Weapons Lab and still managed to release the memory serum.

Now she was lying there on the floor bleeding out and knew that she was going to die, knowing that she was going to leave Tobias behind. He had told her before he left that his fear had changed; instead of having to kill a woman, he has to watch Tris die. The irony was that he was going to lose her just like he feared and there was nothing she could do about it. Tears were running swiftly down her face, just the thought that she was going to hurt Tobias once again for her actions. She wasn't sure if he could ever forgive her for being selfish or that he would ever understand how much she loved him and didn't want to leave him. She knew she was going to miss him so much that her heart hurt, even more than the bullet inside of her did. She going to miss dark blue eyes that had a color similar to deep sea that she has never seen except for in pictures. She was going to miss his determination and strength to go on with his life despite all the pain and hardships he has been through his entire life. She still remembered the first time she had told Tobias she loved him without him sleeping through her confession.

(Flashback)

"I'll be your family now," he says.

"I love you," I say. (...)

He stares at me. I wait with my hands clutching his arms for stability as he considers his response.

He frowns at me. "Say it again."

"Tobias," I say, "I love you."

Tris smiled over the memory, one of many she had shared with Tobias. After her parents died and Caleb betrayed her, Tobias had been her rock the same way she had been for him. She knew that by sacrificing herself to save Caleb's life was going to hurt Tobias, probably going to make him hate Caleb more than he already was, but she loved her older brother despite his mistakes. She wasn't willing to lose him, even if it meant that the people who loved her and was still alive would lose her.

She was starting to lose consciousness when she saw her mother appearing in front of her. Tris asked her mother if she could rest, since she had grown so tired of the war and all the deaths that followed along. Her mother said yes and that she was so proud of her. Her mother pulled out her hand for Tris to come along with her. Tris took her mother's hand and followed her mother into the light. She turned to look back to see her dead body and noticed that people had begun to swarm around her body, one of them being Caleb shouting at her to stay alive. But based on his facial expression they both knew that she was dead and there was nothing to do to save her. Tris only hoped that he was going to tell Tobias that she didn't want to leave him, her last words she ever said to her brother before facing her death.

"Tris," her mother said softly. "It's time to go now."

Tris nodded and began walking towards her mother once again, but her thought went back to Tobias and the current heartache she was feeling despite the fact that she was dead and couldn't feel anything. There was one thing she wanted to say before she left for the light with her mother and meet up with her father, Will, Marlene and Lynn. Any living creature in this world might not hear those words, but it was important for her to say them out loud before she disappeared for good.

"Tobias, I'm sorry for leaving you and I hope you know that I never wished to leave you. I wanted to tell you thank you for everything you have done for me, everything you have taught me. And I promise you that I won't forget you and I hope that won't forget me, even when I'm gone and not with you. Our time together has never been easy, but I don't regret them since they were shared with you making them even more precious to me than you can even imagine. I hope that one day we'll get reunited again because you are worth it. You are worth to wait for even in death. I love you Tobias and I won't say goodbye to you because this is not a goodbye. I'll see you soon." Tris closed her blue-grey eyes and let the light take her away from the living, but the one thing the light couldn't take away from her was the love in her heart that would continued to live through the people that she loved.

Keep love in your heart. A life without it is like a sunless garden when the flowers are dead.

(Oscar Wilde)

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Short story, but I wanted to write a reflection on Tris's death. I know that I might have deviated from the book, but I wasn't truly happy with the ending that Veronica Roth wrote in Allegiant and I wanted something a little different. I don't own Divergent or the quotes that I used for this story as you can see that I put the original author underneath the quotes. As you probably also can see I put in the 'I love you' scene from Insurgent, so of course I don't own that. Veronica Roth own it.

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