So this is my first story, and I'm not an experienced writer, I just wanted to try this out.

I do not own Glee.

Rachel believes Finn Hudson is the only guy for her; she promised him that she will never fall in love with anyone else. Sometimes she's scared that one day he would leave her even though he assured her several times that he wouldn't. She believes him, and she trusts him with all her heart she just wishes she would stop feeling so insecure sometimes, Finn tells her that there's nothing wrong with feeling a bit insecure, even though there's nothing to worry about. He promised her one time that one day, she will become his wife, and that they would experience life together. Finn never doubted their love, he believes that they would always be together, and he is very certain that the love they have will never fade.

Rachel and Finn were both snuggled up in the couch in Rachel's living room. Finn agreed to watch The Notebook with her because she said she was feeling lonely. The part where Allie was banned from seeing Noah got Rachel thinking.

"Finn?"

"Yeah, Rach?"

"Do you believe in us?"

"Of course I do."

"No, I mean, do you think if we ever lose our ways, we'd be able to find ourselves again? Back to each other?"

"We will always find our way back to each other, Rachel. Nothing is ever going to break our tether; we will always be together. No matter what."

"You promise?"

"I promise."

"Rachel Berry, will you marry me?"

Rachel stared down at the ring her boyfriend (about to be fiancée?) was holding in between his index finger and thumb.

Feeling slightly dizzy, she tried to get herself to say the words that have been on her mind the moment he pulled out the ring. "Yes," she breathed out, "Yes" she managed to say a little louder. Her heart was racing; her mind was filling up with endless thoughts of what her future is going to be like from now on.

I must be dreaming. Rachel thinks to herself.

It was until she felt a cool metal ring slip up her finger that made her realize that this wasn't a dream. "Oh god, it's so beautiful!" Rachel exclaimed admiring the diamond ring on her finger.

The proposal wasn't anything over-the-top. The location wasn't where they first met, or a special place they would go to when they wanted to hide away from the world. He didn't take her out to dinner with overpriced food. He didn't even kneel down to ask the question. They were both just cuddled up under a tree in his mother's garden when he pulled out the ring from his pocket, asked if she wanted to marry him, and then nervously waited for an answer. It was a simple proposal but she loved it.

"I'm excited." Rachel smiled. "Of the future. Our future." She intertwined her fingers with her fiancée. She hopes that she will actually become a wife this time. The last thing she wants is another marriage that wouldn't go through. It's been years since her last attempted wedding but the terrible feeling she got when she was placed on a train instead still lingers.

"I love you so much Rachel."

"I love you too, Jesse."

Rachel never thought Jesse would be the one she would start having a family with. She never thought of Jesse being the one she would spend the rest of her life with. She always thought it would be with Finn Hudson.

They drifted apart years ago. Ever since Finn put her to that train, things were the same again. Not that Rachel's complaining because if it wasn't for what he did, she probably wouldn't be living her dream right now. But Rachel still hoped things would work out between them. They were both fine despite everything that went down between them, but when Santana accidentally mentioned to Finn about Rachel's pregnancy scare, he got mad. Finn wasn't really sure how to feel about it but he felt guilty and angry when he found out. Guilty because he knew Rachel would have to drop out of NYADA and put her dreams on hold for the baby (if she planned on keeping it); and mad because Rachel should've told him about it, she shouldn't have kept it from him.

They fought over the phone and Rachel kept telling him that it's not a big deal, and what's done is done. Finn of course, wouldn't listen, he believes he had the right to know about the situation so he yelled at her telling her how wrong she is. But when Rachel told him that there was a possibility that it wouldn't even be his child but Brody's, something in him snapped so he ended the call.

Rachel kept calling him and trying to apologize, she wanted to visit Lima herself so she can beg for Finn's forgiveness but she was too busy balancing NYADA and Funny Girl rehearsals (yes she got the part!). Rachel was worried that she will never hear from Finn ever again and at the same time, she was furious because he was overreacting.

Finn called two months later apologizing on his behalf for ignoring her, he told her that he was busy with college, but still it was no excuse he still should've at least called and resolved the fight instead of leaving her hanging so he apologized for that. But even though all was forgiven, they were still drifting apart and Rachel feels like there was nothing she can do about the empty distant feeling she felt with Finn.

Finn became distant with Rachel ever since he started dating a girl named Katie. She had long brunette hair and was tall and slim (just like a super model). Katie was just a rebound for Finn because he really wanted to stop feeling lonely all the time. He started getting comfortable with the distance and the feeling of loneliness started fading away.

Rachel tried not to be upset when she heard about Finn and Katie. She wasn't mad, she didn't even try to persuade Finn to break up with Katie since she had no right to tell him not date anyone, so Rachel just focused on herself.

When Kurt told Rachel that Finn and Katie were already having relationship issues, she saw this as an opportunity for her and Finn to work things out and be together again. She was excited for opening night because she was sure that what she prepared to tell Finn will convince him to be with her again.

However, she was wrong. He didn't even come. During the after-party for her opening night, she asked Kurt why Finn wasn't here, Kurt was hesitant when he answered her, "He told me he was on a date"

Rachel's mood dropped at his answer. She remained silent for the rest of the night.

She forgave Finn after a week of phone calls, emails and text messages saying how sorry he was. And once the anger was out of her system she tries to convince Finn that they could be together again, that they could make it no matter how far away they are from each other. Unfortunately, Finn would always turn her down and kept reminding her that he's with someone else.

When Finn told her that he has already moved on, she wouldn't believe him. But she was tired, tired of chasing someone who doesn't even want her anymore so she left him alone. Santana and Kurt were there to comfort her and assure her that things would turn out fine. But she didn't believe them. Kurt swore he would murder his brother hurting Rachel, he couldn't believe his brother would want to be with Katie instead of Rachel. Santana couldn't stand Rachel being so sad so she convinced her to go out to a bar, and even though Kurt thinks alcohol isn't the answer, he agrees with Santana so they both took Rachel out to a bar and that was the night Jesse re-entered Rachel's life.

Rachel was a bit hesitant to be with Jesse again, but she got more comfortable every time they would hang out. The closer she got with Jesse, the more she forgot about Finn and the heartache he caused. She wanted to believe that Jesse was just a rebound and that they weren't serious, she still wanted to believe she would get back together with Finn, one day.

When Finn moved to New York, she thought she had a chance. So she would spend less time with Jesse and more time with Finn. When Finn told her he was still with Katie, It messed with her mind, she started to think that he loves Katie now because he said that Katie stayed in Lima. Rachel was mad because they were both in New York, and they didn't have to leave the state just to see each other yet Finn chose to be in a long distance relationship with someone else. So Rachel confronted Finn and asked him if he still wants her, and the moment he told her he doesn't love her anymore, she completely gave up on him; on them.

They didn't talk for weeks but they learned to be civilized with each other (for Kurt's sake), and they ended up being friends again. Rachel wasn't too happy that they aren't as close as they used to be but she's grateful that Finn is still in her life.

"You're engaged?!"

Rachel rolled her eyes at her best friend. "Why are you surprised? We've been together for four years."

"But I always thought you'd come into your senses and leave him!" Kurt shouted.

"What are you talking about Kurt? He treats me right!" Rachel defended, already frustrated with how this conversation is going.

"Sure he does." Kurt replied sarcastically.

"Okay, why not you tell me what he did wrong besides cracking an egg on my head!" Rachel snapped. She couldn't believe he would think Jesse was still that kind of guy when he knows he's wrong because he's always been with Rachel to witness how perfect he treats her.

"I still get a bad vibe from him but you're right," Kurt sighed in defeat, "He treats you right" he mumbled with a hint of annoyance.

Kurt respects their relationship. He wouldn't purposely make Jesse feel uncomfortable whenever he was around. In fact, they would have small talks about Rachel and how good she's been doing in her life. Jesse did change for the better but sometimes he acts like his old self without even realizing it. Kurt isn't even sure he should be bothered by it but he lets it go for his best friend's sake.

Rachel frowned. She was definitely not happy at Kurt's reaction. "I thought you would be happy for me." She said, biting her lip as she looked down and played with her fingers.

"Okay, Okay," Kurt stood up from the couch motioning Rachel to stand up too, "I'm sorry. I am happy that you're happy," He took both her hands pulling her in for a hug, "I promise."

Rachel smiled widely and hugged him back. "Thank you Kurt. And don't worry, Jesse and I both agreed that you'd be the wedding planner." She said excitingly as she pulled away.

Kurt just rolled his eyes playfully. He is genuinely happy for his best friend.

Knock Knock Knock.

Finn rolled off his couch, groaning. He clumsily walked to the door knocking over a magazine rack on the way. He opened the door and saw his Latina friend smiling widely at him. "What do you want?" he asked grumpily.

"Well good morning to you too" Santana rolled her eyes as she let herself in.

"Santana, what are you doing here." Finn slammed the door, completely irritated at Santana's presence.

"Don't you have to go to work?"

"No, but I have some paper work to grade so get out." Finn replied sternly.

"Why are you being a fucking asshole this morning? Did someone reject your sex offer last night?"

Finn sighed in frustration, "Look, I'm sorry but I really need to grade these papers so will you please leave." He tried telling her as nice as possible.

"Whatever, I didn't plan on staying. I just wanted to tell you that Rachel is throwing a party on Sunday and she wants you to come." Santana took one last look at Finn, "You really need to fix yourself up." Santana said before leaving Finn alone in his apartment.

Finn rolled his eyes as he made his way towards his desk to start grading his students' papers. He hasn't seen Rachel in 3 weeks. The last time he saw her, they were having dinner with Kurt and Santana because Puck and Quinn came to visit to introduce their new baby to everyone.

Finn misses being close with Rachel, he wouldn't deny that. He wishes things didn't turn out the way it did. He wonders if there will come a time where he and Rachel will be as close as they were before. He really, really hopes so.

Rachel looked at herself at the mirror; she smoothed out her red dress and fixed her hair a bit. She took a deep breath as she makes her way to her side table beside her bed, and picked up a small jewelry box.

She took her engagement ring out of the jewelry box and slipped it in her ring finger.

"You ready princess?" Kurt asked as he entered the room.

"Yeah, I don't know why I'm so nervous. How do I look?" She asked.

"Beautiful, Rachel. And you're glowing! Please don't tell me you're pregnant already!" Kurt joked.

Rachel laughed as she smacked Kurt's arm slightly, "Is Finn coming?"

"Not sure. I haven't talked to him in a week." Kurt replied.

"Oh" Rachel bit her lip, trying to hide a frown.

Kurt noticed Rachel's change of mood and said, "Come on, they're waiting for you. Especially Quinn."

"Okay," Rachel took a deep breath, "I'll be out in a minute. I promise."

"Alright" Kurt smiled at her before exiting her bedroom.

Rachel looks at the mirror one last time, "Soon, You will become Rachel St. James" she tells herself with a smile on her face.

"Finn! I'm so happy you're here!" Rachel squealed.

Finn was caught off guard when she threw herself at him. "H-hey!" he stuttered, hugging her back.

"I'm sorry for sending Santana to inform you about this, I wanted to personally invite you but.." Rachel smiled getting a bit lost in her own thoughts before continuing to what she was going to say, "..I've been busy"

Finn took a moment to study Rachel; she looked extremely happy, and beautiful. She's glowing. It made Finn smile. It's been a while since he saw her this happy. "Don't worry about it" Finn assured her.

Rachel led Finn inside her apartment. Finn looked around and saw a small group of Rachel's friends, he assumes are her cast mates, gathered up in a circle gossiping about Broadway.

"Hey man!" Finn called out to Puck when he saw him sitting in the couch drinking a beer.

"It's been long" Puck smiled and stood up to give Finn a man hug.

"Yeah. So how's everything? How's Jack?" Finn asked as he sat down on the couch.

"Things are great. Jack's amazing, the cutest little dude in the world," Puck replied proudly, "He's actually with those two ladies over there." Puck said pointing at Rachel and Santana who was playing with the 7 month old baby across the room.

Finn smiled at the sight. Rachel is so good when it comes to kids. He loves it when he sees her playing with little babies or toddlers. He wonders how Rachel would act around her own kids; the thought of it makes his stomach flutter. He knows she'd be an amazing mom.

"Hey babe!" Finn heard Jesse call out as he saw the curly haired man enter the apartment. Snapping out of his thoughts, he turned his head to see Jesse making his way towards Rachel.

"You're here!" Rachel exclaimed with so much excitement as she wrapped her arms around Jesse's neck.

Finn saw Jesse wrap his arms around Rachel's waist as he gave her kisses all over her face. The sight of that made Finn want to throw up.

Disgusting Finn thought.

Rachel gave Jesse a quick peck on the lips before pulling away. "Alright," she said loudly catching everyone's attention in the living room. "Now that Jesse's here, there's something we'd like to announce. First of.."

Finn zoned out as he felt his heart drop. Announcement? Finn gulped, suddenly nervous at what their announcement is goanna be. Maybe they're going to Disneyland? He stupidly thought to himself. Finn was too distracted with his own thoughts to notice Quinn trying to sit between him and Puck.

"You okay?" Quinn asked.

"I'm fine" Finn replied with a weak smile.

"..So now, we're taking the next step on our relationship.." Oh no Finn thought. He definitely doesn't want to hear this.

"We're engaged!" Rachel announced happily. Jesse kissed her forehead as she showed off the ring to her friends who were gathering around her with excitement to look at the ring.

Finn remained silent as he tried to absorb the news. He couldn't believe this was happening. He couldn't believe she was engaged to Jesse, out of all stood up from the couch and made his way towards Rachel, who was being squeezed by a very excited Quinn Fabray-Puckerman.

"Congratulations" Finn managed to say. He hugged Rachel when Quinn pulled away. "I'm so happy for you." He said as he pulled away.

"Thank you Finn" Rachel smiled and rested her head on Jesse's shoulder.

Finn looked at Jesse and reached out his hand to shake his, "Congratulations man, you better take care of her." Finn said trying to sound playful.

Jesse smiled at Finn, "Nothing to worry about." He said as he retrieved his hand.

Finn looked over at Rachel again, "So uh, do your dads know?" He asked just noticing that her dads aren't around.

Rachel nodded her head, "Yeah Jesse and I announced it to our parents during a big St. Berry dinner. They were happy for us." She replied with so much joy.

Finn gave her a small smile. He felt suffocated. He wanted to get out of here. "That's great," he looked around seeing people gathered around Kurt asking about the wedding details. "I, uh, better go." Finn said.

"What? Why?" Rachel asked with a slight frown.

"I got papers to grade," He lied. "I'll see you soon though, I promise." He lied again. Every time he tells her that he will see her soon, he never does. He doesn't make an effort to hang out with Rachel alone. He feels like he isn't ready for that. They only see each other when there was a get together.

"Oh. Alright. I'll see you around, Finn." She said with a hint of sadness in her voice.

Finn felt a bit guilty when he noticed the sadness in her voice. She knows he wouldn't keep that promise. "Alright, bye" he said a bit too quickly. He gave the newly engaged couple one last smile before he rushed out of the apartment.

Finn ran out of the building.

Engaged.. to Jesse?! Finn was angry at the thought of it.

He couldn't believe Rachel still couldn't see that she deserves better. Finn always thought Rachel would see the light and leave Jesse. Just like how he left Katie who, by the way, cheated on him with their former professor.

He slammed the door shut as he entered his apartment. He removed his leather jacket and dumped it on his couch as he made his way to his bed. He lied down, not bothering to remove his shoes, and stared up at the ceiling.

He doesn't trust Jesse. He knows he doesn't have the right to tell her who to be with, no one does. But he cares about her. He just doesn't want her to get hurt.

Finn grabbed a picture of both him and Rachel smiling wide from his nightstand.

"I miss you" he quietly said as if Rachel was there to hear it. He really does miss Rachel. He misses his best friend. And if he could turn back time and take back what he said that caused them to drift apart more than they already have, he would in a heartbeat.

"Rachel, no." Finn said as he turned his head to refrain Rachel from kissing him.

"Don't you love me?" Rachel asked as she took a few steps back away from Finn.

They were both standing in the quiet living room, face to face in Finn's apartment; they were both exhausted after hanging out the whole afternoon together in Central Park.

"Rachel.."

"Do you still love me or not?" She asked with frustration. Tears were streaming down her face.

Finn didn't know what to answer. He wants her, he always have, and always will. But there's just so much going on right now he doesn't know exactly what to focus on. He was too busy worrying about looking for a good place to start his teaching career while he was working in a mechanic shop to pay for his rent, which is making him stressed out. And his mind is all over the place he can't really think properly. Besides, he's already with Katie.

"It's about her, isn't it" She says quietly.

"No. I-I don't even like her that much."

"But you like her enough to skip my opening night just to have sex with her! You like her enough to still be with her instead of me even if she's miles away!" She screams.

That made something inside Finn snap, without thinking clearly, he responded, "Well can you blame her? She's better that you! And you're still with Jesse!"

Rachel stood still. Tears were streaming down her face. "Fuck you, Finn Hudson." She said.

Finn tried to calm himself down before he says something he would regret forever, but he just couldn't. He was mad cause Rachel is mad that he's still with Katie even though she's still with Jesse? Yeah, fuck that.

"Get this in your head, Rachel. I don't love you anymore." Finn said coldly.

And with that, Rachel left Finn alone in his apartment.

Finn shut his eyes tightly as if it would erase the unwanted memory.

Maybe if Rachel wasn't moping around at that time, she would've had the right sense of mind and not fall for that douche bag again.

Finn placed the picture down and tried to clear his mind.

Okay, so he couldn't really prove that Jesse doesn't treat Rachel right because as much as he hates to admit it, he actually does. Well he assumes he does because when he sees them together, he doesn't act like a self centered jerk and he actually watches out for her. And Rachel really looks happy when she's with him.

Finn stood up from his bed, frustrated that he couldn't sleep. He walked over to his closet and picked up a shoebox. It was filled with old pictures of him and Rachel back in high school. He carefully took the pictures out of the box until he saw ring that was resting on the remaining pictures that were still in the box. He picked up the ring and stared at it as another memory crept into his mind.

"It's yours, just keep it." Finn said angrily as he shoved the ring into Rachel's hands.

"I don't want it!" Rachel shouted as she threw the ring at Finn.

"Well I don't want it either!" He growled.

"Well it's either you keep it or I throw it away. I don't want to be reminded of what I lost" Rachel said coldly.

When Finn didn't give her a response, Rachel spoke up, "Make up your mind and get the hell out of my apartment." And with that, Rachel stormed off into her room slamming the door shut.

Finn sighed and picked up the engagement ring before he let himself out of Rachel's apartment.

Finn started to feel tired so he put the ring back into the box and returned all the pictures he took out before he made his way towards the bed. But something was still bugging him, so he got his cellphone and wrote out a text.

I'm really sorry I left early can we see each other again? I wanna make it up to you.

Without thinking twice, he sent the message to Rachel.

He got an uneasy feeling on his stomach when he realized it has almost been an hour and she still didn't reply. Instantly regretting he even considered trying to make up for taking off so early (which Finn thinks isn't even a big deal), he placed his phone down and forced himself to sleep wishing he didn't even go to the party in the first place.