Hopes of Normalcy
DISCLAIMER: Hey. Let's make a copy-and-paste thing here. Okay, so, CLAMP and its works are not mine. They belong to, uh, CLAMP. WISH, Holic, Tokyo Babylon, X, Tsubasa, RG Veda, Kobato, Cardcaptor Sakura, Drug & Drop, Chobits, and every other story I have not mentioned here but that I might use are not mine, but CLAMP's. Also, the characters are also CLAMP's property. What I do own is this series of drabbles I've been writing from different CLAMP works, that are not really related. I have no monetary interest with any of this, of course, but, now, if you'd like to leave me comments, I'd be incredibly happy… (Sorry, sorry. Thought it was a good opening)
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In a dark room, stuck in my own mind, I found you. A beam of light, like the sun at that beach you showed me. A happiness that didn't fit into the darkness and suffering, a hope that could end even the torment of my nightmares.
You came without an invitation, with a smile in your lips and sincere eyes. You came without even knowing me, and offered me your hand anyway. You came in the dark, and showed me the world.
You were so different from everything I knew. Your voice was the first sound I'd heard in years, and you were the first life I'd experimented since ever. Your stories were treasures, treasures of my own. And, at the same time, your stories were a world, a world of your own.
A world I had never lived. A world I would never be able to live through. A world I wished to be able to experiment. A world that — that you offered me, with an honest smile, a warm hand, and an innocent invitation.
In a dark room, you created a new world. You brought your dreams, warm, colorful, living dreams, into my nightmares. Into a place where there was nothing, you brought life. To someone who was dead, you brought hope. And all through a simple beach, such a common place in your world, a place where you had gone through so many times that you were able to recreate it from memories alone. Yet, this beach, seen through a dream, was enough to make burn in me feelings I had thought destroyed years ago, feelings I had never experienced in the first place and had never thought I ever would. With your beach, with your dream, with your smile, I found myself in a way that brought light into my room, brought sound into my silence, and voice into my life.
With your beach, Hokuto, you saved me from myself, even if you did nothing but be yourself.