Author Note:
I DO NOT OWN THE SECRET LIFE OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS THEY ALL BELONG TO BRENDA HAMPTON.
This is my first story hope you all love!
I stood in my bedroom window as the rain pour down outside. I wiped away the fresh tears that seem to stain my face, as earlier events played in my head. I couldn't believe what has happen, I couldn't believe him. My thoughts were than interrupted by the bussing of my phone that lay across my nightstand. But yet I didn't bother to move. My body was physically tired, my mind was running rapidly on overload and I still couldn't bring myself to move. My heart was broken and the only one who could ease the pain was the one who caused it. But I didn't want to hear from him, I refused to allow him to believe I was weak. I wanted him to hurt just as much as I did. So ignoring him was the only way. My thoughts were than interrupted by a knock on my door.
AMY", I heard my mother yell from the outside of my door.
"Yea", I said agitated
"Can you let me in; I mean I really don't like yelling outside of the door". I heard her say with a slight attitude.
I put my head down in my hands cursing at myself for responding, I then wiped my eyes and cleared my throat as I began to walked to my door to unlock it. My mother than enter my room with a worried look on her face.
Amy, what's going on you been in this room all day since you got home and didn't even bother to come down and eat dinner with us, and have you been crying?
I took a seat on the edge of my bed and began to lie.
"No mom it's just my allergies acting up, you know I get them around this time. It must be because all the rain we've been having." I said wiping my eyes once more. She looked unconvinced but she didn't protest seeing as how she knows I get allergies around spring time.
"Okay honey but you don't want anything to eat, when you didn't come down for dinner you kind of worried me."
"No mom I'm ok, I'm just a little tired and I ate something when I was out earlier anyway".
"Oh well ok Amy but if there is anything wrong you would come and talk to me right"?
"Yes I would mom, trust me I'm ok you have nothing to worry about. I promise ok"?
She took a sign of relief as she folded her arms and said "Ok Amy, just know I'm here if you need me, I love you.
"Ok and I love you to", I said trying to give her an assuring smile
She smiled and began to leave the room before she turned back and said "Oh and no more locked doors".
"Ok mom", I said as said as she closed my door.
I still remained still on my bed head in the palms of my hands; I never knew the pain of a broken heart till now. I don't want to eat, sleep or even breath it all hurt too much, he told me not to like him but I did, he told me not to care but I did, he told me not to fall in love but I did. And now I don't know how to fall out or even if I wanted to.
1 year and 5 months ago
It was week a left of band camp and I would be starting my freshman year of high school soon, I was really nervous about it because honestly I didn't know what to expect. I thought it would be like all the teen movies make it out to be the jocks with the blonde headed cheerleaders, but then again like I said before I didn't know what to expect, so I decided to be optimistic.
"Amy", my friend Jessica said startling me.
"Hey" I said looking up at her as I moved my things for her to sit down.
"Why are you sitting here reading, when you should be out there trying to attract a fine young thang".
"Jess you know I'm not into that, and even if I was I don't know how to do that unlike you everyone's not blessed with good looks and confidence to match." I said turning my head back to the direction of my book.
"Amy what are you talking about you are beautiful, all you have to do is get some confidence about yourself and stop being scared to take a chance." She said taking a bite from her apple.
"I'm just plain old Amy why would someone want me."
"Ok now shut up I am sick and tired of hearing you throwing yourself a pity party, where going to find you a man if it's the last thing I do."
"Whatever", I said as I sighed and put my hands on my forehead. I didn't even put up a fight with Jessica because from being her friend for five years I knew I couldn't change her mind. Jessica and I met when I was in 4th grade she was in the 5th. Some girls was picking on me and she came in my defense and we been best friends ever since. Jessica was 5'7 with beach blonde hair, and green eyes. Unlike my family who seem perfect on the outside looking in, Jessica had a single parent household. Her mother had died of breast cancer years ago leaving her father to raise her. There is no surprise she's a daddy's girl.
"You know at first I didn't want to come to this whole band camp thing but the guys here are pretty hot". She said eyeing this one guy in particular.
"If only he didn't fuck every girl with legs he might actually have a chance with me."
"Huh, what and who is he?" I said looking in her direction.
"Ricky Underwood Grant high 'bad boy', he thinks he's God gift to woman". He's such an ass." She said with her eyes still focused on him. As I looked at him I could see why he considered himself that. The boy was fine, from his hair to his eyes, to the mole on his chin. I couldn't help but stare.
"Umm Amy, hello" she said waving her hand in my face. "Let it go he's not the one for you".
"I was just looking at him, and I will admit he's cute but I don't even know him nor do I have thoughts of him like that anyway." I said rolling my eyes.
"Look I was just letting you know, you're going to be going to grant soon so I was just trying to give you a heads up.
"Well thanks are there anymore you want me to stay away from". I said sarcastically.
"No just him any who let's go swimming or something I'm sick and tired of being in here." She said standing up for me to fellow. I grabbed my book placed it in my bag and threw it over my shoulder. I looked over at him one last time, he must of felt me looking his way because his eyes connected with mine giving me a smirk, I will never forget.
She say's stay away he's Ricky Underwood the 'bad boy'. He's not for you!