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"You had absolutely NO right ! " Lily Evans shrieked. He had never seen her so mad.

"But... but," James spluttered.

"What ? No buts ! It's my life you know, and I can do whatever I want ! "

"Lily..." he said pleadingly.

"Don't. Just don't, " she told him more calmly, shaking her head. "I'm sick of it, I'm sick that I cannot do what I want, I'm sick of you. Why are you doing this ?" The last sentence was more a whisper. He could see tears, and hurt in her beautiful eyes.

Suddenly he wasn't able to say anything to her. Then she turned around, and went off.

He had known he shouldn't have done it but he couldn't help himself. Love is very powerful... but jealousy even more. Seeing her with somebody other than him was cruel. At least for him.

She was laughing with him, she let him holding her around her waist... and yet James couldn't even come to her within one metre. she had never willingly looked at him, let alone laughing at his jokes. Despite this he loved her. Even when he was just seventeen. He kept dreaming about her... about them going out, laughing together, kissing... Sirius called him love-struck fool. And maybe he was.

However now it looked like his dream would never come true, anyhow he wished. Because he hurt her. It was all his fault.

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James Potter, seventeen year old wizard, was wandering in London streets, bored and slightly depressed which was little unusual for this man. It was hot summer with sun shining and no even small chance of rain, but despite of this he wasn't happy. His friends were away, and even his best friend Sirius had to 'do something'. So he wasn't there to distract him. But it wasn't the only reason of his state. He was fed up with all of that. He was out of age, and yet he couldn't do anything. It wasn't fair for his parents. They were elderly and now even seriously ill, he would never forgive himself if they died of worrying about him fighting against Voldemort. He sighed. He hated the feeling of helplessness. There were so many people dying just because they were at wrong place ! He came to the Leaky Cauldron but he immediately turned back. He couldn't bear to hear about another attack.

So instead he went to the nearest park and he sat on the bench. Soon he was trying to ignore the couple behind him. It gave a lot of work because they were really close, and they were laughing loudly. Man whispered something to the woman what James presumed to be 'sweet nothings', and she stopped laughing.

James sighed again. It was really starting to be unbearable how everything made him think of Lily. Lily Evans. Two words that made his world seem brighter. Pity she always said she hated him. Not that he hadn't tried. He asked her out countless times.And she refused every time. Well, it wasn't his fault she was so stubborn to admit that she in fact, loved him. He couldn't understand why, though, it was taking her so much time. wasn't he the Quiddich Captain; one of two most popular boys in school AND the best in transfiguration in their year ? He was. So why ? He shook his head.

Suddenly giggles interrupted his thoughts. Oh, no again ? Funny, they sounded almost...

"Liiiilyyyy, " said man's teasing voice. "I didn't know you were so ticklish"

"No, stop, please, Derek. I beg you," she said but James could say she was smiling.

"Okay, but I have one condition"

"Which is"

"You must kiss me." "Okay, but you will pay, remember"

"And how will I pay, may I ask ?"

"You will have to kiss me once more." And nothing was spoken after this reply.

James sat there, petrified. What if it was his Lily ? He slowly turned his head as he was expecting some danger. All he could see that this young woman had auburn hair... like Lily. But it couldn't be her, he reminded himself, Lily has longer hair than this woman. He knew that, after all, he had spent many many hours just staring at her hair. Her beautiful wavy hair. Aaaach, Lily.

But then they stopped kissing, gasping for air. The look on James' face was priceless. It was really Lily Evans, seventeen year old witch, his classmate.

He felt anger and jealousy building up in his chest. How dare she ...snog any other boy not being him ! How could she... after he had confessed his love for her ! And with such a guy ! He didn't deserve her... she could do better.

James stood up quickly, and almost ran to the happy couple.

"You... wanker," and before anybody could say 'Lily', James punched him hard in his face.

"Potter ! No, Derek !" Lily shouted and tried to save her boyfriend.

James looked at Lily how she was embracing the WANKER, with shaking his fist in pain.

"What the hell you want ?" Derek asked angrily, too.

"Stay away from her, and leave her alone !"

"Why-" Derek started but was cut off by the girl in question.

"Who am I, your possession ? I've told you thousand times YOU stay away from me "

"Well, you could do better, Evans. You could choose some better bloke, not that one who hides behind a girl," James knew he shouldn't have told that, but sometimes it is hard not to follow you anger.

"Don't you dare-" again Derek started but was once again cut by Lily.

"Stop that, honey. He's not worth it. He's just jealous of you," she said and put her finger on his mouth.

James, his anger aggravated even more, couldn't control himself: "Who are you, anyway ? Some stupid Hufflepuff coward..."

"Stop it," Lily tried to interrupt him.

"...who doesn't even know to cast 'expelliarmus..."

"Stop it now ! " Lily's voice sounded now more desperately.

"... and who can't understand what EVERYBODY in Hogwarts"

"Shut up "

"...understands that my wand is quickier and more powerful than his, " and with these words he took out his wand, and casted a spell. However Lily was quickier and created the Shield Charm.

"You FOOL !!! You could harm him!"

"He's a coward," James muttered but he didn't take notice of the look of horror on Derek's face.

"No, he's not ! He's a MUGGLE, for God's sake !"

Shit. No, he couldn't be. However he saw Derek's face and immediately believed her. Crap. This shouldn't have happened.

"You git, you..." she couldn't even find words. Hell, in was in BIG trouble.

She obliviated Derek, and sent him home. Then she turned to James.

"What did THAT mean ?" she started dangerously calmly. Bad.

"I..." In fact, James didn't have anything to apologise. This wasn't nothing. He could reveal the Wizarding world to muggles. He could HURT innocent muggle.

"You could kill him, you prat. KILL. I thought you despise you-know-who and what ? You're doing the same !" Lily shouted.

"I wouldn't kill him. It was only a ..." but Lily ignored him.

"And apart from that, I thought I were a free person. Not your property ! You had absolutely NO right ! "

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He was disgusted with himself. What had he done ? She was right- he was practically doing the same as Voldemort in one way. Hexing random people in corridors, his arrogance. But in deep James knew he wasn't so bad. He could change. He would change. For himself. For Lily.

A/N: Okay, this is my first oneshot, so please REVIEW ! I plead you ! I might even write a sequel if I got enough reviews. :D

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