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Forever Has Come to an End

He had promised me forever. Even though he never actually considered giving it to me. He never wanted to give me forever, even when I begged him for it. But somehow forever seemed to have different connotations for the two of us. When he refused to give it to me, I guess I should have known something was wrong.

Though maybe wrong isn't the right word. Because as long as we were together even the things that went wrong were perfect. Because I had him.

They say you never fully appreciate what you have until you have it no longer. I wonder how many hearts were broken before someone finally realized how much of a gift love is. I'm just another broken heart trying to survive with what's left. And not doing a very good job of it.

And so here I sit in the meadow. What used to be our meadow. But now, even though the wildflowers are blooming and the sun is shining, it all seems to have a grey cast to it, as if a shadow had fallen over with the absence of my angel. The shadow was only a meager representation of the blackness, the darkness, within me. My despair had never run quite so deep or cut out so much of heart as it had done today.

Like I said, forever holds a lot of pain for me. But forever can be so many different things, can be construed in so many different ways. But the only thing that changes the meaning of forever for me is him.

Only Edward. His name had long broken free from the recesses of my mind.

But I came here today with a purpose. Maybe Alice will see me, I thought with a stab of pain, or maybe not. But it doesn't matter, because I came here to end my life. A solitary knife sits beside me as silent sobs wrack my frame. A letter to Charlie and a letter to Edward rest at my feet. Whether Edward will ever read his I won't ever find out. But I will be gone from here, and my pain will be ceased so it does not bother me too much.

I left a note at home with directions so Charlie can find me here. He's fishing today, so I'll still have time to carry out my purpose. As the sun beats down on me from high up in the sky, I pick up the knife a slash a deep cut across my wrist. Then another, until my blood is spilt upon the ground. I repeat with my other wrist as I start to get dizzy from the smell of the blood. My blood. The cuts are deep enough so that no more are needed. I lie back in the grass and enjoy the sun's last gift of warmth upon my skin.

I almost had forever with him. But in reality, I never really had the chance at a forever with him. It should have been obvious to me that he hadn't loved me at all, even in the beginning. Forever before he left had such sweet connotations. After he left me, forever seemed to turn into my worst enemy. It had seemed like my time would never end.

So here I am. As the world darkens from grey to black, one last thought crosses my mind.

My forever has come to an end.

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AncientSky