Dear Jethro- my Love,
Where do I start? We've been together through so much that we know each other inside out and how our minds work.
Remember Europe? I know I'll never forget. The taste of your lips against mine, your touches, and your unique smell are all simply embedded in my mind. Jethro you have no idea how much I regret leaving you for my ambitions.
If I have the opportunity to change the moment, trust me I would and I'd make the most of it. But I let my foolishness get the best of me and I now live and breathe my mistake. But enough of self-pity- Jethro I'm writing this letter to you because I know that I don't have the guts to do it face to face. I'm dying Jethro... Don't worry there are treatments- but I'd rather die the way I did than succumb to my illness.
Funny, I always thought that I'd die of old age and of natural causes, with my kids or grandchildren and husband surrounding me- if my husband makes it that long- but I left that dream behind in Paris with that stupid letter. If I did die due to this illness than I can heavily assure you that you wouldn't be reading this letter, and if you are reading this letter than Jethro, please don't lash out or feel guilty, it's my fault for being so weak and in writing that, I'm so so sorry Jethro, for everything I'd put you through and I'll put you through this coming months and years.
Jethro while reading this please, please don't shut yourself out from the people whom care deeply about you, don't hesitate to take Abby's hug, don't give Ziva, Tony and Tim extra paperwork- especially if you know that it isn't needed and please, please Jethro don't cut Ducky off- you know he's more of a father than we'd both ever ask for.
Remember that I'll always love you and that whatever I did I did it for us, for the good of it. I'll say hi to Shannon and Kelly from wherever I'll end up to and I'd tell them how much you miss them. Jethro- my love, my life, please move on and find the person you know will truly take care of you till your last breathe. It's alright, really, to move on and don't feel guilty about it. Shannon, Kelly and I will be fine with it and please I don't want to see another divorce wherever I'll be at.
Semper Fidelis my love,
Jenny.