title: I Laugh
pairing:Anzu x Yami Bakura
summary: Perhaps you don't know what loneliness is, I mean, you have always been alone, so you don't know what not being alone is to miss it, to feel the burn. But I do. Oh I do. I laugh at it.
rating: M (as always)
notes:Poor Anzu, thats what happens when you fall in love with dark men. -sigh-
standard disclaimer applies.
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Perhaps you don't know what loneliness is, I mean, you have always been alone, so you don't know what not being alone is to miss it, to feel the burn. But I do. Oh I do. I laugh at it.
I know how you left me, left me alone in the dark, I have had three of your children. I should say no to you, push you away from whence you came, but just a few of your hot kisses and I forget all the resolutions I made in the hospitale when I held your daughter. I think its cruel, really, they all look like you, white hair and brown eyes. They're all I have left of you though. Sometimes I really wonder where you get off though, how can you treat a woman like that? You said you would stay, but you didn't, did you? Your eldest daughter is asking now. Where's Daddy? Where's Daddy gone? God I die every time I see there face when I answer I don't know. Your children are bastards, just like you. Funny isn't it? Ha ha ha ha ha.
I laugh. Because I have to. And you, Bakura. Thief King. Stealer of my good for nothing heart. Father to my children. I laugh at you, because I have to, it's the only way I can stand you.
I remember the first time I talked to you, when you got your own body back. Actually when I first saw you. My throat closed up and my hands became sweaty and I felt a prickle of fear in my armpits. But when I talked to you, I saw you were lonely. Hey, I would be lonely too if I was you, getting thrown into the world that technically says you don't exist. (I always wondered what ever happens when you get caught, they cant charge someone that doesn't exist can they?) But I digress, when I saw you, with nothing but Ryou for company I felt for you, so I became your friend.
But you used me, you thief. Used my heart for your own, I don't mind that you did, you needed something to stand on, and I was a more than willing block, I accommodated your every whim and need. And you dug yourself a hole in my heart that you crawl back to when it gets too much. You can pretend that you're all right then, when you're with me, you have something again, and you don't feel useless. But each time you leave me, I hate you just a little more and want you a little more.
But tomorrow I have decided, when you leave my arms again, because you are in them right now, you head on my stomach, I will leave you, because I will not keep doing this too myself again, to your children. Do you know how messed up they when you reappear on my door step? They think you will stay this time.
So my thief, this is the end, you will not see me again. I am going, I, Anzu, am leaving you permanently, I have already bought a new house. In a city that's… far away. Actually a different country all together. And I'll be laughing at you, laughing because I don't want my children to see me crying.
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afterahardday