Vermilion Pt. 2 (Songfiction)
She seemed dressed in all of me, stretched across my shame
All the torment and the pain
Leaked through and covered me
I'd do anything to have her to myself
Just to have her for myself
Now I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sane
I thought about her as I layed on my bed. I closed my eyes as I thought about her long brown hair, always perfectly straight. I thought about her beautiful brown eyes, how I always got lost in them. I thought about her smile, how happy it made me when she smiled…
She is everything to me
The unrequited dream
A song that no one sings
The unattainable, she's a myth that I have to believe in
All I need to make it real is one more reason
I don't know what to do, I don't know what to do when she makes me sad
I saw her standing in my doorway, a smile on her face as always. I got up and went to her, pulled her into my arms, and kissed her. "I love you" we both said when she pulled away, then she turned to go. "Don't go" I pleaded, but she was already gone.
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I opened my eyes, it was only a dream. I wanted it to be real so badly, just to have her in my arms, one last time. If only the other driver had been paying attention, she'd still be here.
A catch in my throat, choke
Torn into pieces
I won't, no
I don't wanna be this…
"Why?" I demanded at nothing in particular. "Why did you have to take the only good thing in my life?" I shouted as I stormed out of my room and went to the basement. "What are you doing?" my mother asked as I picked up the gun.
But I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
I won't let this build up inside of me
"She was the only good thing I had, what's the point of living if I can't have her?" I explained, tears running down my face. "Don't do this, please" she begged. "I'm sorry" I said as I pulled the trigger.
She isn't real
I can't make her real
She isn't real
I can't make her real