HELLO ALL!!! Probably didn't think that you would ever see an update from this story again did you?? HA your wrong!!! Okay I am revising this entire story because I was watching Esca the other day and then I read my story and I was disapointed with myself and I think I can do more with it now!!

Discalimer : I WILL NEVER OWN ESCA!!!!! -cry cry- there I said it! happy?

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Van couldn't believe it. He watched as her lips touched his. Hitomi was kissing Allen. He felt sick inside. They pareted from their kiss, each a tad bit embaressed and cunfused by what had just happend. Hitomi's blonde hair feel into her eyes and Allen reached out a hand to brush it back.

This was not how this was supposed to be. It was supposed to be him up there, not Allen.

Hitomi turned her head from Allen and saw Van standing there in disbelife.When Van awoke from his dream like state he ran like he had never ran before.

"Van! No wait! Please!" Hitomi's screams could barely reach Van's ears. His thoughts were racing, all of them around her. The girl from the Mystic Moon, but he didn't want to think about her. He wanted to think of anything but her. But try as he might he couldn't seem to out run his thoughts.

He couldn't stop from cursing himself. 'Van what were you thinking?! You knew she liked him! You saw the way she looked at him! She never looked at you like that. Why would she?' He couldn't help but think the same things over and over again.

Hitomi watched Van run. With each of his foot falls she felt her heart break more and more. Hitomi tried to chase Van but Allen wouldn't let go. When she turned her attention to him he acted like nothing had just happened. He just stared back at Hitomi and finally said, " Leave him. He'll be fine." All Hitomi could do was stare at Van as he ran. So many thoughts were going through her head to think straight or to speak.

When Allen and Hitomi finally got back to the castle Hitomi was still in shock. Allen insited on walking Hitomi to her room to make sure she was safe. When their goodbye came it wasn't akward. Hitomi maneged a queit goodbye and Allen kissed Hitomi on her hand before heading to his own room down the hall.

Hitomi closed the door behind her and slowly walked around the dark bed room she had come to know as her own. Her thoughts still uncontrolable. Hitomi sat down on the edge of the bed and let the last few hours events wash over her. She tried to justify the days events. 'It's all his fault not mine. There was no reason for him to act the way he acted. He knows I like Allen. If he liked me he should have came out and told me. What's his problem? He makes it seem like this is my entire fault. Anyways he said it himself he only wants me for my power to help Him win this war. '

Hitomi fell back onto her bed letting her emotions take over. "That kiss." 'Hitomi let out the bigest sigh she could muster. It didn't feel like me that was kissing Allen. It was me but was it really me? I felt like I had no choice in kissing him. Is it really Allen that I love or is it Amono that I love? I feel like I don't know anything anymore.'

Hitomi couldn't hold back, she let tears cascade down her cheeks.

Hitomi heard a light tap at her door. Hitomi wipped away all of her tears quickly. "Come in."

Allen queitly entered the room. Seeing Hitomi in pain broke his heart. Allen walked over to Hitomi and sat next to her on the bed.

"I was walking past your door and I heard you crying are you all right?"

" I don't know anymore." Tears started to swell up in Hitomi's eyes again. She tried to hold them back but they just came at her. She curled up in Allen's lap and cried till her eyes were red and swollen. When she had fallen asleep Allen tried to get up without disturbing her. To his dismay he woke her up. When she looked up at him all he said was "I was going to my room. I'll stay if you want me to."

" No...I'll be fine." Allen stared at Hitomi unsure if she was lying or not. Even though she was and it was obvious Allen got up and left as queitly as he had come.

Now all alone Hitomi felt empty. 'Why do I push away everyone when all they do is want to help?'

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YAY ONE CHAPTER REDID!!!

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