Growing Apart

A/N: This story is dedicated to a friend of mine. She wanted me to write a story for her and for her to be included. This story is just for fun, it's not serious. I am actually a Rose X Dimitri fan but my friend wanted me to write this

story. I hope you enjoy it anyway. If you don't like it don't read. :D

disclaimer: i do not own VA or any characters from that series, richelle mead owns them.

CHAPTER 1: DPOV

It has been nearly a year since I've been changed back from a strigoi. I still get sad from time to time, thinking about what I did. I still haven't entirely forgiven myself and sometimes think that I don't deserve this second chance. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely thankful to both Lissa and Rose. Mainly rose, she was the one that went to Russia to free me from this state and ended up being my personal feeder. I hate what I did to her, she forgave me and used to constantly tell me that she forgave me but I just don't forgive myself and as result of that we have been growing apart. I still love her and always will but things changed when I turned strigoi and back.

Things got harder because of that but Rose still had faith in me. I think our relationship at St Vlads only worked because of the fact that she was a novice and didn't have to do shifts and wasn't busy and we could actually do things together. Not only that but the string of events and my transformation changed my view on life. Things got harder because of that but Rose still had faith in me. In the beginning I was so full of guilt that I refused to talk to Rose or see her. Then we had to go the assignment hide Rose/find missing Dragomir when I realised I was capable of love but by that time I was too late and I had also not fully forgiven myself. Then Rose got shot and almost died. That killed me.

I then truly realised that she had forgiven me and had not just been saying it to make me feel better. We were going good for a couple of months after that then we got busy with work or we were too tired or we were called in for guardian business and we rarely have for ourselves anymore and when we did have time we were too tired. We hardly even talk anymore and that adds to my sadness. I hardly talk to Vasilissa because she is Queen and has children and is always busy. I don't want to burden her with my problems and I'm too proud to go to a therapist. I should but I know I won't.

So here I am, lying in bed waiting for Rose to come home so we can have a well-deserved talk, but how do you tell someone you love that you just don't think that your relationship is working? How do gently break the heart of someone you love? Well – I'm about to find out.

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