Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight

A/N: This is a LeahxJasper pairing. so if you don't like the pairing then don't read this. i think that many characters in The Twilight Saga are diverse enough to be paired with people other than the ones they are paired with in the book. I will probably focus more on Leah Clearwater than any other characters; only because I don't like the fact that she doesn't have her happy ending. And You'll see her in other pairings. But I will also do stories about the other characters in the saga. except for maybe Bella,Edward, Jacob and Nessie. it's not that I don't like them it's just that I read a lot of fanfics about them; so I don't really want to do any.

Please excuse any small grammar errors or misspelling. I was sort of rushed in this

blah I'm rambling sooo okay on with the story! :D

Chapter 1: watching her

I sit here watching her. She doesn't know I'm here. She's too distracted watching Sam dance with his new wife Emily to notice anything or anyone else around. Her pain that surrounds me is so great that it's almost suffocating.

It had been a beautiful ceremony. It was on the beach and the whole Cullen family, including myself was invited. The invitation surprised everyone. It wasn't raining outside, just cloudy like always. All the others guest are having a great time; happiness radiating off them. I wasn't concerned about them though; only one had my undivided attention and that one was Leah.

I watched her throughout the ceremony from my seat in the back. She had been smiling throughout the whole thing. To most people she seemed happy; but I felt her pain. As I watched her, I became confused. I asked myself why would she agree to be the maid of honor if she knew that she would be feeling this way? After the ceremony Leah slipped away from the crowd to sit under a tree. She pulled her knees up to her chest and just stared at the happy couple.

I feel this overwhelming need to reach out to her and make her feel better; without using my ability to manipulate emotions. Just me; with my cold, pale exterior. I want to wrap my arms around her; hold her tight. Tears run down her flawless cheeks as her pain increases. My hands clench in to fists as I try to fight the urge to embrace her.

I don't know when or how I developed these feelings for Leah, I just did. I always watched her without meaning to. Every time she was over at the house I would simultaneously start observing her. I watched the way she moved, how she reacted to certain situations, how her overall mood was. She would sometimes catch me and say "What the hell are you looking at?" putting her hands on her hips while saying it. I would always only just shake my head. She would then huff loudly walking out of the house muttering "stupid bloodsucker." as she left. I would just smirk. Without realizing it; I became attached to her. If I don't see her one day I wonder where she is and what she's doing. I worry that she is injured or in trouble.

I wish that she didn't see me as just a "bloodsucker, Leech" or a murderer. I know that I am not human, but I too have emotions. Emotions that she doesn't see or refuses to recognize. It's frustrating. I've tried to get close to her, to make conversation and try to be at least an acquaintance but it hasn't worked. When I try she only scowls at me then walks away; not bothering to reply to me. Leah is a very stubborn person and given the pain she's been subjected to she's also very closed off. she lets no one close to her. Not even her pack aside from Jacob and her brother. So the chances or someone like myself getting close to her is generally impossible. Though I do understand it.

More tears start to fall and quiet sobs begin to escape her.

I give a small sigh then I brace myself for what I am about to do.

A/N: Originally this was going to be a one-shot but I decided that I would make this in to a story. I don't know how long it will be or how many chapters it'll have. But I am defiantly making this in to a story. so just consider this small chapter as chapter one :) The story will be switching from Jasper's and Leah's POV. I might even do some other POVs Ahhhh well I hope this turns out good :3