SUMMANARY: Tomoyo and Eriol work at this big corporation in England and are both big executives in it, although there young (Tomoyo 25 and Eriol 26)

SUMMANARY: Tomoyo and Eriol work at this big corporation in England and are both big executives in it, although there young (Tomoyo 25 and Eriol 26). Tomoyo started working there a few months ago, but Eriol has been there almost a year, so you can imagine her surprise when she met the man that she secretly loved when she was very young, same thing for him. But now things where different, not just for her but for him as well, especially for him, so these feelings that began to revive in both hearts were staring to torment them other then rejoice them.

Let it be said that I don't own Cardcaptors or any of its caracters, they All belong to Clamp so don't try to sue me.

Oh and please be nice to me cause this is my first fanfic. And of course R+R.

".." Dialoges '..' Thoughts

CHAPTER 1:

He was sitting there, in front of her, not saying anything. Just there staring.

"What?" she said in a joke.

"Ooh nothing" he said back.

"We can go now, you know? I've already finished everything" she said while taking her bag and pulling out the keys of her office.

He did that often, just go in her office and watch her work in silence. She continued doing what ever she was supposed to do, not wanting to start a conversation that she knew wouldn't let to a good path. She dropped things, stumble, and forgot what she was doing when ever he was there; he made her so nervous, and yet he was always so calm.

"Aren't you going to turn off the computer first?" he said still sitting down on the chair that faced her desk, and without changing the calm expression on his face. He knew she was nervous, and he loved the way she manage to convince her self that she was acting so normally.

"Yeah I forgot..." 'stupid, stupid Tomoyo' she said facing back the computer and turning it off.

"Tomoyo"

"Yeah?"

"Tomoyo you know that we need to talk about what we..." he started saying in a calm voice when he was abruptly cut of by her. "Umm you shouldn't be here, and you know that?" she said pulling enough courage to bring the subject that she's been avoiding for a long time now; but yet not enough courage to face him cause her pale face was so flushed and she didn't want him to notice.

"why not?" he said not taking his eyes off of her "and... why aren't you looking at me" he added, his voice still calm.

'God he noticed the blush, I know he did' "Um... you know why not" she said quickly "what you're doing is not right, and...and...I don't know why I'm not looking at you, I...I don't want to, that's all...God" she said this last things rapidly, with fury, like trying to find a way to turn out the attention from the first question.

"Ooh I see" he answered still calmly. "what IM doing, not us, me alone...right?" still focusing in the answer of his first question.

"Yeah...you..." she said this almost trying to convince her self with her own words.

"We should go... you got the key to the front door, cause I forgot mine?". She was so used to having him there when she was leaving every day, that she was lately forgetting to bring her own keys. They were, almost every day, the last ones to leave the company, so they had to close the front door, not that the security guy couldn't do it, but they preferred to be sure the it was done personally.

He walked her to her car each day, not saying much; their conversation was cut off in two when she told him one day not to talk about each others feelings anymore, she knew that nothing good was coming out of those conversations cause nothing could happen, nothing should happen, and she promised her self that nothing was going to happen.

"Yeah, I always do" he said this time pulling him self up from the chair, and taking his keys out of his left pocket.

She was at the back of her office so she had to go through it to get out 'now it's a good time cause his facing back and I don't have to see his face...oh God , how much do I want to see his face, how much do I want to look in those blue eyes, No, no I cant, girl get a grip Nothing can happen, ok, nothing'. She was struggling with her thoughts while she was making her way out off her working place, the place where she met him again, the place where she rediscovered the feelings she thought lost, the place were she found out of his feelings as well.

FLASH BACK

"Eriol we are never going to get this job done by Friday, its impossible" she said putting the paper she was reading down. "I'm tired...for God sakes, its 1 am and we haven't even finished half of the budget planning...and I'm not going to even talk about the taxes" She said now closing her eyes and massaging her head while she played with her hair.

He was analyzing some data in his computer when she started talking, so he stopped to look at what she was doing 'God do you even know what your doing to me Tomoyo, why do you have to play like that with your hair, why do you have to bite your lower lip like that, why do you have to smell so nice, why do you have to be so perfect, damn it!?' he thought. 'God things were so simple before you came back in my life, but know...'

"What?"

"um?" he said coming back from his state

"I'm been serious, don't stare at me like that"

"No, sorry I was just thinking of something else"

"Ooh, so you didn't hear a thing I said about section 7 of the report"

"um... no...sorry" he said this taking of his glasses and massaging his now closed eyes

'Oh God here we go again and the whole look at me I'm such a handsome model thing, does he even now how sexy he looks when he takes the glasses of, yeah I bet he does it to push my buttons' Now she was the one staring at him.

Then he looked back and their gaze met. They stayed like that for a few minutes, seemed like hours in their minds. Then she looked down, she was all flushed, not knowing what to do or say.

"Tomoyo"

"um?"

"why does destiny play this games with me?"

"What do u mean?"

"Why cant I ever get what I want, when I know it wants me back?"

"I don't seem to be getting what you're saying Eriol" But she did, she knew exactly what he was talking about: her.

"Why do I always have to have these barriers that keep me from what I want, that keep me from being happy, truly happy?"

"I thought you were happy"

"I did too. Part of me is, you know, when I come home and I look at them sleeping in there beds, like angels, that's happiness...but not entirely cause it still isn't ..."

She started to get nervous. How could they be having that conversation? No, this wasn't good, not at all. She couldn't, he couldn't, it wasn't right.

"um...we're tired we should go home and get some rest" she said picking up her thing and tossing them on her bag, then quickly standing up.

He then stood up and quickly grabbed her arm turning her around and making her face him.

"ask me"

"what?"

"ask me what I want"

"Eriol...you know that I cant...I.."

"Ask me" he said this time in a more commanding voice, yet not loosing its gentleness.

"What do you want Eriol?"

"You"

END OF FLASH BACK

'Oh God why do I have to feel this, I wish I could throw it all away, tell him what I fell, that I don't care about everything else, that I give a damn about his WIFE AND KIDS... GOD TOMOYO what are you saying you're out off your mind' She was so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even see him standing in front of her... then she did...she gasped

"Eriol..." she said now not daring to look back at the eyes she met an instant before, eyes that where staring at her with such passion.

"Don't , ok, don't...don't tell me that this is wrong, or that you don't want this as much as I do, cause I wont believe you this time" he said stepping closer to her.

She stepped back but he grabbed her from the wrist.

"Eriol don't... you know we cant do this... you know we shouldn't, you know this is wrong"

"Do you notice that every time you say that, you always tell me that we cant do this cause it's wrong, or cause it shouldn't be, but never cause YOU, and only You, don't WANT this to happen, why is that?" he said this last thing with a much deeper voice, almost whispering, almost seducing her with the escaping of the sounds.

This time she met his gaze, she saw it in his eyes, his desire, his need for her, his love.

"Don't make me answer that. please" she said almost pleading, then facing back down.

He grabbed her chin making her face him back again and pulling him self closer to her, their lips almost touching, a whisper away, closer, and closer...then she stepped back

"No, please...we cant"

"Why are you fighting this...its just...a kiss"

With his last words almost inaudible he closed the space between their lips, caressing her mouth with his, tasting it so slowly like it was a forbidding fruit that he could only eat once.

'Oh God this feels so right, why does it have to be so wrong?' then she felt his tongue gently sliding it self between her lips, inviting her to open her mouth and let it explore further more, deepening the kiss...

As she was about to let her defenses down and give her self to the moment she realized what was happening, she broke apart rapidly, but he grabbed her one more time.

"No. just one kiss...please" he said that in a plea...

And he kissed her again, this time with more fury then before.

But she cut it off, she stepped away quickly.

He hadn't well awaken of the moment and she was already stepping out of the office not daring to look back.

"Please look at me" he said almost yelling waking him self of the trance

"No... I cant" she said making her pace faster. She knew that if she did look back at those eyes she would just throw her self back in his arms.

She was running now, she had to leave, she didn't face back, she couldn't, but she knew it was him calling her name.

'God why do you put such tests on me, I thought I wasn't that bad of a person, I'm good, I go to church; so why cant I fall in love with a normal guy, one without a wife, one without kids, one simple guy. Nooo...ooh no... but of course not, cause everything has to be like this for me, everyone I love must be unobtainable, unreachable, and this one...Oh this one...this one it's the worst, and it gets even more complicated cause he wants to reach back... but... you know I cant let him, please don't make me let him, please take him out of my mind' she thought to her self as she drove home.

Well I guess that's it for now... hope you review and give me some ideas. I know its kind of strange (the fic I mean) but its suppose to be that way... Well anyway... bye...

Ohh sorry if you see any mistakes, English is not my native language, so don't be shy and correct me.

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