Carlisle Pov

There is no life without her.

She was my everything.

My whole world.

She would always have a special place in my heart.

No one could ever replace my Esme.

She had a breathtaking smile that would stop anyone heart, she had a laugh that was music to your ears, and her love was like no ever.

She was the greatest women that ever walk this planet.

Kept, she gone now.

If I only gotten to her sooner or never left her side, I could of saved her and she would of been alive right now.

"Dad.." Edward sighed. "She wasn't as strong as the others and she knew it too."

A deep growl rumble through my chest. "Are you calling my wife weak?"

"Of coarse not." Edward shook his head. "Aro had made up his mind on who he was going to take out first from the Cullen Clan. Even if you did make it in time, it could of been you that was killed instead of mom and Esme wouldn't be able to go on without you by her side."

"I've lived in this world for too long." I exhaled.

"Carlisle.."

"I would die over and over and over again to keep her safe. It would of been best if it had been me instead."

I glance down at my wife ashes. Her wedding ring remarkably didn't burn along with the rest of her and it now glitter upon the light like millions of diamonds sparkling in the sky.

I can still remember the day I bought Esme her ring. I made sure that I found the biggest diamond out there, I even traveled to Paris to get it, and Esme spent hours fussing over how I spoil her way too much. However though, she did not complain too long when she notice what I got engraved in both of our rings.

Cara mia per sempre.

This cannot be how it ends. I waited centuries to find Esme and I was not prepared to spend centuries more without her. I can't say goodbye now, not to my precious Esme, the one that I will not live without.

Edward set a gentle hand on my shoulder. "Come dad, let's go home. We'll bury her ashes when your more ready for it."

"I can't." I choke, picking up her wedding ring. "I can't leave her."

"I'm sorry Carlisle. I am so sorry. She lived a good life."

"She died trying to save your wife." I spat dryly.

It happen all too quick.

Alice was being pin down by Felix while Aro shoved Bella miles away, causing her shield to come off of Alice who she was trying to protect at the time. I told Esme I would be right back and ran over to save my daughter, thinking Esme would probably follow.

However, she didn't..

Bella wasn't done with Aro and went back for seconds. After defeating her off of him again, Aro let Demetri hold Bella down while Esme ran to the recuse. My women was strong and tackled Aro for a few minutes before he had his grungy hands on her sweet beautiful neck.

"Sorry old friend." Aro smirk.

"I love you Carlisle.." Esme whisper. "I love you.."

I roared. "NO!"

I ran as fast as I could, but I was too late. All I was able to do was mutter a quiet "I love you" to my wife before Aro ripped her fragile head off and set her body on burning flames. I drop to my knees and cried out loud.

She was gone. Forever.

I wish Aro had finish me off there, kept he didn't he instead just watch me quiver in pain right there on the snow.

Life is hell..

I could feel my family waiting for me to join them. I stood up, blew a kiss to my lovely, and slid her ring in my pocket for safe keeping. It was quiet on our way home. Every so often I would get a "I am so sorry for your lost" or "She was great mother, she will be miss dearly."

I just ignored it all and quickly went straight to my office to lock myself in there for the rest of the night maybe even a year.

The house felt so empty without Esme.

She spent so much time designing and decorating to make this place home for us, it was almost unbearable to be here. I was already missing walking in to see her fixing crooked picture frames or out in her garden which look as dead as Esme right now. Esme never had time to garden anymore with Renesmee around.. her favorite flowers were colorful tulips.

I plop down at my desk, remembering how Esme would always come in and interrupt my studies to sit on my lap and watch me work. I could visualize how embarrass she would be, biting that bottom lip of hers and acting so shy, even though I loved it when she interrupt me for some cuddling time.

I began to sob dry less tears at the thought of it.

"My sweet Esme, please come back to me.."

Alice Pov

We said our farewells to our friends before waving to them goodbye and stepping back inside.

The fight for Renesmee ended with a few loses, my self even lost someone special to me. Life could never be the same without Jasper, however he would of wanted me to carry on which is what I'm planning to do step by step. For him..

Edward patted my back. "We're always here for you."

"Thank you." I forced a smile.

It was when we enter the living room that we could more clearly hear the sobs of Carlisle from his office. I can't imagine what he must be going through right about now. Esme gave Carlisle every reason to keep living as if she reminded him that the world wasn't so bad after all. I knew he must be devasted right now and I prayed that he could someday move on and possibly find someone else.

"I wouldn't count on that Alice." Edward rub his head. "He planning to live a lonely life everyday until he can somehow get Esme back."

"What are we going to do?" Rose ask.

"We have to be there for him. Make sure he knows we love and support him, and that we're always there for him." I chirp up.

Emmett placed a hand on my back. "Alice we know your hurting too, it's okay to grieve also. Take as much time as you need. You just lost Jasper."

"I know." I wince. "But he would of wanted me to be stronger than that and that's what I plan on doing for not only him.. for us too."

"That's a good way to think of it." Bella grinned.

I was about to say more when my thoughts were interrupted by a loud vision.

He had been sobbing for days now.

Losing her was too tough.

He could not handle it anymore, seeing her ashes laid in the ground got to be too much for him. He wrote a short letter explaining to his children his love for them and apologizes that it had come to this. He quickly pack a few things and drove to the airport.

"I'll be there soon my love." He whispers as the plane leaves.

He spends the next hours just gazing in his window at the blue sky, taking it all in before his time here on earth comes to an end.

The Volturi were pleased to see Carlisle as always and welcome him with open arms. Carlisle beg Aro on his hands and knees to take him too that his life was already over without her.

"Well.." Aro beam. "If that's what you really want old friend."

This is what Aro has been waiting a lifetime for.. destroying the leader of the Cullen Clan

Two guards held Carlisle down to his knees and push his arms back as if they were afraid he would change his mind and make a run for it.

But Carlisle didn't..

Aro place his hands on his neck. "Any last words dear Carlisle?"

"I'm coming sweetheart." Carlisle swallowed hard. "Wait for me."

And then all it took was one snap and that had ended everything..

Bella Pov

"Carlisle going to the Volturi to have himself killed!" Alice gasp.

Everyone glance around each other in room with terror in their eyes. It's bad enough we already lost Esme, we couldn't lose Carlisle our leader too! What would we do without him?

In truth, I felt nothing but terrible over what happen with Esme. If I wasn't so stupid and didn't try fighting Aro alone, Esme wouldn't of jump in to help. It all happen so fast it seem like. I've never seen Esme so animalistic before, the way she snarled at Aro and held him to the ground. She was so brave.. however Aro was stronger than Esme and it didn't take long for him to eliminate the Cullen's mother.

The pain that had showered over Carlisle face when I turn around was something I could never get out of my head..

"So.." Rosalie said. "What are we going to do then?"

"I'm not sure." Edward choke out.

My body began to shake. "I'm so sorry guys. If only I stuck to the plan better or.."

"Bella.." Emmett stop me. "It's not your fault. Esme had put her self in a very stick situation. She knew that she couldn't fight Aro off."

"It's my fault." Edward spoke again.

Alice embrace her brother tightly. "Don't blame your self either, it's no one fault."

"I could hear her thoughts a mile away!" He cried out. "I could of lost Bella and she couldn't handle losing me again so she put her self in danger so nothing bad would happen to Bella. She did it for me!"

No one said a word afterwards. Reality started to sink in and it all started to make sense now. Esme knew if something happen to me, Edward would immediately without thinking have himself killed and Esme loved her son too much to see him go like that.

Edward sighed. "In the moment, she couldn't turn her attention to how Carlisle would react because she was so worried about Bella that her first reaction was to attack."

"We're in some deep trouble." Emmett breathed.

Indeed we are..