If love could be easy

I don't own gossip girl or any of the GG characters

(This takes place after season 4 but Blair doesn't get married to the prince and does not end up getting back with chuck either. Instead she starts seeing Dan, but it doesn't last long. It's a story of them being together and away from each other. It's more angst-ridden than romantic. The story will have all the other characters as well, with Serena playing an important role. )

Blair Waldorf couldn't believe that after everything that had happened, she was here of all the places in the world. She could have gone anywhere tonight as she wanted to hide from the world and she knew this was the right place. She had to be here tonight, she needed it but does she need him?

She had to do this, although she doesn't know why and even if she did, it would be against Blair waldorf's nature to accept it, after all she is and will always be the queen of denial!

That very second, someone breaks her chain of thought and she looks up to see "Dan Humphrey" holding two cups of coffee in his hands. He hands one to her and sits down on the other end of the sofa. She realizes that he's very consciously trying to maintain the distance between them. She almost chuckles at that thought, because she knows that deep down he just wants to close all the distance between them and kiss her. But he would never do that, well because he's Dan Humphrey and not Chuck Bass.

He sits there in silence, not really silence if you count the ummms and the hmmms he does; it's like he's fighting himself to say the right words to her. He is at the same time trying really hard to unravel why she is here out of all the places in the world, 3 days before her wedding and ring-less. He wants to ask her so much, like "why's she here" to begin with and "did she end her engagement" and "Why did she do it" and "why didn't she go back to chuck and most importantly, why is she here with him?"

It's almost as if Blair can read him and figure out all the questions he wants to ask her. But Blair Waldorf doesn't answer to anybody and she certainly is not going to answer Dan Humphrey's questions. So she tells him "thanks for the coffee Humphrey and don't bother asking me anything, coz I'm not going to answer any of them right now".

Dan is taken aback because at that moment he realizes his face must have been giving everything away. He wonders for a minute whether with all the puzzles in his head, his facial expressions looked liked Nate's when Nate is confused (or natefused) and he smiles at that thought. But he realizes that Blair waldorf is staring at him with her big somehow empty doe eyes. She must really be convinced that he's gone bonkers, Coz she's been here for an hour and he hasn't been able to go beyond hmmms and ummms and then the "NATE" look and now he was smiling, Wow, that's so not like him. He never remembers a time when he fell short of words and well right now he'd been acting like a mute. So he musters up his spirits and asks her if she'd like some more coffee.

She hands him her cup for a refill, he refills it and hands it back to her and then they begin talking. They don't touch a subject that would make either of them uncomfortable. They don't discuss Blair's broken engagement or chuck and they don't bring up Dan's bestseller "Inside" (which unfortunately has thrown him more on the outs with his friends and family than he could have imagined). And most of all they don't discuss why she is here; they don't discuss Dan and Blair because those two words should never be uttered together in a sentence.

They instead watch all of Blair's favorite movies like "the nights of cabria" followed by "breakfast at tiffany's". So in exchange they order Dan's favorite pizza for dinner. They agree it's fair to do so and as Dan reminds her, he's her friend and peer and not her underling. So they have to compromise and adjust. But the truth is both of them don't mind the pizza or the movies, but then not battering with each other would not feel normal for them.

After 2 hours past midnight, Dan realizes that Blair has in fact dozed off on his shoulder; after they had finished watching "gone with the wind". He picks her up and takes her to his bedroom. He places her gently on his bed and covers her with a blanket. As he turns to leave the room, Blair catches his hand from behind and tells him, "just needed a friend Humphrey! Please be that for me! I need u!"

Dan sits down on the bed, lowers his face down and whispers to her, "don't worry waldorf, and am here for you." Blair looks up at him and smiles and she knows she made the right decision to be here today. With Dan, she doesn't have to answer the myriad questions that will be thrown at her tomorrow, by her mother, her father, Cyrus, Serena and Chuck. And Louis, what will she tell him? How will she tell him? She doesn't want to think of that, not now, it's too painful, because Blair knows what she had done but she didn't want to accept it just yet as she needs time.

She likes being here with him, she just feels light when she's around him; she feels both like a girl and a woman. She feels alive, he feels 20 again (She is 20, but she feels so old otherwise) and he's a good friend, he cares for her or maybe even more and what does she feel? No she can't think of any of those things now, it's not the time. She will fight it because right now she wants to sleep and she clutches his hand more tightly as she feels safe, cared for and protected and she likes it. She drifts off to sleep with a silent smile on her face.

Dan sits by Blair, but he doesn't know for how long, just watching her sleep; but when he starts to get uncomfortable sitting on the bed because his hand is clutched tightly between hers, he realizes he can't watch her anymore. He doesn't want to create any more complications in Blair's life. She wants him as a friend and he'll be there for her as one. He won't think about anything more, he tells himself. he can't think about how mesmerizingly beautiful she was, how her eyes, were the mirror into her soul at times and sometimes they would just shut down such that nobody could trace anything in them. How much he wanted to kiss her in that moment and how much he wanted her. These thoughts shuddered Dan and he hastily shook off his hands from her grasp and bolted out of the door!