I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more (so much more)
Sitting on her bathroom floor, Serena was trying to cut away the pain. She cried out in anger for every slash. Anger at her friends, her family, and the other people in her life.
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
"How could they do this to me?" Serena cried. "I thought they loved me, but they just hurt me. Why did I even trust them?" Another slash. "Why… why…"
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
I thought they cared, Serena thought. But where are they? They left me there, all alone. She cut herself many more times. She felt more relieved with each cut. The anger was leaving her, for now. After cleaning up, she left for the comfort of her own room.
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Serena cried herself to sleep saying over an over, "They left me. I don't need them."
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
She woke up the next morning and walked to school. To anyone else the day would be a very beautiful day, but Serena just saw the gloom, the darkness. There was no light, not any more. Up ahead on the corner were her 'friends'.
Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Serena walked past them, just ignoring them. They ran up to her trying to apologize, but to Serena, the damage was already done. "Just leave me alone," she screamed.
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
Her friends continued to follow her, trying to apologize, begging for forgiveness. Part of Serena felt touched by them, but the rest of her pushed that thought back. They left me there alone. There's NO excuse for that. At that she ran back home.
I'm dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
She picked up the knife and began cutting herself again. Soon, all the wounds from yesterday and the new ones of today were all open, blood spilling all over the floor.
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
Suddenly, the door burst open and all her friends and family came in. Serena sobbed in pain and anger. Raye came tried to take the knife from her but Serena held on tight. She saw the look in Serena's eyes and cried, "Serena stop this! We need you."
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide
Serena shook her head and immediately stabbed the knife through her heart. Everyone screamed in horror. Darien came over and hugged her tightly. As Serena's eyes began to close she whispered, "I'll wait on the other side." Everyone started sobbing at the loss of their daughter, girlfriend, or best friend, Serena.