Chapter One

Dreams of Memories

Naruto's P.O.V.

In the small dark room I layed their in the bed thinking about what will tomorrow bring for me. Just another day of silence and maybe a visit from Kakashi-sensei.
He comes every couple of weeks to visit, but when he comes I feel I'm alone. No one with me, no one to care.

"Naruto...are you awake it's time for your medication." the nurse walked in a pulled out a pill with some water.

She handed me the medicine and I put it in my mouth slowly drinking the water. I gave her back the cup and layed there in silence. She looked down at me as I looked out the bared window. I looked of concern came to her eyes as she walked out of the door.

I don't know when the last time it was when I had spoken to anybody. I wasn't that I didn't want to speak to people, it's that I didn't see a need to speak to people not even to myself. People didn't need to know what I had to say, or I didn't really want to say, they wouldn't care anyways. I had been tortured all my life by people that hate me. I never felt I should tell people of my troubles not even the people closest to me which was only Kakashi-sensei, Iruka-sensei, and Tsunade. But I didn't need to tell them, even though they were the closest people to me they would never understand or care like I want them to. So I would be alone for the rest of my life not knowing what it felt like to be cared for or even ...loved. Still staring out the window I fall into sleep filled with terrible memories.

Flashback

"NO LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed as the angry men tied me up. I looked at them with shock and scared eyes.

"Your going to pay for all the trouble you cause demon!" One of the men screamed at me as they kicked me in the stomach leaving me gasping for air.

The three men came closer and slowly started ripping my clothes leaving slashes down my chest. They had injected me with something while tying me up so that Kyuubi couldn't heal me for some time. I felt weak and scared as they ripped my pants.

"No please don't do this!" I pleaded as they began now ripping at my boxers.

They paid no attention to my pleas but gave a small laugh at me. Right then I knew no one was coming to save me, I was alone.

End of Flashback

I woke up panting and in a cold sweat. I looked down to make sure I was still dressed. It was only a dream, but no it was not just a dream it was memory of my terrible past. It had been three years since it happened but I was only twelve and now I'm fifteen and still not over it. I don't know if I'll ever be over it or even forget. How I wish i could forget about it, never remember again. But I can't seem to forget, that's how I ended up in here. After it happened I wouldn't say anything to anyone no one knew what had happened to me. I was left alone for a while but that was until I kept trying to kill myself, I had wanted the emotional pain to stop hurting me. Then everyone thought i was 'unstable' so I was put in the Mental Institution so I could be watched and not kill myself. Of course I never improved I tried to hurt myself every chance I got and still refused to speak to anyone. So I had to stay there until I improved and stopped trying to kill myself, but that day never came so I've been in here for three long silent years.

My friends would visit me every couple of months but it was no big deal i didn't really expect them to want to come visit me. Sasuke would always visit with Kakashi-sensei every couple of weeks to see what kind of condition I was in. But it always stayed the same nothing ever changed.

It was getting to be late in the afternoon and the nurse came and brought me dinner. I barely ate and lost a lot of pounds from it too. But I did eat some not that it really mattered, I wasn't really hungry I didn't feel a need to eat, there was no point to it. I wanted to die but I was forced to eat some so I never complained. But no matter what happened I would end it all some day. I would end the suffering and pain I had every time I would fall asleep and my memories would return.