Hey everyone.

I am a HUGE death note fan so i decided to write a fanfiction.

It's just a random thing that popped into my head... hope you enjoy it... read and review.x.

Rated T for swearing and curses (not that its a scary curse but just in case).

pairings: L/RyuuzakiXOC, ryuk/OC (friendship), LightXMisa

Please enjoy.

OC = Kaana/K

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Btw... in this fic... Ryuk is with L and his team and they can all see him... Rem is with misa... Wataru and L/Ryuuzaki are alive... and light has his memories.

Kaana's pov

I was sick and tired of this curse. I never really understood it. Why do humans need emotions anyway? I never had them... and that is why i am stuck in this mess. Who would've thought that my best friend would end up putting a curse on me. I am now cursed to stay 21 years old, forever, well... not forever but until I master all emotions. I know, sounds great right? WRONG! It is not fun being accused of being a witch or a demon everywhere you go just because you dont age. It's horrible. I am never ever going to understand emotions. I really dont have them. Never have. I never cried as a baby. Never argued as a teeneger. Never moaned or got stressed as I grew older. Nothing. I never saw a use for the stupid things. Obviously someone didnt agree. Now I am forced to have them... even if I dont want them. Unless I start to get some feeling, some emotions, then I will never age and never die. Its rediculous. All of the emotions I have witnessed so far have been horrible. Have caused trouble or have caused pain. They are weaknesses. They are not needed. Maybe most people do need them, but I DONT. I dont want them, dont need them, dont like them. Why should I be forced to have them? I heared a faint crying as I was walking through the woods, after escaping another town that believed me to be a witch. It inturupted my thoughts. I followed the sound until I came to a small clearing in the woods. In the middle of the clearing was a little woven basked, inside was a tiny little baby wrapped in a fluffy blue blanket with a note lying on top. The note read:

Dear reader,

This baby is 3 months old. His name is Lawliet. Please take very special care of him as I am dying and have no living relatives to leave him to. I am praying with my entire heart and soul that this dear boy lives to be a great man, with a great family, and that you, dear reader, will give him a good home with either someone you trust entirely or yourself. I am crying, even as a write this, at the thought of leaving my dear baby Lawliet without a mother to care for him. I can only hope that he will recieve all the love and care he deserves. Please, I leave him in your care. Do your best and Thank you.

Sincerely,

Lawliets' Mother.

I read it twice and then finally looked at the little baby. He was staring at me with wide curious eyes. I gave up a small smile and scooped the little boy into my arms. I carried him with me for a month... until we finally reached my destination. I walked up to the large house and knocked on the door. The door swung open and there stood a strange man playing with a new video-camera. I raised one eyebrow and cocked my head to the side staring at him. He lowered the camera and stared at me with a huge grin covering his face. His smile was so big, I swear, it should hurt his cheeks. I chuckled slightly at him.

"Is that a baby?"

"Oh, Uncle Andrew, I see you are as observent as ever. His name is Lawliet and he is now 4 months old. He needs a home. Can you look after him?"

"Can't you?"

"My life is not for a child. He is so small and delicate... he deserves better than me. Having to move around all the time, having to run away from crazy towns people who are calling you a witch. Its not fair on him."

"Its not fair on you either, but... point taken. I will look after him. I will take him to the whammy house. He will be a smart one this one. You can just tell, can't you. Anyway, come on in."

He ushered me inside, still playing with his new camera. I sighed and had to smile at him. I passed the little baby to him and went to leave.

"Oh no you dont. I will look after this baby on one condition. You will stay until he reaches 1 year."

I tried to protest but it was useless. Andrew was so stubborn. In the end I stayed. I looked after him and played with him until his first birthday. We were playing with his toys as it started to get dark. I looked at the little baby in front of me and allowed a single tear to escape. As it ran slowly down my face I scooped the boy into my arms for the last time. I carried him into his bedroom with Uncle Andrew following close behind. I placed the baby in his cot and gave him a soft kill to the forehead. I turned to leave but was stopped by a tiny little voice that I had never heard before.

"Ka-na. Ka-na. Kaaaaa-na. Ka-na. Kaana."

Lawliets first word. I couldn't help myself anymore. I let a flood of tears freely flow down my face, but I couldn't stay. I had to leave. I would just cause trouble again. Like I always to. Lawliet was crying as I left the room. He must of known something was wrong. Even as a baby he is already too smart. I gave my Uncle a fleeting hug, noticing that he was filming... again. He had been filming almost everything since the day I showed up. He really loved his camera. After saying my goodbye's I ran from the house as fast as my legs could carry me, but I could go far enough. For days I heared nothing but the crying and screaming of Lawliet as I left. See... this proves my point. Emotions suck.

22 years later

I travelled around aimlessly for 22 years. Never changing. Never dying. Nothing. It was boring and tiring. I wanted to go to my uncle. I wanted to go and see how Lawliet was doing. How grown up and how handsome and how smart he is. I missed them. I found my self in Japan working on the Kira case. I found it very interesting, and sure, I had never worked as a detective before but I had a feeling it would be fun. I travelled around until I found a top security builing which was trying to blend in. I figured it was L's head quarters so I went in. It was obvious that Uncle Andrew had designed the place because it was super-easy for me to get in. I walked into a main room to see a few cops, a teenager, and a detective, who was huddled up eating strawberry cake. I smiled. The detective turned around to face me in the swivelly chair he was sitting in. I gasped. L was Lawliet. I remembered to call Andrew, Watari, since that is his codename and I am certain that if lawliet needed his codename, so did Andrew. I stared at him, how could I not. I had not seen him since he was a baby. By the time I snapped out of it all the cops were surrounding me pointing guns at me and L was stood directly in front of me. I looked into his eyes with a blank stare which he returned easily. He looked at me until I sighed... Just because I had forever doesn't mean I like to waste time.

"I think the words you're looking for are 'lock her up'."

L tilted his head to the side slightly before saying...

"You heared the lady."

... and going back to his seat. I was handcuffed and locked in a room. There was a video camera, a microphone and a bed behind me but nothing else. I sighed again. How boring. I stared at the camera.

"Speak to me then... I am getting bored." I demanded.

"Who are you?"

Urggh... this was going to be a long day.

L/Lawliet/Ryuuzaki's pov

"Who are you?" I asked. I voiced my thoughts to the other team members. I felt as if I knew her. I felt as if she could be trusted. I just know that I have seen her before. I told the others this and they started questioning me with plenty of questions that I coould not answer so I ignored them. After a few seconds they all fell silent. I stared at the screen, biting my thumb and sitting in my strange position.

"I go by K" came the answer. I demanded that she tell me her real name but was answered by...

"I'll tell you mine if you tell me yours."

"My name is Ryuuzaki." She smiled at my answer. I was confused.

"Liar. Ryuuzaki isn't your name. Good kid, dont let anyone know your name. I would hate to see you go."

I was so confused. I turned around just in time to see Watari and Ryuk come in. Watari looked at the screen and dropped the plate he was carrying. It smashed loudly and he shouted.

"RYUUZAKI! WHAT ON EARTH ARE YOU DOING?" Before grabbing the keys and running down to the cell where the new girl was locked up.

Kaana's pov

I smiled as I heared the keys rattling in the door. I looked up an saw Watari coming towards me. He unlocked my handcuffes and as soon as I was free I hugged him as if my life depended on it.

"Uncle Watari !" I shreiked in his ear. He flinched slightly at my loud voice before taking my hand and leading back up to the main room. I looked at everyone staring strangely at me. I watched as L frowned walk over to me and... poked my cheek.

"He still does that?" I questioned Watari. He just smiled and nodded.

"I know you from somewhere. Where have I met you before?" I was shocked by that comment.

"Y-you... remember me?" I frowned. It was 22 years ago the last time I saw him. How could he remember. I looked to Watari but he looked just a shocked as me.

"Yes I do. so, who are you?"

"Like I said... I am k" Watari smiled, kissed my head and said 'thats my girl' into my ear. The others had obviously heared and were watching the three of us, confused. L took a few steps back and sat on the sofa in the funny way that I do. I always sit like that. I guess in that one year with him he may have picked up more that I realised from me. He was anylising me. Seeing if I could be trusted. I looked around the room to find one person I really never wanted to lay eyes on again. My eyes widened in shock and as Watari realised who I had seen he clutched my arms.

"Calm down, k. Calm down. Stay calm." His words barely reached my ears. I fets angry tears form in my eyes as I desperately tried to escape from Watari's strong hold.

"RYUK!" I screamed. Everyone, even L, where looking between me and Ryuk, who for once in his life wasn't smiling.

"YOU EVIL BASTERED GET OVER HERE NOW!" I watched angrily as he followed my orders, to everyone's shock.

"Hi, K. Long time no see."

"DONT GIVE ME THAT! WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO? WHY ARE YOU BACK HERE?" I froze. Understanding hitting me suddenly.

"No, Ryuk. Tell me you didnt. You promised. You promised that you would never drop another death note. You promised me."

"I'm sorry, k, I-"

"Shut up. You're not sorry. You're you. You're never sorry."

Watari let me go and I went and sat on the sofa opposite L but, strangely, in the exact same position. Ryuk let out a small laugh.

"Still have all those strange habits of yours then? I kinda missed them. Although it seems as if this kid has inherited some of them."

"He didn't inherit anything. He picked it up when he was ittle. How old is he now anyway... 23? Thats 2 years older than me."

"Ahh, so you haven't broken the curse? Thats too bad." I felt a single tear stream down my face. I didnt want to cry. My eyes, my tears, were betraying me.

"No no no no dont do that. K, I said dont do that. Please dont cry. I am sorry. Truly I am. I didn't mean to do this to you.. It wasn't my fault, please... forgive me?"

I looked up at him and saw to my surprise, along with everone elses, that he was in his human form. Shinigame have human forms which they switch to when displaying true human emotions. The only other time I have seen him in his human form is when he put the curse on me in the first place.

"Tell me, Ryuk. Tell me who Kira is. Please. For your best friend?"

"How 'bout i give you an apple instead... You know I cant say."

"Yeah, I know. But no thanks to the apple you can have one." I said picking one out of the there in the silence for a while until I got bored. I asked Uncle Watari for some stawberry cake and he was back about 2 seconds later placing the cake in front of me. I smiled and sat there eating. Everone was staring at me, except for Ryuuzaki. He was staring at my cake.

"Ryuuzaki? Do you want to try my cake? It's just you have been staring at it for so long I thought you might like a bit." I said smiling sweetly. He took a small chunk of the cake smiling as he started eating. I finished my slice and said..

"So... can we get on with the case?" I hadn't yet moved and Ryuuzaki had a handfuff around one of my wrists and the other around his. He explained that since I knew the shinigami, I was a suspenct and must be monitered by him 24/7 by staying handcuffed to him.

"Kinky." I replied which made Ryuuzaki's cheeks turn and pinkish-red colour and everyone else give a small chuckle. Watari hit my arm gently and told me off for being silly. I sighed... again.

"You mentioned something about a curse? Care to share?" Light was speaking. I glared at him, as did Watari.

"When I was born, I had no emotions. As I was growing up, I never gained any, they seemed useless to me. However, to the god's, they were important. Me, without emotions, was making me non-human. They didnt like it."

"So they ordered me, here best friend, to put a curse on her. She will not age and will not die until she had experienced and gained every single human emotion." Ryuk finished for me.

"She is doing well so far. She has gained many. For example... She gained betrayal... the moment I put the curse on her. She gained compassion, when she rescued an infant who by the way is in this very room. She experienced family, while staying with the child and her uncle, but she hasn't gained it yet, to gain it she needs a family of her own; a husband, kids, etc. She gained loss, when she had to leave her family, meaning her uncle and his 'kids'. She gained hatred and fear, from all the people who chased her out of town, accusing her of being a witch or a demon. She gained-"

"RYUK STOP IT. THAT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH" I heared Watari shout. He had never shouted like that before... not in front of me anyway. I decided to stay silent, staring out of the window absentmindedly, like I had been through Ryuks little speech.

Suddenly eveyone started to talk at once until Ryuuzaki told them to shut up.

"Who was the infant?" Ryuzaki asked.

"I am going to make a very strong coffee with lots of sugar." I said before skillfully removing the handcuffs and running out of the room.

Ryuuzaki's pov

I watched as she rushed from the room. I heared Watari sigh... he was obviously very worried for her. I turned to Watari and he just beckoned me towards the tv. He put a video in the player and we all crowded around the television as the video started to play. It started with the Watari... a much younger Watari... answering the door to K. K looked exactly the same as she does now, so the curse is obviously real. I frowned as I watched. I first words she says are...

"Oh, Uncle -, I see you are as observent as ever. His name is - and he is now 4 months old. He needs a home. Can you look after him?"

The conversation went on to explain about K's terrible life, Well a very breif explanation. It also shown that K had won, and that the baby was going to stay with Watari if K stayed for a year. Just as the scene was changing Watari paused the tape. We all looked up at him confused.

"See that baby? Ryuuzaki... Thats you. She took good care of you and braught you to me because she believed that you deserved better then her."

I fowned while everyone turned to stare at me. Watari played the rest of the tape. It was different snippets of memories that I could faintly remember... places that I had seen before. I watched intently. I wanted to see everything, I didnt want to miss a thing. We were so happy. I Obviously loved this girl when I was a baby... so how did I forget? What happened that had made me too sad to remember? I watched as Watari paused it to answer one of Mastuda's questions.

"The three of you were so happy... What happened?"

Then it hit me like a tonne of bricks and I started crying. I looked up and everyone was staring at me in shock. How did I not realise it before?

"The year came to an end. She left. S-she disappeared on my first birthday and was never heared of again until now. Watching the tape. I remember. She always he at least one leg clutched to her chest when she was sat down. A habit which I picked up, but with both legs. I remember that she bit her thumb and she twirled her hair. The thumb thing being another habit I picked up. I also remember one time. Just once. At the Whammy house. For the breifest of moments she was there. Dropping off another baby. He was three when she brought him to the orphanage. She had found him a month before that. It would seem that that baby picked up a few of her other traits like the hair thing and the one leg. I didnt think much of is then as I was only a child and did not really remember her."

The video continued and I started to cry harder as I saw how we were sat playing with my old toys. I sobbed as she started to cry as she picked me up kissed my forehead and tucked me into bed. I cried and I watched her almost fall apart when I spoke to her...

"Ka-. Ka-. Kaa-. Ka-. K-." It had been edited to hide all of our real names. So it was only clippets of my baby-ish words that we had heared. I cried harder as the video showing her leaving the room and closing the door... hearing my baby cries and screams which only made her cry harder. I looked at her tear-stained face as she hugged the young Watari, picked up her backpack and ran from the house, trying her hardest not to looks back.

"W-whay did s-she cry so much a-after hearing him t-talk?" Came Matsuda's voice again, this time it was thick with tears and sadness.

"Ryuuzaki was calling our her name... It was the first time he had ever spoken. Her name was his first words." Watari answered. Everone was crying. It was a sad scene, for everyone. Watari was the only one to not shed a tear. I heared a smash and quickly turned around to see K stood there open-mouthed and staring and the tv screen which was frozen on a picture of us playing with my toys the day she left. The source of the crash would be the broken coffee cup on the floor. She stared at the screen before running away as fast as humanly possible. I tooka second to dry my tears before racing after her.

Hey, hope you liked it. Please, review, tell me if you think I should continue with this story.

Btw, as much of a Huge death note fan I am... I am still not too sure of their (L/Ryuuzaki and Watari's) real names so... I guessed... please tell me if they are wrong and I will correct them in the next chapter thank you. x. hope you enjoyed it. x.