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Summary: One shot. Song-fic.

Jesse leaves without warning, and Suze tries to calm down by driving. Only she is so distraught that she crashes through a guard rail.

Song: Armor for Sleep; Car Underwater

"I'm sorry Jesse, but ever since you've left I've been miserable. I hope you find what you need. Move on, now is the perfect time. I don't need you, like I always thought. I just wanted you, but you made it quite clear; you never wanted me.

Please, don't come back, I can't handle the awkwardness between us. Just leave. Have a happy after-life.

Love,

Susannah"

I grabbed the car keys and ran out the door.

The road called to me, and I answered willingly.

Bright lights blind me. I swerved to miss the other car, and then I was flying.

"Querida."

The fall seemed to last forever. But then came the end.

I always liked the ocean. I never thought of how perfect a final resting place it would make.

Believe the news, I'm gone for good.
Call off the search, no one will know that im down here
Believe the note I left for you
You can't turn back the clocks, you can't pull me up from here so don't even try

'I can't believe he just left. No goodbye, no nothing! And now this, a girl can't even die in peace.'

Thoughts of Jesse stream through my mind. All the memories I cherished. All the memories I want to forget.

'Hopefully I'll lose consciousness soon. Then I won't hear his voice. Then I can go in peace.'

"Querida."

'What will everyone think? They'll think I ran away. Only…I wasn't running.'

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

'If he only knew the truth. If he only knew I love him. Or loved him really.'

"Querida."

'If only that 1 word would stop repeating in my mind. It almost makes me want to try. To try and live. But he's gone, for good.'

Make time slower, give me longer.
It's too late for me; no one will know that im down here.
Believe you're dreams of me sinking
so far, below, you can't pull me up from here so don't even try.

'All hope is lost. He never loved me anyway. I was just too stupid to see it. That kiss was nothing for him. But to me…it was everything.'

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

'Cold, it's so cold. Darkness is here.'

All thoughts erased. Only one word resounding in my head.

'He's calling me. But it's too late for me.'

I'm in a car underwater with time to kill, thinking back I forgot to tell you this
I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is I would still die for you.

"Querida!"

'And all is silent…at last.'