Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi…nope, all the credit goes to the Canadians
Chapter One
I never quite got over Sean. I mean, he was the one guy that I truly ever loved. Sure, I "dated" Marco and crap like that, but it wasn't like my relationship with Sean. That relationship was deep. I trusted him, he trusted me. It was perfect. Until he left.
Then I got stuck with the freaking rent trying to fend for myself in this little dump of an apartment while everyone's moving on, changing. And it was just me. Alone. Little old Ellie. The misfit, the looser, the goth. Not to ever be loved by anyone, right? Well, except Sean of course.
People always label me. Or even worse they judge me. They take on look at the dark eyeliner and clothing and they automatically assume that I'm some kind of freak. That I'm incapable of being a kind, sweet person, that I'm cold and can never love.
Sean didn't judge me. Of course, that was probably because he was like me. People feared Sean; and when they didn't fear him, they hated him. See, he was a troublemaker. He stole things. Me, I could careless, because along with stealing Snake's laptop, he also stole my heart.
The feeling knowing that someone loves you is indescribable. I can't even begin to put words to it, it's just, incredible. When I was with Sean, I felt loved and cared for. I was the happiest I had even been.
But like every good thing in my life it had to just be taken away. Stupid shooting, Degrassi would be so much better if it never happen. If Rick never happened. But it did. And we're all stuck like this, upset and changed forever.
You can see the difference in everyone. Jimmy of course, became paralyzed, Hazel, being so shallow, can't look at her boyfriend the same anymore, Emma went psycho and went down on Jay, and Mr. Radditch completely dropped of the face of the earth. But it affected Sean the most, he just couldn't stand playing the "hero." So he abandoned all his friends and most importantly me and left Degrassi completely. So much for loving Ellie right?
The night that Sean left, I didn't sleep. Not at all. My eyes stayed open and I lied in the empty apartment staring at the ceiling. God, I hated him that night. I couldn't believe he left me. I loved him, wasn't that enough to make him stay? But no he had to go back home to his parents and leave me alone and back where I had started from before he left.
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