I noticed her on my freshman year of high school. She caught my attention with her bright blue hair. Of course her hair wasn't natural but it looked that way. Halfway through freshman year by coincidence, she sat next to me at a pep rally.
So she decided to pass the time by talking to me. I found out that her name is lapis lazali and she was really nice , sweet plus really sarcastic. I also found out that she was interested in aquatic science. I felt this warm bubbling in my chest when talking to her, but decided to ignore it. After that interaction I never spoke to her again and the warm bubbling stopped.
I later found out we had the same lunch shifts. So , when jasper and i sit at our table, I look over to see her and her group. Evey time i looked at her, my head felt fuzzy and my insides felt warm. I also had this stupid fucking smile on my face when i looked.
I tried and failed to not make it obvious that I would steal glances at her. Jasper "the not as dumb as you think jock" would take notice and tried to see who i was looking at.
"Who you looking at peri"? I look away from the group to jasper and those bubbling feelings instantly died. I'm not saying jaspers ugly, its just our relationship is purely platonic.
"Pearl" i lied because obviously jasper had a thing for lapis.
"Going for the smart one aren't you peri"? Asshole, lapis is smart too you dumb fuck i thought.
"I just think that we have a lot in common ya know"? I shoved food in my mouth so i didn't have to speak anymore.
"I can see that, you both are fucking nerds. Also you both look like ya have a stick up your ass" jasper started laughing.
"Fuck you" i mumbled , food falling out of my mouth. "Ya want me to hook you guys up"? I started coughing hard from such a suggestion. I look over to lapis' group to find them staring at me. I blushed then bared my teeth growling at jasper.
"NO thank you jasper" I hushed out, i started to calm down. Slumping in my chair, dragging my hand through my hair.
"Besides, i wouldn't have a chance with her anyway" i said absentmindedly.
"Well, why the hell not" jasper huffed out.
"Well for starters pearl is basically all over a sophomore named rose and amethyst has a crush on pearl. Finally Garnet has a thing for both of them . So, chances are that they probably will all hook up before i even have a chance." Jasper looked befuddled. She looked to the group and back to me.
"How in the hell did you figure that out" i sighed "its all in the body language jasper, the love and acceptance they show each other is quite obvious." Jasper paused for a minute, taking the information all in until - "well what about lapis, what do you see in her"? I looked at lapis for a bit before facing jasper. "She notices the dynamic with her friends as i do but can't seem to fit in".
"Well, do i h-" whatever jasper had to say was smothered by the ringing bell. We cleaned up and started to head to our next class. She bumped me to get my attention. "What"? Jasper looked uncomfortable trying to form words.
"Do you think i have a chance with lapis"? I froze at the question, she stood in front of me waiting for my answer.
"I don't know" i said as i walk into class.