I live a double life. To my colleagues and most of my family, I'm just a straight, bitchy store manager with no real direction in life. To very few friends and select relatives, I'm an insecure musician and bisexual. Every day, I wake up wishing I had the balls to just come out to everyone, quit my job, and go on tour. My dad, Raife Davies, is a very famous and talented musician and he is one of the very few people that really knows me. He's offered over and over to set me up in the studio to record an album but I always find an excuse to back out. My mom knows that I want to be a musician and am bisexual, but she can be so pushy. I know she means well but she can be too much.

I'm Ashley Davies. I've been working at the same damn store for three years and got promoted to manager pretty quickly. I try to escape to the L.A. nightlife as much as possible with my best friends Madison and Aiden. They, besides my parents and sister, Kyla, are the only ones who know that I'm bisexual and about my music. My friends keep pushing for me to follow my dreams and come out, but I just don't have the confidence.

I haven't been with too many girls but I know that I like them. I like guys too, but I get screwed over a lot more by them than I do girls. In my last relationship, I was with a guy named Jason and he fucked me over badly. He took advantage of me in so many ways. Emotionally, financially, even physically a couple times. Since we broke up, my mom has been pushing for me to be with a girl. I don't really understand why but I don't argue. My mother wants me to get married quickly and have kids and she has really gotten on my nerves.

I finally told my mom that I was dating a girl I work with, Spencer, just to make her happy. Truthfully, I do kind of like Spencer. We've been working together for almost a year now. She's kind of reserved, but can be outgoing when she wants to be. She's in great shape; her store shirt hugs her body perfectly. Her jeans look amazing on her and I've caught myself a few times staring at her ass. She has a beautiful smile and perfect teeth. Spencer is so funny and I absolutely love her personality. I just wish I had the courage to actually ask her out.

My mom is really pleased that I'm "dating" Spencer. I just hope she and Spencer don't find out that I've been lying.