Where Do I Fit In?

By: Karma's Slave

Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts.

Alternate Universe

Warning: Spoilers for Vanitas Identity.

Xion thoughts are narrating this story, at the same time she or another is speaking.

"Where do I even begin?" I said taking a deep breath in then out, "alright, how about we start it like this"

"My name Is, Xion Fair; I am the youngest of five siblings, me being the fifth child of Zack Fair and Tifa Lockheart." Did I surprise you there? Yeah, a lot of people did think my dad was going to marry, this woman named, Aerith Gainsborough but in the month that he was going to propose to her; she left him for another man named Cloud Strife, that my mother happened to be somewhat seeing at the time. They were really both emotionally destroyed, especially my mom but as she always told us, it was our dad that brought her back to life.

"but after a night of solace comforting passion, and nine months later, my oldest brother, Ventus Fair was born." Yeah, I know disgusting right, how my mother told us those details, oh to be of the drinking age so that I can repress these disturbing mental images.

"Ventus Fair, the first born...As much at it kills me to admit this; my brother is practicality the perfect one, out of all of us. He's the one more likely to go to college, have a high white collar job and Did I mention he's the favorite by default, also known as, mainly because he's first born due to all the time and special nurturing invested in him."

"One to two years later, my seconded oldest brother, Vanitas Fair; He's...how do ya put it?... anti-social, not that I blame him, he's always been that way. Ever since Roxas, Sora and I born, Vanitas was pushed from the baby of the family to the middle child. It majorly fucked my brother up it made him less connected to his family, there were times he really tried to be connected to us but it never went in his favor.

"Another year goes by and Sora and Roxas Fair are born fraternal twins. Sora's the peacekeeper of the family while he's also on the somewhat naïve side. Roxas is Ven's doppelganger as Sora is Vanitas, except for his hair color. Roxas is opposite Ventus. He makes his choices opposite of Ven and Sora, well this is a theory of mine but I honestly think he has the personality that Vanitas should have had.

"And lastly there's me, the biggest surprise of daddy's life. After the twins were born, mom and dad agreed that four was enough...about five months later, mom was pregnant again. I'm...the last born...the only girl of the brood. The artist, the comedian and more open minded and yet I feel like the black sheep out. I mean I have my mom to relate to for related XX chromosome things. My dad loves me no doubt about that and I help him fix up the house more than the guys but that's all the bonding that we really have."

"And then there are the relationships with my brothers,

With Ventus, there's the 'I'll help with your homework' and 'the used to read me stories to bed with funny voices.' With Sora, its he treats me more like a friend then a sister, and since he befriends everyone in the damn world, to me it doesn't seem nor even feel like much. With Roxas, at least we hung out, or we did, now that he got a girlfriend...I've been less then social, I.E locking myself in my room, playing with my laptop while pretending not be emotional about it. And then with Vanitas...he's mean, to me, to all of us, except mom and dad. That's how we know he's still human."

"Yesterday, during our end of the summer BBQ, we were all eating outside, along with some guests, my brothers friends, Ven's best friend Terra and Terra's girlfriend Aqua, Roxas's girlfriend Namine and his friend Axel, Sora had Riku and Kairi; even Vanitas had a friend over, his new girl, Larxene, she is such a bitch! Anyway, Sora clumsily dropped a bowl of mixed vegetables complete with their juices...down my black tank-top, now while I sat there with my eyes closed, reacting to the coldness of the juice, Vanitas opens his mouth, to say,

"It still won't help them grow, Xion" Vanitas, saying in front of everyone, hitting the one thing I was very sore and insecure about and again saying in front of three people of which I happened to have former secret crushes on, Terra...Axel...and Riku. Everyone laughed out of good fun while I didn't because with Vanitas I knew when he was truly joking and when he just wanted to be mean, my mom telling me, to go and clean up. I held my head high as I went into the house to myself clean up. I.E. going to lock myself in my bedroom's bathroom and cry my blue eyes out.

It was about ten minutes before anyone came to see if I was alright, as I sat on the tile floor of the bathroom. My knees to my chest, my face buried in my arms; it was moments like this I wish I had a friend to talk too, sure at school I chatted with anyone else, we have a fun time talking. And when I see them again, it's like we never even met. I've gotten used to that by now. And I talk to the others except for Larxene expect to me it feels like, friends by association due to siblings.

And then the there was the knock on the door, I prayed in my head for it not be Vanitas. As I went to open it, "you alright?" asked my father. He was well aware of how much Vanitas acted like a twat-waffle especially to me. I didn't say anything. All I could to make myself feel better was to just hug my dad and I'd be fine.

Xion snapped from her the flashback of her humiliation as she got ready for her another year of high school, Xion, Sora and Roxas where in the same grade, Xion was pushed up a grade due to her I.Q. while Vanitas was a junior and Ventus was a senior

Xion looked into her mirror, "please let this be a good year." Xion whispered to herself.

"Xion! We've got to get going!" shouted Vanitas as he bangs on the door with his hand.

"Alright! I'm coming down now you twat-waffle!"

End Chapter one.