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Hinata's Soliloquy
Heroines in a novel are almost always brave, strong and beautiful. They charge into battle quickly and with out faltering but never without thinking. Heroines are almost always surrounded by princes and handsome robbers ready to sweep her off her feet and allow her to show a more feminine side. Heroines are always perfect.
Not me.
Though it is a bit presumptuous of me to compare myself to a heroine, I'm only good little Hinata. Good for taking up the third spot on a 3-man team but not much else.
I guess Kiba and Shino understand me best, they are my teammates after all. But even they only know the surface. I mean, even quiet people have personalities too. Just because I'm shy people judge me without really knowing me. People don't know my favorite color is purple, or that I play tennis, but not really well. Actually, I don't really do anything well.
Weak and shy.
Low on self-esteem too.
But, I mean, I'm a girl, too. I have feelings, crushes. Oh, sure, they vary, but I'm not ready for a serious relationship at twelve anyway.
I think the first guy I liked was Kiba. He's my teammate so we had something in common. And he was always nice to me, helping me to my feet if I fell down on a mission, rolling his eyes albeit but still nice. Or maybe it was just for the team...
After I got over Kiba, I liked (don't laugh) Sasuke. I know it was a hopeless cause but at the time I was every bit a Sasuke-groupie as Ino or Sakura. Just not like Ino and Sakura.
I think they're the reason I got over him so quickly. I mean, I like dark, mysterious guys (who doesn't?) But I just didn't have the kind of commitment Ino and Sakura had to throw into it.
Sometimes I wish I was more like them, Ino and Sakura, they're able to communicate with people so easily, they don't even stammer! And they seem so strong compared to me, they can just say what they think without worrying what others think. They go up to Sasuke every day and tell him of they're undying devotion.
Not that it's doing them much good.
Then during the Chunin exams I liked Naruto. He kinda reminded me of Kiba and I've always liked guys with blond hair. He was always nice to me, and honorable. During the exams he refused to copy my paper, even if it meant expulsion.
But he's too caught up with the hopelessly unattainable Sakura. And that was fine with me because by that time I'd found someone better.
Gaara.
Yes, Gaara, the alluring and mysterious sand shinobi from Suna.
He was aloof and ruthless and completely uncaring. But deep inside I knew he was truly yearning for something more than the endless bloodshed. And that time during the second part of the Chunin exams when he almost killed me and my companions doesn't really count.
Deep inside, I know.
Deep, deep inside.
Really deep inside.
Maybe I'll go talk to Kankuro...