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Suicide. The word left a nasty taste in her mouth. Did they ever think about the people they left behind? Did they think about the hurt they left and the tears that would fall over their casket? These thoughts ran through her head as she stared down as the casket of her only sister was lowered into the ground.

She tossed the fragil red Rose unto the casket as the petals fell from the stem. She closed her eyes and pictured her sister as she wanted to remember her. Sunny and warm and so full of life. Bold and beautiful and ready to take on the world. She didn't want to think of her as she had become. Sullen and listless despondent and cold. She didn't want to think about the phone call telling her, her sister took her own life. No For though the evidence was in front of her that Rosalie Lillian Swan Cullen was dead her baby sister wouldn't believe it.

"Rose Why did you leave me." She whispered into the wind trying to hold her fly away hair away from her face. She glanced over at him. Alone and so sad. He looked like he was going to cave in on himself. She knew that if it wasn't for his Sister and his best friend he would be falling down on the ground right now. As much as she wanted to help him to comfort him and tell him it would be ok she couldn't. Not now maybe not ever.

She blamed him for her sister's death oh maybe he didn't give her the pills or force her to take them but if he hadn't gotten her pregnant against her doctor's orders no one would be standing here right now. Bella knew that maybe she was being unrealistic Rose had wanted a baby so badly but here she stood at her sister's gravesite her only sister and she needed to blame someone so she blamed him. Why couldn't he have been stronger why couldn't he have brought her out of the depression after the miscarriage. Why? Screamed in Bella's head. The clouds opened up and the rain pounded the ground and she wondered if her sister was watching her.

"Oh Rose." She breathed. The rain pounded down harder and the tears fell down her face. No way to tell where the tears began and where the rain ended. She felt a hand on her arm and looked up at the said eyes of her father. "Hi daddy." He brought her close and held her.

"Ready to go baby girl?"

"I guess." Her eyes flashed back to the gravesite leaving her sister hear felt so wrong.

"You're mother's at home she's set everything up." She only nodded numbly letting herself be led away. That's when she heard it. The cry that broke the silence. She turned around and watched him crumble to the ground. The sounds coming from him sent shivers down her back and she tried to steel herself against his anguish. She bite her lip and tasted the blood. She felt her father beside her start towards them.

"NO." She stilled him with her hand.

"Bella he needs us."

"No." she turned to her father fire burning in her blue eyes. "I need you." She jabbed a finger in the direction of him. "He doesn't need you. He has them." She hissed her eyes narrowing at his best friend and sister. She was shaking and Charlie held her close.

"Shh baby it's ok." He wanted to go to his son in law offer him comfort but he couldn't his daughter his baby girl his only surviving child needed him and she wasn't willing to forgive right now and he wasn't going to make it worse for her. "Come on Sweet one." He whispered helping her to the car he shut the door behind her looking behind him he saw as Alice and Edward helped Emmett into the other car.

As they pulled away the world awash in sadness Bella saw his face and refused to feel sorry for him. Her heart was hardened to him. She felt her self-cracking and shook her head. "It's his fault." She mumbled. "If it wasn't for him I'd still have my sister." Charlie shook his head sadly. He could tell Bella that wasn't true that Rose had been head strong and would get her way but Bella wasn't willing to hear that right now.

They pulled into the driveway and Charlie shut the car down. "Are you ready to go in?"

"As ready as I'll ever be." Bella opened the door and walked out unto the gravel pathway towards the house she'd entered so many times before. She froze as they pulled in next to them and he got out. She turned away before the sadness on his face could imprint on her mind. She walked towards the house looking forward. Opening the door she felt the oppressive sadness weight down on her. She felt the looks that were directed at her and she gritted her teeth.

"Oh Sweetie." She braced herself to be hugged by Mrs. Cope. "How are you holding up?"

"Fine." Bella mumbled how did these people really think she was holding up. "I have to go and find my mother." She excused herself and wound her way through the house. She stopped in the kitchen covered in dishes of food "Mom." She called out gently. Renee Swan looked up from the salad she was picking at.

"Oh Bella." Renee walked to her daughter and hugged her. "Here darling eat something." Renee piled a plate full and hold it out to her. Taking it Bella tried to force something down.

"Only if you eat to." Renee took a small bite but Bella could see she wasn't into it. "I wish everyone would go home."

"they want to show there respect for your sister."

"why most of them didn't like her when she was alive why start now." Bella snorted.

"Isabella Marie." Renee tried to admonish but she was just to tired and let it drop.

"You know its true." Bella slammed her plate down and glared at it and he's in the house."

"He is a great man and you used to love him he was her husband and he's family." Renee tried to talk to her daughter gently.

"I don't care he killed her."

"Isabella Marie Swan." Renee now was upset even more.

"We can all deny it but everyone knows if Rose had never met Emmett Cullen she'd still be alive today." Turning around Bella stormed out of the kitchen not even noticing the broken down Emmett Cullen in her path.

A/N This is my new story and yes it will be a Emmett and Bella story but it won't be easy and it won't be pretty and you may not like Bella or Emmett or some of the other characters sometimes but this is going to be real and raw as they deal with death and life guilt and secrets. Please review reviews are what get me to write more and also check out my story Broken Sisterhood which is a story about Bella Rose and Alice and the sisterhood they lost long ago.